Also, when Lollipop Girl heard about David Bowie's death today, she immediately started saying that she was his biggest fan and that he was her 'new favourite person'.
That's just horrible, because he died today, and she doesn't even really care. And she's not his 'biggest fan', she didn't know who he was until today. Last week her 'favourite person' was Bear Grylls, and before that she pretended to like Mika, SkyDoesMinecraft, Darren Shan, Matt Smith and someone from Glee. Pretending See More to be a fan of people and saying that you're their 'biggest fan' when you don't know anything about them is really annoying, but pretending to be a fan of someone who has just passed away is just really disrespectful, to be honest.
That's just horrible, because he died today, and she doesn't even really care. And she's not his 'biggest fan', she didn't know who he was until today. Last week her 'favourite person' was Bear Grylls, and before that she pretended to like Mika, SkyDoesMinecraft, Darren Shan, Matt Smith and someone from Glee. Pretending See More to be a fan of people and saying that you're their 'biggest fan' when you don't know anything about them is really annoying, but pretending to be a fan of someone who has just passed away is just really disrespectful, to be honest.
on January 11, 2016
I found out that David Bowie had died this morning, and I thought of how Mika and one of my internet friends are huge fans of him, and it was going to really upset them when they heard the news. Mika has always said that he was one of his idols and biggest influences, and he even wrote a line in Good Guys about him. If he found out he has died, he would probably cry. And my internet friend loves him almost as much as she loves Mika, so that would hurt her too.
They just found See More out about his death, and Mika sounded really upset when he tweeted about it. He said that it was a big shock, and that he's really sad about it. He also changed his Twitter background to a picture of David Bowie. And my internet friend is upset about it too, because she tweeted saying RIP to him and said that she can't believe he died. And everyone in the Mika fandom is tweeting, "Thank you Emerson, and Bowie for my dreams." which is the line from Good Guys that he wrote about him.
RIP, David Bowie. You were loved by a lot of people, and you will be missed.
They just found See More out about his death, and Mika sounded really upset when he tweeted about it. He said that it was a big shock, and that he's really sad about it. He also changed his Twitter background to a picture of David Bowie. And my internet friend is upset about it too, because she tweeted saying RIP to him and said that she can't believe he died. And everyone in the Mika fandom is tweeting, "Thank you Emerson, and Bowie for my dreams." which is the line from Good Guys that he wrote about him.
RIP, David Bowie. You were loved by a lot of people, and you will be missed.
on January 11, 2016
on January 11, 2016
Part 3 of today's post:
In English, I was doing my work, and the other people on my table were having a conversation. Then the boy who was sat next to me said the words 'self harm' loudly, and I suddenly felt really sick. The other people who were involved in the conversation started making fun of self harm, and I heard one of them say, "I don't self harm or cut myself, because I'm not depressed and it's stupid." I actually started crying then, because they were making jokes See More about it without even thinking that someone on their table could self harm, and I was sick of people talking about things that affect me in front of me. I forced myself to stop crying, but I felt horrible for the rest of the lesson.
So, yeah. :/
In English, I was doing my work, and the other people on my table were having a conversation. Then the boy who was sat next to me said the words 'self harm' loudly, and I suddenly felt really sick. The other people who were involved in the conversation started making fun of self harm, and I heard one of them say, "I don't self harm or cut myself, because I'm not depressed and it's stupid." I actually started crying then, because they were making jokes See More about it without even thinking that someone on their table could self harm, and I was sick of people talking about things that affect me in front of me. I forced myself to stop crying, but I felt horrible for the rest of the lesson.
So, yeah. :/
on January 11, 2016
Part 2 of today's post:
At lunch, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I had to go to the school nurse again, because I wanted to talk to her about the assembly I have to do. But she wasn't in her room at the start of lunch, so we went into the canteen to eat. After we had eaten, we checked if she was in her room again, and she wasn't. Then the bell went, so we started to walk to our next lessons, and we found the school nurse outside the four storey building. We asked her if we could talk See More to her, and she said that she would want to talk to us, but she was sorting our someone else's problems. She said she would talk to us if it was urgent, and I said it wasn't really that urgent, but the thing I wanted to talk to her about is happening this week. She told me to go and talk to the teacher in the Diamond Centre to see if she could help us, so we went there. The teaching assistant there said that there wasn't enough time for us to talk to the teacher, and she said that we could only talk to her if it was urgent. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl said that we had written a three page long letter about everything that has been happening to me, and the teaching assistant said that she hadn't received the letter. I said that we had been waiting for nearly three months to talk to the teacher, and she told us that we would be able to talk to her tomorrow at break, and she asked the teacher if that would be okay. She said that it would be, and then the teaching assistant said that we could talk about everything tomorrow. But I'm kind of annoyed, because now I'll have to explain my situation all over again. I'll have to talk about my blog, the fact that I can't speak to people, Mika, my fake friends, etc. again, and she might not understand. I hope that the school nurse will have told her about me, but she probably hasn't.
In RE, we were learning about how change can make people feel scared, and this boy who makes fun of me a lot (Let's call him Football Boy), asked the teacher a question about how people with autism and Asperger's react to change. Then the teacher started talking about how they don't react positively to change, and she said that they need to be slowly introduced to new things that could scare them. Echosmith Hater Girl said that her friend's younger brother was autistic and always had to wear the same kind of shoes, and Football Boy started laughing. I felt really uncomfortable with everyone talking about autism and Asperger's in front of me, and even though nobody was saying anything bad about it, I was still scared. I was probably feeling bad because it made me feel even more unnatural than usual, and I felt like everyone was staring at me. I actually started shaking and I nearly cried, and I could feel TheDoctorsQueen looking at me from the table next to me. When the lesson was over, I ran out of the classroom as quickly as I could, because I didn't want her to say anything to me.
At lunch, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I had to go to the school nurse again, because I wanted to talk to her about the assembly I have to do. But she wasn't in her room at the start of lunch, so we went into the canteen to eat. After we had eaten, we checked if she was in her room again, and she wasn't. Then the bell went, so we started to walk to our next lessons, and we found the school nurse outside the four storey building. We asked her if we could talk See More to her, and she said that she would want to talk to us, but she was sorting our someone else's problems. She said she would talk to us if it was urgent, and I said it wasn't really that urgent, but the thing I wanted to talk to her about is happening this week. She told me to go and talk to the teacher in the Diamond Centre to see if she could help us, so we went there. The teaching assistant there said that there wasn't enough time for us to talk to the teacher, and she said that we could only talk to her if it was urgent. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl said that we had written a three page long letter about everything that has been happening to me, and the teaching assistant said that she hadn't received the letter. I said that we had been waiting for nearly three months to talk to the teacher, and she told us that we would be able to talk to her tomorrow at break, and she asked the teacher if that would be okay. She said that it would be, and then the teaching assistant said that we could talk about everything tomorrow. But I'm kind of annoyed, because now I'll have to explain my situation all over again. I'll have to talk about my blog, the fact that I can't speak to people, Mika, my fake friends, etc. again, and she might not understand. I hope that the school nurse will have told her about me, but she probably hasn't.
In RE, we were learning about how change can make people feel scared, and this boy who makes fun of me a lot (Let's call him Football Boy), asked the teacher a question about how people with autism and Asperger's react to change. Then the teacher started talking about how they don't react positively to change, and she said that they need to be slowly introduced to new things that could scare them. Echosmith Hater Girl said that her friend's younger brother was autistic and always had to wear the same kind of shoes, and Football Boy started laughing. I felt really uncomfortable with everyone talking about autism and Asperger's in front of me, and even though nobody was saying anything bad about it, I was still scared. I was probably feeling bad because it made me feel even more unnatural than usual, and I felt like everyone was staring at me. I actually started shaking and I nearly cried, and I could feel TheDoctorsQueen looking at me from the table next to me. When the lesson was over, I ran out of the classroom as quickly as I could, because I didn't want her to say anything to me.
on January 11, 2016
Part 1 of today's post:
Today was a bad day.
In PE, we were playing hockey, and the teacher was putting us into teams. One of TheDoctorsQueen's popular friends (Let's call her England Girl, because she's the only person in the school with a proper British accent and her school bag has the Union Jack flag on it.) was put in my team, and she said hello to me when she walked over to join the team. I tried to say hello back, but I couldn't, and then she sarcastically said, "Well, See More nice to meet you too." I started to feel really anxious, and then the teacher told us to start playing the game. England Girl and this boy walked over to where the other team was, and I followed them. They started talking about me even though I was right behind them, and England Girl was laughing about how I didn't say hello to her. The boy said that I only talked to TheDoctorsQueen and SkyDoesMinecraft Girl, and then they both looked at me and walked away. And when we went inside the changing rooms after the lesson, this girl who bullies SkyDoesMinecraft Girl came into the room. She wasn't even supposed to be there, because she isn't in our group. She came over to me and put her arm around me, and said, "Hi! You're that girl who doesn't talk, right? What's your name?" I felt uncomfortable, because she's quite an intimidating person, and she bullies anyone who doesn't like her. Someone told her my name, and then she said, "Victoria? Oh, I love that name!" I could tell that she was being sarcastic, and then someone called her, so she left the changing rooms. I was relieved when she had gone.
Today was a bad day.
In PE, we were playing hockey, and the teacher was putting us into teams. One of TheDoctorsQueen's popular friends (Let's call her England Girl, because she's the only person in the school with a proper British accent and her school bag has the Union Jack flag on it.) was put in my team, and she said hello to me when she walked over to join the team. I tried to say hello back, but I couldn't, and then she sarcastically said, "Well, See More nice to meet you too." I started to feel really anxious, and then the teacher told us to start playing the game. England Girl and this boy walked over to where the other team was, and I followed them. They started talking about me even though I was right behind them, and England Girl was laughing about how I didn't say hello to her. The boy said that I only talked to TheDoctorsQueen and SkyDoesMinecraft Girl, and then they both looked at me and walked away. And when we went inside the changing rooms after the lesson, this girl who bullies SkyDoesMinecraft Girl came into the room. She wasn't even supposed to be there, because she isn't in our group. She came over to me and put her arm around me, and said, "Hi! You're that girl who doesn't talk, right? What's your name?" I felt uncomfortable, because she's quite an intimidating person, and she bullies anyone who doesn't like her. Someone told her my name, and then she said, "Victoria? Oh, I love that name!" I could tell that she was being sarcastic, and then someone called her, so she left the changing rooms. I was relieved when she had gone.
I really wanted to go to your school and just tell some of those people off because they are straight up jerks.
on January 11, 2016
on January 11, 2016
You can tell how old a picture of Mika is by what his hair looks like.
on January 10, 2016
Today was okay, but I almost had a panic attack in Art because Goldfish Girl, Echosmith Hater Girl and Owl Boy were making fun of me. :/
on January 08, 2016
Today was okay, apart from one thing.
In form we're doing an assembly about inspiration, and everyone has to work in groups and work on a small topic related to inspiration to contribute to the assembly. I'm in a group with TheDoctorsQueen and Lollipop Girl, and the teacher told us that we were going to do a topic about people who we idolise or are inspired by. TheDoctorsQueen chose Ellen DeGeneres and Lollipop Girl chose Bear Grylls, but I was scared, because Mika is the only See More person that I really idolise, and everyone in the group has to pick one idol each to talk about on their own in front of the whole year. I don't want to pick Mika, because then I would definitely know that the whole year knows I like him, and everyone would know who he is. I would have to tell everyone about him, and everyone will just make fun of me. And there would be a lot more fake fans than before. But I also kind of want to pick Mika, because then it would show everyone that he's not just the guy that sings a song they make fun of, and that he's actually an amazing person. I really can't do it about him, though, because I would probably just get really scared and start crying.
I'm actually really worried, because I'll have to work on this with TheDoctorsQueen and Lollipop Girl every day for the rest of this week and all of next week. And I really can't do it about anyone without people laughing, and I probably won't even be able to speak in the assembly, but I'm being forced to be in it. :/
In form we're doing an assembly about inspiration, and everyone has to work in groups and work on a small topic related to inspiration to contribute to the assembly. I'm in a group with TheDoctorsQueen and Lollipop Girl, and the teacher told us that we were going to do a topic about people who we idolise or are inspired by. TheDoctorsQueen chose Ellen DeGeneres and Lollipop Girl chose Bear Grylls, but I was scared, because Mika is the only See More person that I really idolise, and everyone in the group has to pick one idol each to talk about on their own in front of the whole year. I don't want to pick Mika, because then I would definitely know that the whole year knows I like him, and everyone would know who he is. I would have to tell everyone about him, and everyone will just make fun of me. And there would be a lot more fake fans than before. But I also kind of want to pick Mika, because then it would show everyone that he's not just the guy that sings a song they make fun of, and that he's actually an amazing person. I really can't do it about him, though, because I would probably just get really scared and start crying.
I'm actually really worried, because I'll have to work on this with TheDoctorsQueen and Lollipop Girl every day for the rest of this week and all of next week. And I really can't do it about anyone without people laughing, and I probably won't even be able to speak in the assembly, but I'm being forced to be in it. :/
on January 07, 2016
@jenesaispas
I guess so, but I don't really know many people like that. And no matter who I do it about, everyone will still laugh. :/
I guess so, but I don't really know many people like that. And no matter who I do it about, everyone will still laugh. :/
on January 07, 2016
on January 06, 2016
Friend: Hey, can we listen to that song called Grace Kelly? It's stuck in my head.
Me: Okay, which version?
Friend: What do you mean, which version?
Me: The studio version, the acoustic version, the remix, the live version or the symphonic version?
Me: Okay, which version?
Friend: What do you mean, which version?
Me: The studio version, the acoustic version, the remix, the live version or the symphonic version?
on January 06, 2016
Today I have reached my goal of being six weeks clean. I'm actually really proud of myself, because a lot of really bad things have happened to me in the past six weeks, but somehow I've managed to stay strong. ?
@jenesaispas
I don't really feel proud or anything, though. I just feel unbothered by it, to be honest.
I don't really feel proud or anything, though. I just feel unbothered by it, to be honest.
on January 06, 2016
on January 05, 2016
Today was mostly okay, but at lunch Diamond Girl was talking about who the prettiest person on the table was, and she said that I was the least pretty. I know that she probably didn't mean anything by it, but it still kind of hurt. :/
Everyone has something they don't like about themselves. Maybe you don't think you're pretty, but I know for a fact that you have an awesome personality. And that's more important than anything.
on January 05, 2016
on January 05, 2016
Today was okay, but a lot of bad things happened in my lessons with the teachers and the other kids, and it made me feel really scared and unsafe all day. :/
@jenesaispas
Yeah, I'll be six weeks clean tomorrow. I'm actually really proud of myself for staying clean for this long. ?
Yeah, I'll be six weeks clean tomorrow. I'm actually really proud of myself for staying clean for this long. ?
on January 04, 2016
on January 04, 2016
I go back to school tomorrow, and I'm kind of scared. I really don't want to go, because I'll just have to put up with people making fun of me, fake fans and horrible lessons where I don't even get taught properly. :/
on January 04, 2016
Mika: I don't like wearing suits.
Mika: *spends thousands of pounds on designer suits and wears them for X Factor Italia and The Voice France, wears them in his music videos, wears them when he's performing on TV, wears them in interviews*
Mika: *spends thousands of pounds on designer suits and wears them for X Factor Italia and The Voice France, wears them in his music videos, wears them when he's performing on TV, wears them in interviews*
on January 02, 2016
I actually really like the song I Found Love by Owl City. ?
on January 02, 2016
I just found a video on Twitter where Mika says, "And then you have the emo of My Chemical Romance, Panic! At The Disco and Fall Out Boy. . ."
I don't even listen to those bands, but most other people on the internet do, so I thought I'd tell you guys this. ?
I don't even listen to those bands, but most other people on the internet do, so I thought I'd tell you guys this. ?
@Galactic_Noodles
Yeah, it was on a show where these people were talking about Wreck It Ralph or something.
Yeah, it was on a show where these people were talking about Wreck It Ralph or something.
on January 02, 2016
@Galactic_Noodles
Oh, cool. And I just remembered that Owl City's song When Will I See You Again was on TV today, and I thought of you. ?
Oh, cool. And I just remembered that Owl City's song When Will I See You Again was on TV today, and I thought of you. ?
on January 02, 2016
@Galactic_Noodles
Haha, yeah. I don't really like bands like that, to be honest, because I don't like rock music and their songs are usually quite heavy.
Haha, yeah. I don't really like bands like that, to be honest, because I don't like rock music and their songs are usually quite heavy.
on January 02, 2016
on January 02, 2016
It's also Noah Sierota's birthday today, my favourite member of Echosmith. I can't believe he's 20 already, he was 18 when I first became an Echosmith fan. ?
on January 01, 2016
I think the British Mika fans are the only ones who know what's going on at the moment, and there's only about four people from England in the fandom. Because of how diverse and international the Mika fandom is, everyone else is confused and saying things like that the radio over here sounds 'trashy and aggressive'. ?
on January 01, 2016
Mika's show is over now. That was fast. ?
And I didn't have to go anywhere while it was on, so I didn't have to listen to it in the car with my parents and listen to them talk about him in front of me. That was good. ?
And I didn't have to go anywhere while it was on, so I didn't have to listen to it in the car with my parents and listen to them talk about him in front of me. That was good. ?
on January 01, 2016