peachytea - Page 5

“At the foot of the bed, knocking door to door
Eyes puffed up and so red and my body's sore
And I've done it all again as you're ripping me to shreds
Shreds, shreds, shreds

I feel nothing
Throw me in the backseat
Use me how you need See More
So long as I'm your favourite toy
Washed up
I'm cold and I'm alone
There's no one around to phone
But at least I'm your favourite toy

Can't you see I don't give a fuсk?
I don't want my body, don't want my luck
I don't want my stars, they're all yours to keep
And on the way out I won't make a peep”

I'm gonna start applying for more jobs and take my music more seriously from now on. I'm so set on becoming the best version of myself in every way possible.

Nothing will top how much I loved using this site in 2014/2015 lol. I wish it was still as fun as it used to be but I mainly post on hidden pages just to keep things so I know nobody else can see it.

August already. Sometimes I wish time would slow down for me.

“And I don't feel nothing at all
And you can't feel nothing small

"Honey, I love you," that's all she wrote

Oh, Ophelia, you've been on my mind, girl, like a drug
Oh, Ophelia, heaven help the fool who falls in love

Oh, Ophelia, you've been on my mind, girl, since the flood
Oh, Ophelia, heaven help the fool who falls in love.”

“Drown myself in alcohol, that don't never help at all
I might say some stupid things tonight when you pick up this call
I've been hearing silence on the other side for way too long
I can taste it on my tongue
I can tell that something's wrong
But I guess it's just my life
And I can take it if I wanna See More
But I cannot hide
In hills of California
Because these hills have eyes
And I got paranoia
I hurt myself sometimes
Is that too scary for you?”

My little pet just passed away. Heartbroken and devastated.

I had a dream last night that I was in high school again. I kinda do miss that era of my life but I'm always glad it's over too. I miss some of my former classmates I'd see but that's it. It was so stressful.

Some life updates. 🦋


- Getting my licenses soon hopefully. (?)
- Trying to find a job has been literal hell. It feels impossible.
- I started reading a lot again, my only good coping mechanism lol.
- I'm thinking a lot about my music and I really want to release good songs.
- Lately I've been thinking I want to be a nail technician? It's either that or go into acting or a teacher. I've always wanted to be a singer/an actress but I have a lot of things to think about and See More plan for to be honest.
- Still thinking about making a comic book or a children's book.
- I'm single again. 🥲

I miss 2014-2016 qfeast. Fun times.

Just realized someone I considered a friend blocked me without warning a while ago. I'm back at the point where I completely hate myself, I can't keep friendships or relationships anymore. I honestly don't even know what I did or said so I'm confused but oh well.

I forgot how cool dark mode is. Anyways my birthday is in 25 days.

Anyways, here's some life updates. 🦋


- I can't afford my school bill so I have no idea when I'll ever get to graduate.

- My partner hasn't talked to me in about 2 weeks and we haven't seen each other since December. I'm pretty sure I'm single again so yeah. There's that.

- My weight is constantly up and down, it's kinda stressing me out really bad to be honest but it is what it is I guess.

- Lost the job I had over some stupid ass drama and it's been hell trying to find See More another decent job I'm capable of doing but I'm hoping I can find something.

- I'm anxious that I'll never get to be a singer or make music. I want that more than anything right now but I'm afraid I'll never get to be popular/release decent music and it's soul crushing. I just want to be a good singer and have people that love me. 🥹🥹

I'm so fuсking tired.

I have exactly 39 days left of being a teen.. Does not feel real.

Last day of June.