recent news
-still no job i kinda hate this i hate capitalism
-we broke up (sorta??) it was mutual in the end and sorta complicated, we’re still romantic partners but things j werent working out like that. nothing between us really, we’re still very much in love and didn’t want to split but outside situations forced it. we’ll prob try again when we figure out some stuff. she’s struggling and ive been taking it rly hard but im trying.
-taking online classes which is goin pretty See More well.
-wrote a new song yesterday but its just lyrics without a melody
-had a good time at the ponds with my friend
-still no job i kinda hate this i hate capitalism
-we broke up (sorta??) it was mutual in the end and sorta complicated, we’re still romantic partners but things j werent working out like that. nothing between us really, we’re still very much in love and didn’t want to split but outside situations forced it. we’ll prob try again when we figure out some stuff. she’s struggling and ive been taking it rly hard but im trying.
-taking online classes which is goin pretty See More well.
-wrote a new song yesterday but its just lyrics without a melody
-had a good time at the ponds with my friend
on June 07
if i could go back in time i would introduce my 2019-2020 teenager with undiagnosed bpd self to fiona apple, i think that would’ve either solved all of my problems or made me kill myself
on June 04
i think personally my gf getting a stomach bug at the beginning of pride month (on the day of our aquarium date nonetheless) was an act of homophobia
on June 04
its been 3 weeks since i yapped sorry
-im rly far head in my summer math course!!!
-been seein some friends lately which has been cool n good!!
-today was supposed to be me n my gf’s aquarium date (which we’ve been trying to do since like april) but she has been violently sick all day so that got cancelled n i kinda feel rly bad bc i wish i could’ve offered to keep her company n take care of her bc being sick alone is miserable but im so scared of ppl throwing up even if it’s See More my dear sweet princess angel unfortunately:(
-went to a show on thursday which was cool (my gf’s show, also likely where the caught the disease)
-found a weevil earlier
-went back to being non-vegetarian. rly wanted to keep it up bc animals but ive been so terribly malnourished and no matter how many nuts and legumes i eat i cant get enough iron and protein so im always fatigued and miserable
-im rly far head in my summer math course!!!
-been seein some friends lately which has been cool n good!!
-today was supposed to be me n my gf’s aquarium date (which we’ve been trying to do since like april) but she has been violently sick all day so that got cancelled n i kinda feel rly bad bc i wish i could’ve offered to keep her company n take care of her bc being sick alone is miserable but im so scared of ppl throwing up even if it’s See More my dear sweet princess angel unfortunately:(
-went to a show on thursday which was cool (my gf’s show, also likely where the caught the disease)
-found a weevil earlier
-went back to being non-vegetarian. rly wanted to keep it up bc animals but ive been so terribly malnourished and no matter how many nuts and legumes i eat i cant get enough iron and protein so im always fatigued and miserable
@tecna yea😭 literally nothing works for me atp, i think its partially because of how active i am, i walk everywhere bc im anxious ab germs on public transport and cant afford to uber everywhere
on June 04
for protein have u tried tofu? i neglect my needs sometimes so when i need protein i just eat a raw brick of it 😭
on June 04
on June 03
recent updates, theres not much tho
-classes ended this past week and i cannot believe im like halfway through with college
-today’s me n my gf’s 5 month anniversary + we had a sleepover last night
-i played my festival show on friday which went really really well
-still looking for a job..
-classes ended this past week and i cannot believe im like halfway through with college
-today’s me n my gf’s 5 month anniversary + we had a sleepover last night
-i played my festival show on friday which went really really well
-still looking for a job..
on May 12
STEVE ALBINI FUCKKING DIED WHAT
on May 08
masterclass today for vocal studies and my twee ass is out here dressed like a mountain dwelling lesbian for some reason (idk if theres a dress code) also my voice is DESTROYED rn between allergies and my other classes
starting today my ass has 5 performances, the masterclass, a thing at this coffee shop i go to, a recital for songwriting (which lowkey im so scared bc my songwriting prof constantly hypes me up as this super talented wordsmith even tho i have no idea whats rly going on and i dont wanna get up there and be a disappointment GOD) and then orchestra and ive got See More that festival on friday im dying im dead
on May 03
on May 03
more updates
-allergies during finals week as a music major r EVIL
-job interview tomorrow might die
-had an emetophobia scare at trader joes on saturday bc some kid threw up i didnt catch anything tho
-another emetophobia scare today my gf n i were hanging out n she started feeling real sick and i was like “ok maybe ill call u an uber !” i actually am proud of myself bc even when she was like “im gonna move to the curb so if i throw up its not on the sidewalk” i went with her See More and kept rubbing her back and stuff (she ended up not doing it while i was there but im still proud that i didnt freak out and run off) im still sorta scared ill catch smth bc we kissed
-orchestra was so fun today, me n the guitar players pretended to pass a joint around when it hit 4:20 which was so funny
-ive felt so pretty lately
-allergies during finals week as a music major r EVIL
-job interview tomorrow might die
-had an emetophobia scare at trader joes on saturday bc some kid threw up i didnt catch anything tho
-another emetophobia scare today my gf n i were hanging out n she started feeling real sick and i was like “ok maybe ill call u an uber !” i actually am proud of myself bc even when she was like “im gonna move to the curb so if i throw up its not on the sidewalk” i went with her See More and kept rubbing her back and stuff (she ended up not doing it while i was there but im still proud that i didnt freak out and run off) im still sorta scared ill catch smth bc we kissed
-orchestra was so fun today, me n the guitar players pretended to pass a joint around when it hit 4:20 which was so funny
-ive felt so pretty lately
on May 02
sorry snufkin the franz kafka hyperfixation is going crazy rn
on May 01
i woke up and immediately put the smiths on, thats how todays going so far
on May 01
i wonder what owen’s up to now (hopefully in therapy and if not, in prison) the older i get in hindsight the way he treated me was INSANE
i was like 12 roleplaying pokemon smut with this FULLY GROWN ADULT MAN bc he would threaten to kill himself if i didnt
on April 30
on April 30
men who go out of their way to hate on taylor swift r so weird
@mayonnaise they bitch about how “obsessed” her fans are when they’re just as obsessed only the other way
on April 29
on April 29
being a songwriter is so funny im literally a professional yapper and ppl think its cool
on April 25
gonna yap ab one more small thing i love yapping but talking ab the norah war of 2022 reminded me if this one time i caught a roly poly and posted it on my story (not even a close up) and she FREAKED OUT bc bugs r her trigger like… u draw the line at bugs but it was totally cool for u to non consensually tell me n my friends ur disgusting fantasies ok
id get it if it were a close up or detailed pic of a bug but bro its a roly poly and it was j on my hand in a selfie it looked lile⚫️
on April 25
on April 25
going off to war (3 hour orchestration class) soon help
on April 25
recent updates HEHEHE
-my classes keep getting canceled and its kinda nice but startingggg to get annoying like broo im paying for this
-got an for a job i really really want
-period came hella early im dying
-got to see my gf yesterday but she felt gross so we didn’t do that much (i also didn’t freak out when she said she was nauseous which is CRAZY bc usually i go full fight or flight and i was only a bit anxious) (we dont think its anything contagious, the weather’s been See More bad and she’s sensitive to that)
-registering for classes today and sorta annoyedddd bc registration started on monday for some people n mine doesnt start til noon today so all the classes i want r prob gonna be full:/ i hate registration sm
-[TUCA AND BERTIE SPOILERS] me n my gf finished tuca and bertie (ive already watched it but she hadnt) and god i forgot how weird the season finale is did they really HAVE to have tuca give birth to bertie
-my classes keep getting canceled and its kinda nice but startingggg to get annoying like broo im paying for this
-got an for a job i really really want
-period came hella early im dying
-got to see my gf yesterday but she felt gross so we didn’t do that much (i also didn’t freak out when she said she was nauseous which is CRAZY bc usually i go full fight or flight and i was only a bit anxious) (we dont think its anything contagious, the weather’s been See More bad and she’s sensitive to that)
-registering for classes today and sorta annoyedddd bc registration started on monday for some people n mine doesnt start til noon today so all the classes i want r prob gonna be full:/ i hate registration sm
-[TUCA AND BERTIE SPOILERS] me n my gf finished tuca and bertie (ive already watched it but she hadnt) and god i forgot how weird the season finale is did they really HAVE to have tuca give birth to bertie
on April 24
i only still use qfeast bc i can satisfy my bitter angry ‘i wanna post ab this online but i wont bc the ppl i dont want to see it will see it’ urges
anywaysss i need to stop holding grudges probably bc why do i care but recently i cant stop thinking ab that one girl i was friends with late 2021-mid 2022 who was chill until she started being gross and overly sexual in this groupchat we were in (she was like 14-16 at the time while the rest of us were like 16-18 through the duration See More of it all) and i blew up at her once bc she started talking about wanting the literal worst thing that’s ever happened to me to happen to her which was really gross and then she got pissy w me for calling her out and started causing problems so i called her out on social media (stupid choice but this girl was a freak) and she sent her grown millennial sister who also dresses like a baby and probably is also into the same freak ass discord kitten lolita shit as her sister to threaten me and try to get cops sent to my house which didnt work bc they thought i lived in a different state
anywaysss i need to stop holding grudges probably bc why do i care but recently i cant stop thinking ab that one girl i was friends with late 2021-mid 2022 who was chill until she started being gross and overly sexual in this groupchat we were in (she was like 14-16 at the time while the rest of us were like 16-18 through the duration See More of it all) and i blew up at her once bc she started talking about wanting the literal worst thing that’s ever happened to me to happen to her which was really gross and then she got pissy w me for calling her out and started causing problems so i called her out on social media (stupid choice but this girl was a freak) and she sent her grown millennial sister who also dresses like a baby and probably is also into the same freak ass discord kitten lolita shit as her sister to threaten me and try to get cops sent to my house which didnt work bc they thought i lived in a different state
@mayonnaise bro is trying to be a singer yet cant handle criticism at all💀 shes going to get DRAGGED in the music biz good lord
on April 26
@mayonnaise i apologized for being so mean in retaliation bc i felt bad and she was like “well its not ok bc u tried to ruin my career” (bc i told people what she said to me) like girl you said it not me😭
on April 25
on April 24