updates
-still very in love w her but i feel less attached. i can live without her but i cant see myself being happy w/ anyone else and to fall asleep i fantasize about coming home to her after work and making us tea and sitting down to read together on the couch
-started my job!! 4th day tomorrow, i love it very much, a literal dream
-saw baby ducks today
-where is my period
-still very in love w her but i feel less attached. i can live without her but i cant see myself being happy w/ anyone else and to fall asleep i fantasize about coming home to her after work and making us tea and sitting down to read together on the couch
-started my job!! 4th day tomorrow, i love it very much, a literal dream
-saw baby ducks today
-where is my period
kafka
update found my period it showed up at work today (we were understaffed during a CRAZY rush and i couldn’t leave the register for most of the day so im p sure i bled through thank god for black pants)
on July 05
on July 04
kinda miss 2020. everything was going to shit but at least we wanted to do something. people actually cared about things and were actually taking to the streets and advocating for a change?? now there is a genocide going on in palestine and regardless of who wins the election we r headed straight for fascism. why aren’t we DOING ANYTHING.who u vote for doesn’t rly even matter, the dems have known about project 2025 and have done nothing to stop it. the two party system is an illusion See More to turn the people against one another and the real enemy is the government. and the fact that we are even choosing THE LEADER OF OUR COUNTRY through “the lesser of two evils” logic is crazy. like i don’t see how everyone is being so normal about it, its insane. we don’t need to be arguing with people over it and getting in petty internet altercations, we need a revolution. its literally the only option
as a syrian whose hometown (as in my family is from there) was bombed by democrats in 2012 im so glad people are FINALLY waking up to this 2 party bullshitttt. ive been harassed for saying i’ll never vote democrat (or republican!) but y’all finally get itttt
on July 02
on July 02
updates, not much but very important ones
-the breakup has been rough. i took it sooo hard and my bpd turned into a dragon but im feeling much better today and i still love her dearly and am looking forward to seeing her more as friends. i do hope we can be lovers again someday in the future but it isn’t an idea that i want to swallow me whole.
-I GOT A JOB and im actually EXCITED about it!!! my nightmare throughout this entire job search was that i was gonna have to go far out See More of the city and i’d be stuck working late shifts a minimum wage fast food job but im working at a GORGEOUS european bakery in a rly beautiful part of town and the manager is super kind and we seem to have some very similar values
-slowly but surely, im putting myself back together. im nowhere near there yet. it still feels like i’m being torn apart when i think about what we had, but it isn’t the end of the world. im finding joy in the little things again
-the breakup has been rough. i took it sooo hard and my bpd turned into a dragon but im feeling much better today and i still love her dearly and am looking forward to seeing her more as friends. i do hope we can be lovers again someday in the future but it isn’t an idea that i want to swallow me whole.
-I GOT A JOB and im actually EXCITED about it!!! my nightmare throughout this entire job search was that i was gonna have to go far out See More of the city and i’d be stuck working late shifts a minimum wage fast food job but im working at a GORGEOUS european bakery in a rly beautiful part of town and the manager is super kind and we seem to have some very similar values
-slowly but surely, im putting myself back together. im nowhere near there yet. it still feels like i’m being torn apart when i think about what we had, but it isn’t the end of the world. im finding joy in the little things again
on June 28
i should learn french
do NOT learn french this is a warning there are so many uneccessary letters taht dont even have sound
on June 27
on June 27
on June 25
6 benesdryl save me
on June 24
in 2021 i posted “i hope the china rocket lands directly on morrissey” on qfeast dot com thank GOD people r normal now and can mention morrissey/the smiths without being mean or else get attacked on tiktok (morrissey is racist and gross however i like his music and i fw the other smiths members)
on June 24
today was ok, got a cool skirt, im gonna wear it when i kill myself
/j btw (everyone knows im probably too curious to do anything even though everything is objectively horrible rn)
on June 22
on June 22
i think 2020 brea would be very proud to know that despite me being lesbian and feeling no serious attraction to men id prob still kiss long hair david bowie on the mouth no hesitation
on June 21
on June 20
yk i cant even make fun of skibidi toilet kids qfeast brainrot was so bad bro what were we doing
rectus betty sue ayako’s hamster chicken bawls cabbage raid boob war firey despacito underwear you may have become broken but i was BORN BROKEN marvavu fully naked photo of elton john
on June 20
on June 20
some musicians i wouldve loved to introduce my younger self and why
-fiona apple: needed her when i was 15, in quarantine and trying to cope with something extremely traumatic on top of my first major (at the time undiagnosed) bpd episode. prob for the best i didnt know about her lmao i wouldve probably actually killed myself
-the smiths: ok ive liked the smiths FOREVER n j didnt listen to/talk ab them super often bc they werent what was “cool” but good god i wouldve been a See More fuckking menace had i rly gotten deep into smithsland in 2017 when i was obsessed w british ppl
-car seat headrest: specifically when i was into homestuck that wouldve been SO FUCKKING FUNNY femcel fetus
-diane cluck: god she’s incredible thats it thats the reason why
-hole: my stupid edgy brainwashed 13 year old ass would have LOVED courtney love (im sorry)
-julien baker: god i needed her SO BAD during my weird christian phase where i decided i was straight for a short while and also she prob would've lead to my demise like fiona apple
-mustard service: if i knew ab these guys before the weird freak girl who introduced me to them that wouldve been awesome
-fiona apple: needed her when i was 15, in quarantine and trying to cope with something extremely traumatic on top of my first major (at the time undiagnosed) bpd episode. prob for the best i didnt know about her lmao i wouldve probably actually killed myself
-the smiths: ok ive liked the smiths FOREVER n j didnt listen to/talk ab them super often bc they werent what was “cool” but good god i wouldve been a See More fuckking menace had i rly gotten deep into smithsland in 2017 when i was obsessed w british ppl
-car seat headrest: specifically when i was into homestuck that wouldve been SO FUCKKING FUNNY femcel fetus
-diane cluck: god she’s incredible thats it thats the reason why
-hole: my stupid edgy brainwashed 13 year old ass would have LOVED courtney love (im sorry)
-julien baker: god i needed her SO BAD during my weird christian phase where i decided i was straight for a short while and also she prob would've lead to my demise like fiona apple
-mustard service: if i knew ab these guys before the weird freak girl who introduced me to them that wouldve been awesome
AND HMLTD OH MY GOD idek if they were even around but SPECIFICALLY 2015 2015 BREA WOULD HAVE EATEN UP HMLTD (the whole reason i made this post was bc i randomly remembered this boyinaband song i liked when i was 12 and it sorta reminded me of hmltd how did i forget to make this point)
on June 15
ALSO BLACK MIDI i just KNOW my pretentious high school freshman ass wouldve had them on blast in science class and relentlessly yap about how unique my music taste is i wouldve been so annoying about black midi
on June 15
on June 15
college is crazy i cant believe i have to spend 3 hours of monkey webcams (theyre FREAKS btw)
on June 12
i accidentally misread the title of the “discover your inner disney sidekick” quiz as “discover your inner skibidi” (i am 20 and have nevee willingly watched a skibidi toilet video)
on June 12
two more updates
-we discussed getting an apartment (we r still involved even tho we arent gfs anymore…for now…)
-friend of mine said hes gonna be “just like me but with booze his freshman year” (i was high all the time DO NOT DO THAT)
-we discussed getting an apartment (we r still involved even tho we arent gfs anymore…for now…)
-friend of mine said hes gonna be “just like me but with booze his freshman year” (i was high all the time DO NOT DO THAT)
on June 09
i started learning dutch a while back of that one dude i used to talk to and now joost klein is getting super popular on tiktok and its so funny bc im def not fluent enough to understand a full song but i understand several lines and then he’ll say something like “tussen de tieten” and i yell
ALSO in the same song the background vocals r him yelling “vogelpoep” which is just “bird poop” and i think thats funny asf
on June 07
on June 07