i think 2020 brea would be very proud to know that despite me being lesbian and feeling no serious attraction to men id prob still kiss long hair david bowie on the mouth no hesitation
on June 21, 2024
life updates
-im so bored im doing my math homework for FUN
-kinda wanna end it
-im so bored im doing my math homework for FUN
-kinda wanna end it
on June 20, 2024
yk i cant even make fun of skibidi toilet kids qfeast brainrot was so bad bro what were we doing
rectus betty sue ayako’s hamster chicken bawls cabbage raid boob war firey despacito underwear you may have become broken but i was BORN BROKEN marvavu fully naked photo of elton john
on June 20, 2024
on June 20, 2024
some musicians i wouldve loved to introduce my younger self and why
-fiona apple: needed her when i was 15, in quarantine and trying to cope with something extremely traumatic on top of my first major (at the time undiagnosed) bpd episode. prob for the best i didnt know about her lmao i wouldve probably actually killed myself
-the smiths: ok ive liked the smiths FOREVER n j didnt listen to/talk ab them super often bc they werent what was “cool” but good god i wouldve been a See More fuckking menace had i rly gotten deep into smithsland in 2017 when i was obsessed w british ppl
-car seat headrest: specifically when i was into homestuck that wouldve been SO FUCKKING FUNNY femcel fetus
-diane cluck: god she’s incredible thats it thats the reason why
-hole: my stupid edgy brainwashed 13 year old ass would have LOVED courtney love (im sorry)
-julien baker: god i needed her SO BAD during my weird christian phase where i decided i was straight for a short while and also she prob would've lead to my demise like fiona apple
-mustard service: if i knew ab these guys before the weird freak girl who introduced me to them that wouldve been awesome
-fiona apple: needed her when i was 15, in quarantine and trying to cope with something extremely traumatic on top of my first major (at the time undiagnosed) bpd episode. prob for the best i didnt know about her lmao i wouldve probably actually killed myself
-the smiths: ok ive liked the smiths FOREVER n j didnt listen to/talk ab them super often bc they werent what was “cool” but good god i wouldve been a See More fuckking menace had i rly gotten deep into smithsland in 2017 when i was obsessed w british ppl
-car seat headrest: specifically when i was into homestuck that wouldve been SO FUCKKING FUNNY femcel fetus
-diane cluck: god she’s incredible thats it thats the reason why
-hole: my stupid edgy brainwashed 13 year old ass would have LOVED courtney love (im sorry)
-julien baker: god i needed her SO BAD during my weird christian phase where i decided i was straight for a short while and also she prob would've lead to my demise like fiona apple
-mustard service: if i knew ab these guys before the weird freak girl who introduced me to them that wouldve been awesome
AND HMLTD OH MY GOD idek if they were even around but SPECIFICALLY 2015 2015 BREA WOULD HAVE EATEN UP HMLTD (the whole reason i made this post was bc i randomly remembered this boyinaband song i liked when i was 12 and it sorta reminded me of hmltd how did i forget to make this point)
on June 15, 2024
ALSO BLACK MIDI i just KNOW my pretentious high school freshman ass wouldve had them on blast in science class and relentlessly yap about how unique my music taste is i wouldve been so annoying about black midi
on June 15, 2024
on June 15, 2024
college is crazy i cant believe i have to spend 3 hours of monkey webcams (theyre FREAKS btw)
on June 12, 2024
i accidentally misread the title of the “discover your inner disney sidekick” quiz as “discover your inner skibidi” (i am 20 and have nevee willingly watched a skibidi toilet video)
on June 12, 2024
two more updates
-we discussed getting an apartment (we r still involved even tho we arent gfs anymore…for now…)
-friend of mine said hes gonna be “just like me but with booze his freshman year” (i was high all the time DO NOT DO THAT)
-we discussed getting an apartment (we r still involved even tho we arent gfs anymore…for now…)
-friend of mine said hes gonna be “just like me but with booze his freshman year” (i was high all the time DO NOT DO THAT)
on June 09, 2024
i started learning dutch a while back of that one dude i used to talk to and now joost klein is getting super popular on tiktok and its so funny bc im def not fluent enough to understand a full song but i understand several lines and then he’ll say something like “tussen de tieten” and i yell
ALSO in the same song the background vocals r him yelling “vogelpoep” which is just “bird poop” and i think thats funny asf
on June 07, 2024
on June 07, 2024
recent news
-still no job i kinda hate this i hate capitalism
-we broke up (sorta??) it was mutual in the end and sorta complicated, we’re still romantic partners but things j werent working out like that. nothing between us really, we’re still very much in love and didn’t want to split but outside situations forced it. we’ll prob try again when we figure out some stuff. she’s struggling and ive been taking it rly hard but im trying.
-taking online classes which is goin pretty See More well.
-wrote a new song yesterday but its just lyrics without a melody
-had a good time at the ponds with my friend
-still no job i kinda hate this i hate capitalism
-we broke up (sorta??) it was mutual in the end and sorta complicated, we’re still romantic partners but things j werent working out like that. nothing between us really, we’re still very much in love and didn’t want to split but outside situations forced it. we’ll prob try again when we figure out some stuff. she’s struggling and ive been taking it rly hard but im trying.
-taking online classes which is goin pretty See More well.
-wrote a new song yesterday but its just lyrics without a melody
-had a good time at the ponds with my friend
on June 07, 2024
if i could go back in time i would introduce my 2019-2020 teenager with undiagnosed bpd self to fiona apple, i think that would’ve either solved all of my problems or made me kill myself
on June 04, 2024
i think personally my gf getting a stomach bug at the beginning of pride month (on the day of our aquarium date nonetheless) was an act of homophobia
on June 04, 2024
its been 3 weeks since i yapped sorry
-im rly far head in my summer math course!!!
-been seein some friends lately which has been cool n good!!
-today was supposed to be me n my gf’s aquarium date (which we’ve been trying to do since like april) but she has been violently sick all day so that got cancelled n i kinda feel rly bad bc i wish i could’ve offered to keep her company n take care of her bc being sick alone is miserable but im so scared of ppl throwing up even if it’s See More my dear sweet princess angel unfortunately:(
-went to a show on thursday which was cool (my gf’s show, also likely where the caught the disease)
-found a weevil earlier
-went back to being non-vegetarian. rly wanted to keep it up bc animals but ive been so terribly malnourished and no matter how many nuts and legumes i eat i cant get enough iron and protein so im always fatigued and miserable
-im rly far head in my summer math course!!!
-been seein some friends lately which has been cool n good!!
-today was supposed to be me n my gf’s aquarium date (which we’ve been trying to do since like april) but she has been violently sick all day so that got cancelled n i kinda feel rly bad bc i wish i could’ve offered to keep her company n take care of her bc being sick alone is miserable but im so scared of ppl throwing up even if it’s See More my dear sweet princess angel unfortunately:(
-went to a show on thursday which was cool (my gf’s show, also likely where the caught the disease)
-found a weevil earlier
-went back to being non-vegetarian. rly wanted to keep it up bc animals but ive been so terribly malnourished and no matter how many nuts and legumes i eat i cant get enough iron and protein so im always fatigued and miserable
@tecna yea😭 literally nothing works for me atp, i think its partially because of how active i am, i walk everywhere bc im anxious ab germs on public transport and cant afford to uber everywhere
on June 04, 2024
for protein have u tried tofu? i neglect my needs sometimes so when i need protein i just eat a raw brick of it 😭
on June 04, 2024
on June 03, 2024
recent updates, theres not much tho
-classes ended this past week and i cannot believe im like halfway through with college
-today’s me n my gf’s 5 month anniversary + we had a sleepover last night
-i played my festival show on friday which went really really well
-still looking for a job..
-classes ended this past week and i cannot believe im like halfway through with college
-today’s me n my gf’s 5 month anniversary + we had a sleepover last night
-i played my festival show on friday which went really really well
-still looking for a job..
on May 12, 2024
STEVE ALBINI FUCKKING DIED WHAT
on May 08, 2024
masterclass today for vocal studies and my twee ass is out here dressed like a mountain dwelling lesbian for some reason (idk if theres a dress code) also my voice is DESTROYED rn between allergies and my other classes
starting today my ass has 5 performances, the masterclass, a thing at this coffee shop i go to, a recital for songwriting (which lowkey im so scared bc my songwriting prof constantly hypes me up as this super talented wordsmith even tho i have no idea whats rly going on and i dont wanna get up there and be a disappointment GOD) and then orchestra and ive got See More that festival on friday im dying im dead
on May 03, 2024
on May 03, 2024
more updates
-allergies during finals week as a music major r EVIL
-job interview tomorrow might die
-had an emetophobia scare at trader joes on saturday bc some kid threw up i didnt catch anything tho
-another emetophobia scare today my gf n i were hanging out n she started feeling real sick and i was like “ok maybe ill call u an uber !” i actually am proud of myself bc even when she was like “im gonna move to the curb so if i throw up its not on the sidewalk” i went with her See More and kept rubbing her back and stuff (she ended up not doing it while i was there but im still proud that i didnt freak out and run off) im still sorta scared ill catch smth bc we kissed
-orchestra was so fun today, me n the guitar players pretended to pass a joint around when it hit 4:20 which was so funny
-ive felt so pretty lately
-allergies during finals week as a music major r EVIL
-job interview tomorrow might die
-had an emetophobia scare at trader joes on saturday bc some kid threw up i didnt catch anything tho
-another emetophobia scare today my gf n i were hanging out n she started feeling real sick and i was like “ok maybe ill call u an uber !” i actually am proud of myself bc even when she was like “im gonna move to the curb so if i throw up its not on the sidewalk” i went with her See More and kept rubbing her back and stuff (she ended up not doing it while i was there but im still proud that i didnt freak out and run off) im still sorta scared ill catch smth bc we kissed
-orchestra was so fun today, me n the guitar players pretended to pass a joint around when it hit 4:20 which was so funny
-ive felt so pretty lately
on May 02, 2024