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updates
-i feel like ive been replaced but apparently it doesnt count since they're not acting on their feelings and its only sligghtly??? im so fuckking hurt especially bc the person they’re thinking ab rebounding with confessed feelings less than 2 weeks after finding out we split and has clearly been waiting for us to break up and ive been saying that for months now. we were also still seeing one another just without the pressure of a relationship and she seemed to wuit reciprocating See More the moment thus person jumped in. im also devastated bc i thought this person was a rly good friend. we used to birdwatch together and had plans to write together bc theyre a rly talented songwriter. i cut her off after finding out and im also mourning that friendship.
-considering buying cigarettes again just to get this over with faster lmao
-work is cool tho
-also my friends r cool
-and ive been writing songs about it
-im just so exhausted and i dont think it will get better and i feel like im gonna inevitably die of malnutrition soon i have not been anywhere near this skinny since i started high school my face is starting to hollow out and i look like a ghost god i just want to feel pretty again

remember titanthehedghe

does anyone remember that one person i forget their name but they made that one post that was like “i am an ultimately rare aries and im the only aries in the world and aries are friends with leprechauns…” and it kept going i NEED that post!!!!its been deleted im pretty sure and its driving me crazy that i cant remember it😭

spoilers x

finally watched south park pandemic special😭 randy bestiality arc is insane

south park brainrot is real ehy did i have a dream about randy marsh blowing up chicago

updates
-still very in love w her but i feel less attached. i can live without her but i cant see myself being happy w/ anyone else and to fall asleep i fantasize about coming home to her after work and making us tea and sitting down to read together on the couch
-started my job!! 4th day tomorrow, i love it very much, a literal dream
-saw baby ducks today
-where is my period

kinda miss 2020. everything was going to shit but at least we wanted to do something. people actually cared about things and were actually taking to the streets and advocating for a change?? now there is a genocide going on in palestine and regardless of who wins the election we r headed straight for fascism. why aren’t we DOING ANYTHING.who u vote for doesn’t rly even matter, the dems have known about project 2025 and have done nothing to stop it. the two party system is an illusion See More to turn the people against one another and the real enemy is the government. and the fact that we are even choosing THE LEADER OF OUR COUNTRY through “the lesser of two evils” logic is crazy. like i don’t see how everyone is being so normal about it, its insane. we don’t need to be arguing with people over it and getting in petty internet altercations, we need a revolution. its literally the only option

updates, not much but very important ones
-the breakup has been rough. i took it sooo hard and my bpd turned into a dragon but im feeling much better today and i still love her dearly and am looking forward to seeing her more as friends. i do hope we can be lovers again someday in the future but it isn’t an idea that i want to swallow me whole.
-I GOT A JOB and im actually EXCITED about it!!! my nightmare throughout this entire job search was that i was gonna have to go far out See More of the city and i’d be stuck working late shifts a minimum wage fast food job but im working at a GORGEOUS european bakery in a rly beautiful part of town and the manager is super kind and we seem to have some very similar values
-slowly but surely, im putting myself back together. im nowhere near there yet. it still feels like i’m being torn apart when i think about what we had, but it isn’t the end of the world. im finding joy in the little things again

i should learn french

been watching so much south park lately my inner monologue is eric cartman

6 benesdryl save me

in 2021 i posted “i hope the china rocket lands directly on morrissey” on qfeast dot com thank GOD people r normal now and can mention morrissey/the smiths without being mean or else get attacked on tiktok (morrissey is racist and gross however i like his music and i fw the other smiths members)

today was ok, got a cool skirt, im gonna wear it when i kill myself

i think 2020 brea would be very proud to know that despite me being lesbian and feeling no serious attraction to men id prob still kiss long hair david bowie on the mouth no hesitation

life updates
-im so bored im doing my math homework for FUN
-kinda wanna end it

yk i cant even make fun of skibidi toilet kids qfeast brainrot was so bad bro what were we doing

Ballz

some musicians i wouldve loved to introduce my younger self and why

-fiona apple: needed her when i was 15, in quarantine and trying to cope with something extremely traumatic on top of my first major (at the time undiagnosed) bpd episode. prob for the best i didnt know about her lmao i wouldve probably actually killed myself
-the smiths: ok ive liked the smiths FOREVER n j didnt listen to/talk ab them super often bc they werent what was “cool” but good god i wouldve been a See More fuckking menace had i rly gotten deep into smithsland in 2017 when i was obsessed w british ppl
-car seat headrest: specifically when i was into homestuck that wouldve been SO FUCKKING FUNNY femcel fetus
-diane cluck: god she’s incredible thats it thats the reason why
-hole: my stupid edgy brainwashed 13 year old ass would have LOVED courtney love (im sorry)
-julien baker: god i needed her SO BAD during my weird christian phase where i decided i was straight for a short while and also she prob would've lead to my demise like fiona apple
-mustard service: if i knew ab these guys before the weird freak girl who introduced me to them that wouldve been awesome

college is crazy i cant believe i have to spend 3 hours of monkey webcams (theyre FREAKS btw)