peachytea - Page 7

“Drown myself in alcohol, that don't never help at all
I might say some stupid things tonight when you pick up this call
I've been hearing silence on the other side for way too long
I can taste it on my tongue
I can tell that something's wrong
But I guess it's just my life
And I can take it if I wanna See More
But I cannot hide
In hills of California
Because these hills have eyes
And I got paranoia
I hurt myself sometimes
Is that too scary for you?”

My little pet just passed away. Heartbroken and devastated.

I had a dream last night that I was in high school again. I kinda do miss that era of my life but I'm always glad it's over too. I miss some of my former classmates I'd see but that's it. It was so stressful.

Some life updates. 🦋


- Getting my licenses soon hopefully. (?)
- Trying to find a job has been literal hell. It feels impossible.
- I started reading a lot again, my only good coping mechanism lol.
- I'm thinking a lot about my music and I really want to release good songs.
- Lately I've been thinking I want to be a nail technician? It's either that or go into acting or a teacher. I've always wanted to be a singer/an actress but I have a lot of things to think about and See More plan for to be honest.
- Still thinking about making a comic book or a children's book.
- I'm single again. 🥲

I miss 2014-2016 qfeast. Fun times.

Just realized someone I considered a friend blocked me without warning a while ago. I'm back at the point where I completely hate myself, I can't keep friendships or relationships anymore. I honestly don't even know what I did or said so I'm confused but oh well.

I forgot how cool dark mode is. Anyways my birthday is in 25 days.

Anyways, here's some life updates. 🦋


- I can't afford my school bill so I have no idea when I'll ever get to graduate.

- My partner hasn't talked to me in about 2 weeks and we haven't seen each other since December. I'm pretty sure I'm single again so yeah. There's that.

- My weight is constantly up and down, it's kinda stressing me out really bad to be honest but it is what it is I guess.

- Lost the job I had over some stupid ass drama and it's been hell trying to find See More another decent job I'm capable of doing but I'm hoping I can find something.

- I'm anxious that I'll never get to be a singer or make music. I want that more than anything right now but I'm afraid I'll never get to be popular/release decent music and it's soul crushing. I just want to be a good singer and have people that love me. 🥹🥹

I'm so fuсking tired.

I have exactly 39 days left of being a teen.. Does not feel real.

Last day of June.

Going through a rough depressive episode and I've never felt as alone as I do right now.

“Happy Anniversary! As of today, you have been with Qfeast for 1 year”

Try 10. 💀

I don't really have much to talk about these days lol. I still can't believe I'm on here.