i accidentally misread the title of the “discover your inner disney sidekick” quiz as “discover your inner skibidi” (i am 20 and have nevee willingly watched a skibidi toilet video)
on June 12, 2024
two more updates
-we discussed getting an apartment (we r still involved even tho we arent gfs anymore…for now…)
-friend of mine said hes gonna be “just like me but with booze his freshman year” (i was high all the time DO NOT DO THAT)
-we discussed getting an apartment (we r still involved even tho we arent gfs anymore…for now…)
-friend of mine said hes gonna be “just like me but with booze his freshman year” (i was high all the time DO NOT DO THAT)
on June 09, 2024
i started learning dutch a while back of that one dude i used to talk to and now joost klein is getting super popular on tiktok and its so funny bc im def not fluent enough to understand a full song but i understand several lines and then he’ll say something like “tussen de tieten” and i yell
ALSO in the same song the background vocals r him yelling “vogelpoep” which is just “bird poop” and i think thats funny asf
on June 07, 2024
on June 07, 2024
recent news
-still no job i kinda hate this i hate capitalism
-we broke up (sorta??) it was mutual in the end and sorta complicated, we’re still romantic partners but things j werent working out like that. nothing between us really, we’re still very much in love and didn’t want to split but outside situations forced it. we’ll prob try again when we figure out some stuff. she’s struggling and ive been taking it rly hard but im trying.
-taking online classes which is goin pretty See More well.
-wrote a new song yesterday but its just lyrics without a melody
-had a good time at the ponds with my friend
-still no job i kinda hate this i hate capitalism
-we broke up (sorta??) it was mutual in the end and sorta complicated, we’re still romantic partners but things j werent working out like that. nothing between us really, we’re still very much in love and didn’t want to split but outside situations forced it. we’ll prob try again when we figure out some stuff. she’s struggling and ive been taking it rly hard but im trying.
-taking online classes which is goin pretty See More well.
-wrote a new song yesterday but its just lyrics without a melody
-had a good time at the ponds with my friend
on June 07, 2024
if i could go back in time i would introduce my 2019-2020 teenager with undiagnosed bpd self to fiona apple, i think that would’ve either solved all of my problems or made me kill myself
on June 04, 2024
i think personally my gf getting a stomach bug at the beginning of pride month (on the day of our aquarium date nonetheless) was an act of homophobia
on June 04, 2024
its been 3 weeks since i yapped sorry
-im rly far head in my summer math course!!!
-been seein some friends lately which has been cool n good!!
-today was supposed to be me n my gf’s aquarium date (which we’ve been trying to do since like april) but she has been violently sick all day so that got cancelled n i kinda feel rly bad bc i wish i could’ve offered to keep her company n take care of her bc being sick alone is miserable but im so scared of ppl throwing up even if it’s See More my dear sweet princess angel unfortunately:(
-went to a show on thursday which was cool (my gf’s show, also likely where the caught the disease)
-found a weevil earlier
-went back to being non-vegetarian. rly wanted to keep it up bc animals but ive been so terribly malnourished and no matter how many nuts and legumes i eat i cant get enough iron and protein so im always fatigued and miserable
-im rly far head in my summer math course!!!
-been seein some friends lately which has been cool n good!!
-today was supposed to be me n my gf’s aquarium date (which we’ve been trying to do since like april) but she has been violently sick all day so that got cancelled n i kinda feel rly bad bc i wish i could’ve offered to keep her company n take care of her bc being sick alone is miserable but im so scared of ppl throwing up even if it’s See More my dear sweet princess angel unfortunately:(
-went to a show on thursday which was cool (my gf’s show, also likely where the caught the disease)
-found a weevil earlier
-went back to being non-vegetarian. rly wanted to keep it up bc animals but ive been so terribly malnourished and no matter how many nuts and legumes i eat i cant get enough iron and protein so im always fatigued and miserable
@tecna yea😭 literally nothing works for me atp, i think its partially because of how active i am, i walk everywhere bc im anxious ab germs on public transport and cant afford to uber everywhere
on June 04, 2024
for protein have u tried tofu? i neglect my needs sometimes so when i need protein i just eat a raw brick of it 😭
on June 04, 2024
on June 03, 2024
recent updates, theres not much tho
-classes ended this past week and i cannot believe im like halfway through with college
-today’s me n my gf’s 5 month anniversary + we had a sleepover last night
-i played my festival show on friday which went really really well
-still looking for a job..
-classes ended this past week and i cannot believe im like halfway through with college
-today’s me n my gf’s 5 month anniversary + we had a sleepover last night
-i played my festival show on friday which went really really well
-still looking for a job..
on May 12, 2024
STEVE ALBINI FUCKKING DIED WHAT
on May 08, 2024
masterclass today for vocal studies and my twee ass is out here dressed like a mountain dwelling lesbian for some reason (idk if theres a dress code) also my voice is DESTROYED rn between allergies and my other classes
starting today my ass has 5 performances, the masterclass, a thing at this coffee shop i go to, a recital for songwriting (which lowkey im so scared bc my songwriting prof constantly hypes me up as this super talented wordsmith even tho i have no idea whats rly going on and i dont wanna get up there and be a disappointment GOD) and then orchestra and ive got See More that festival on friday im dying im dead
on May 03, 2024
on May 03, 2024
more updates
-allergies during finals week as a music major r EVIL
-job interview tomorrow might die
-had an emetophobia scare at trader joes on saturday bc some kid threw up i didnt catch anything tho
-another emetophobia scare today my gf n i were hanging out n she started feeling real sick and i was like “ok maybe ill call u an uber !” i actually am proud of myself bc even when she was like “im gonna move to the curb so if i throw up its not on the sidewalk” i went with her See More and kept rubbing her back and stuff (she ended up not doing it while i was there but im still proud that i didnt freak out and run off) im still sorta scared ill catch smth bc we kissed
-orchestra was so fun today, me n the guitar players pretended to pass a joint around when it hit 4:20 which was so funny
-ive felt so pretty lately
-allergies during finals week as a music major r EVIL
-job interview tomorrow might die
-had an emetophobia scare at trader joes on saturday bc some kid threw up i didnt catch anything tho
-another emetophobia scare today my gf n i were hanging out n she started feeling real sick and i was like “ok maybe ill call u an uber !” i actually am proud of myself bc even when she was like “im gonna move to the curb so if i throw up its not on the sidewalk” i went with her See More and kept rubbing her back and stuff (she ended up not doing it while i was there but im still proud that i didnt freak out and run off) im still sorta scared ill catch smth bc we kissed
-orchestra was so fun today, me n the guitar players pretended to pass a joint around when it hit 4:20 which was so funny
-ive felt so pretty lately
on May 02, 2024
sorry snufkin the franz kafka hyperfixation is going crazy rn
on May 01, 2024
i woke up and immediately put the smiths on, thats how todays going so far
on May 01, 2024
i wonder what owen’s up to now (hopefully in therapy and if not, in prison) the older i get in hindsight the way he treated me was INSANE
i was like 12 roleplaying pokemon smut with this FULLY GROWN ADULT MAN bc he would threaten to kill himself if i didnt
on April 30, 2024
on April 30, 2024
men who go out of their way to hate on taylor swift r so weird
@mayonnaise they bitch about how “obsessed” her fans are when they’re just as obsessed only the other way
on April 29, 2024
on April 29, 2024
on April 29, 2024
on April 26, 2024
being a songwriter is so funny im literally a professional yapper and ppl think its cool
on April 25, 2024
on April 25, 2024