Today at school, that band came into school again, but luckily we were allowed to choose whether we wanted to dance or not this time, so it was okay. When the lead singer was talking about a religious person called Billy Brown, I almost laughed because that's the name of a Mika song. And the Mika song is about a man that leaves his wife for another man, so it's really not religious. ?
on March 18, 2016
Guys, I'm sorry that I didn't get to livestream properly. My laptop crashed, and then my parents came home, so I couldn't do it properly. :/
on March 18, 2016
Guys, I'm going to livestream now, because my parents are out. You can watch me on YouNow. ?
on March 18, 2016
Today was okay, but when I was walking down the stairs to go out of the ICT building, I was in front of HeyHoHereWeGo, and he yelled at me and said, "Victoria's in the way, like she always is." And it just made me feel really bad. :/
on March 18, 2016
I got into an argument on Kik last night with TheDoctorsQueen and SkyDoesMinecraft Girl because I said that TheDoctorsQueen probably hated me, and now I think they're angry with me and hate me. I'm kind of scared to go to school, because they're probably going to yell at me. :/
on March 18, 2016
Part 2 of today's post:
In History, we were in a different room because our normal teacher wasn't in school, and we were allowed to sit wherever we wanted. TheDoctorsQueen sat on the table at the front of the class with HeyHoHereWeGo, Diamond Girl and this girl who is one of her popular friends (Let's call her Pop Girl, because she always asks everyone if they have heard songs from the charts in PE.) and she didn't seem to want to sit with me. I had to sit on my own on the table See More behind her, and she didn't ask me to sit with her or ask if I was okay. Then Phone Girl, Gymnastics Girl and Bars And Melody Girl came and sat in the other seats in my table, because everywhere else was full and it was the only place where they could sit together. They basically just copied my work all lesson, and I felt really bad because of what happened then and everything that happened in the morning. Then at the end of the lesson, Diamond Girl asked me to collect the books in, and I said I didn't want to. People always yell at me and make fun of me when I collect the books in, so I was scared to do it because I already felt bad enough. When Diamond Girl had collected all the books and she was walking back to the front of the classroom, she turned round to me and said, "Thanks." really sarcastically, which made me feel even worse.
When I was walking to the canteen to have lunch, these two older boys walked behind me and tried to trip me up. Then they grabbed my hand to make me hit one of them, and then they kept saying, "Why did you hit me?" over and over again. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl yelled at them to leave me alone, but they just made fun of her too, so we ran into the canteen away from them. When we were eating lunch, they walked past, and I heard them imitating us and making fun of us. I felt like crying then, because everything was just horrible.
So, yeah. :/
In History, we were in a different room because our normal teacher wasn't in school, and we were allowed to sit wherever we wanted. TheDoctorsQueen sat on the table at the front of the class with HeyHoHereWeGo, Diamond Girl and this girl who is one of her popular friends (Let's call her Pop Girl, because she always asks everyone if they have heard songs from the charts in PE.) and she didn't seem to want to sit with me. I had to sit on my own on the table See More behind her, and she didn't ask me to sit with her or ask if I was okay. Then Phone Girl, Gymnastics Girl and Bars And Melody Girl came and sat in the other seats in my table, because everywhere else was full and it was the only place where they could sit together. They basically just copied my work all lesson, and I felt really bad because of what happened then and everything that happened in the morning. Then at the end of the lesson, Diamond Girl asked me to collect the books in, and I said I didn't want to. People always yell at me and make fun of me when I collect the books in, so I was scared to do it because I already felt bad enough. When Diamond Girl had collected all the books and she was walking back to the front of the classroom, she turned round to me and said, "Thanks." really sarcastically, which made me feel even worse.
When I was walking to the canteen to have lunch, these two older boys walked behind me and tried to trip me up. Then they grabbed my hand to make me hit one of them, and then they kept saying, "Why did you hit me?" over and over again. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl yelled at them to leave me alone, but they just made fun of her too, so we ran into the canteen away from them. When we were eating lunch, they walked past, and I heard them imitating us and making fun of us. I felt like crying then, because everything was just horrible.
So, yeah. :/
on March 17, 2016
Part 1 of today's post:
Today was a bad day.
This morning, while I was walking to my Science classroom, a teaching assistant stopped me and told me to come with her. I was confused, because I thought I was going to be in trouble. Then she told me that she had found out that I hadn't gone to my options interview, even when it had been rescheduled three times already. She said that I was probably trying to get out of doing it because I was too scared to go, which was true. Then See More she said that we could go to do my interview now, and I said that was okay, because the only reason I didn't go was because I didn't know where I had to go. It turned out to be in the reception with the headteacher, and I was allowed to have my interview early. It turned out okay, and it wasn't that scary. She said that I was very talented, and she talked to me about where I should go if I ever wanted to change my options and things like that. When it was over, I was relieved, because I didn't have to worry about having to go to it anymore. Then when I was walking back to my classroom, I accidentally almost walked into the wrong class. Everyone saw me, and I felt like everyone laughed at me when I had gone. I felt really embarrassed because of it, and I was really self concious.
Today was a bad day.
This morning, while I was walking to my Science classroom, a teaching assistant stopped me and told me to come with her. I was confused, because I thought I was going to be in trouble. Then she told me that she had found out that I hadn't gone to my options interview, even when it had been rescheduled three times already. She said that I was probably trying to get out of doing it because I was too scared to go, which was true. Then See More she said that we could go to do my interview now, and I said that was okay, because the only reason I didn't go was because I didn't know where I had to go. It turned out to be in the reception with the headteacher, and I was allowed to have my interview early. It turned out okay, and it wasn't that scary. She said that I was very talented, and she talked to me about where I should go if I ever wanted to change my options and things like that. When it was over, I was relieved, because I didn't have to worry about having to go to it anymore. Then when I was walking back to my classroom, I accidentally almost walked into the wrong class. Everyone saw me, and I felt like everyone laughed at me when I had gone. I felt really embarrassed because of it, and I was really self concious.
on March 17, 2016
@jenesaispas
Yeah, I guess. But other people are still more talented than me. Even the worst people in my class have the levels expected of someone in college, but mine are just above average.
Yeah, I guess. But other people are still more talented than me. Even the worst people in my class have the levels expected of someone in college, but mine are just above average.
on March 17, 2016
on March 17, 2016
Today was okay. And the idol assembly turned out okay, which was really good because I was so scared to do it. We ended up not having to wear the masks, because the teacher forgot to make them and nobody wanted to do it anyway. All that I had to do was hold up a piece of paper, so that was okay. ?
@Rose_the_hedgehog
An assembly I had to do where you talk about your idols in front of the whole year in your form, because the topic was inspiration. I didn't have to talk about my idol, though, because someone in my form just read things out about some famous people from the PowerPoint she made.
An assembly I had to do where you talk about your idols in front of the whole year in your form, because the topic was inspiration. I didn't have to talk about my idol, though, because someone in my form just read things out about some famous people from the PowerPoint she made.
on March 16, 2016
on March 16, 2016
I just remembered something really bad that happened in English today. The teacher literally told this boy to kill himself, and I thought it was just disgusting. And this is the same teacher that made fun of suicide and said that suicidal people are pathetic about a month ago, so this is the second time she's said something like this.
It really bothers me, because nobody should ever joke about suicide, as it is a very horrible and serious subject. And the teacher doesn't even See More seem to care that the things she says could really trigger someone. There could be someone in the classroom who is suicidal, and what she says could affect them a lot. Also, it's just really awful to tell someone to kill themselves anyway, especially when they hadn't even done anything. It's just something nobody should ever say, because someone could actually kill themselves because of what you said to them. It's just sickening that people think it's okay to say things like this, to be honest. :/
It really bothers me, because nobody should ever joke about suicide, as it is a very horrible and serious subject. And the teacher doesn't even See More seem to care that the things she says could really trigger someone. There could be someone in the classroom who is suicidal, and what she says could affect them a lot. Also, it's just really awful to tell someone to kill themselves anyway, especially when they hadn't even done anything. It's just something nobody should ever say, because someone could actually kill themselves because of what you said to them. It's just sickening that people think it's okay to say things like this, to be honest. :/
on March 16, 2016
on March 15, 2016
I ruined my record of being eight weeks clean. . .I'm really sorry. :/
on March 15, 2016
Today was okay, apart from this boy making fun of me in English.
And I got my time for my options interview today, and I was supposed to go to it, but I didn't know where I was going and I was so scared. So I basically just didn't go to it, and I've been hiding in my lessons all day hoping that I wouldn't have to do it. Nobody realised that I wasn't there, so I didn't go to it. :/
And I got my time for my options interview today, and I was supposed to go to it, but I didn't know where I was going and I was so scared. So I basically just didn't go to it, and I've been hiding in my lessons all day hoping that I wouldn't have to do it. Nobody realised that I wasn't there, so I didn't go to it. :/
on March 15, 2016
I kind of want to self harm, because I feel horrible about myself today and there are a lot of things that I'm scared of doing this week. In Drama tomorrow, I might have to do a presentation, on Wednesday it's the idol assembly, and sometime this week I have to do my options interview.
But I'll be eight weeks clean tomorrow, which would be the longest I've ever gone without self harming, and if I do it now, then I'll ruin it. :/
But I'll be eight weeks clean tomorrow, which would be the longest I've ever gone without self harming, and if I do it now, then I'll ruin it. :/
@jenesaispas
Yeah, the assembly is tomorrow. And I hope so, but we will probably have to do it tomorrow. :/
Yeah, the assembly is tomorrow. And I hope so, but we will probably have to do it tomorrow. :/
on March 15, 2016
on March 15, 2016
on March 14, 2016
Today was okay, apart from one thing.
SkyDoesMinecraft Girl started self harming today, and she has been wearing a hair bobble around her wrist all day and snapping it on her wrist every time she feels like self harming. She also says she feels as if she's going crazy, because she says she thinks she's developing mental disorders because of the way the school is. And at lunch, she wanted to see the school nurse about everything that she's going through. But she wanted me to come See More with her, and I didn't want to see the nurse again because she would remember everything from last week and probably tell my parents about my problems. So I told her that we shouldn't go, because I didn't want to feel as scared and suicidal as I was last week again, because it was awful.
I feel really bad because I want to help in some way, but I'm awful at helping people with their problems. I feel like SkyDoesMinecraft Girl is doing it because I do it, and that probably makes her think it's okay. I just make everyone depressed, and my existence is just a bad influence. I'm such a horrible person, and I just get in the way of people's happiness. This is why I don't deserve to live.
And I feel bad about not going with her to the nurse, because I feel like I always feel the need to make everything about myself. I'm such a selfish person, and I wish I was actually as nice as people on the internet say I am. I don't even deserve to have friends. I'm a huge burden, and I inconvenience everyone. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl does a lot for me when she doesn't have to, but I don't do anything back for her because I'm too anxious.
I wish I could just die, to be honest. :/
SkyDoesMinecraft Girl started self harming today, and she has been wearing a hair bobble around her wrist all day and snapping it on her wrist every time she feels like self harming. She also says she feels as if she's going crazy, because she says she thinks she's developing mental disorders because of the way the school is. And at lunch, she wanted to see the school nurse about everything that she's going through. But she wanted me to come See More with her, and I didn't want to see the nurse again because she would remember everything from last week and probably tell my parents about my problems. So I told her that we shouldn't go, because I didn't want to feel as scared and suicidal as I was last week again, because it was awful.
I feel really bad because I want to help in some way, but I'm awful at helping people with their problems. I feel like SkyDoesMinecraft Girl is doing it because I do it, and that probably makes her think it's okay. I just make everyone depressed, and my existence is just a bad influence. I'm such a horrible person, and I just get in the way of people's happiness. This is why I don't deserve to live.
And I feel bad about not going with her to the nurse, because I feel like I always feel the need to make everything about myself. I'm such a selfish person, and I wish I was actually as nice as people on the internet say I am. I don't even deserve to have friends. I'm a huge burden, and I inconvenience everyone. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl does a lot for me when she doesn't have to, but I don't do anything back for her because I'm too anxious.
I wish I could just die, to be honest. :/
@MikasPrincess Aw that's terrible! :( I'm so sorry! I'm here for you, if you ever want to talk!
on March 16, 2016
@MysticMedievalSamuraiPrincess
My parents really wouldn't understand, though, because they're kind of emotionally abusive. They'd probably just yell at me and tell me to stop being pathetic. And I've tried talking to close friends about it, but they really don't care or understand at all. And I tried to talk to the school nurse, but she yelled at me and said See More she was going to tell my parents, which made me want to kill myself. Luckily she forgot to tell them, but I was so scared. So I basically have nobody. :/
My parents really wouldn't understand, though, because they're kind of emotionally abusive. They'd probably just yell at me and tell me to stop being pathetic. And I've tried talking to close friends about it, but they really don't care or understand at all. And I tried to talk to the school nurse, but she yelled at me and said See More she was going to tell my parents, which made me want to kill myself. Luckily she forgot to tell them, but I was so scared. So I basically have nobody. :/
on March 15, 2016
on March 14, 2016
So apparently Mika has started writing his fifth album, and he has said it's going to be a dance album. That's good, because he might make more dance songs with darker lyrics, like Overrated, and that means I will probably really like it. ?
I'm kind of surprised that he's started writing the next album so soon, though, because he usually doesn't write anything for two or three years between album releases, and it's not even been a year since the release of No Place in Heaven See More yet. I think he might just be starting it earlier because he needs more time to produce the album, though. ?
I'm kind of surprised that he's started writing the next album so soon, though, because he usually doesn't write anything for two or three years between album releases, and it's not even been a year since the release of No Place in Heaven See More yet. I think he might just be starting it earlier because he needs more time to produce the album, though. ?
on March 14, 2016
I really like Alessia Cara's album Know It All, to be honest. I can really relate to the lyrics of Here, Four Pink Walls and Scars To Your Beautiful. ??
@KillerMau5
Haha, yeah. And Seventeen is good, and I also really like Outlaws, just because it's a nice song. ?
Haha, yeah. And Seventeen is good, and I also really like Outlaws, just because it's a nice song. ?
on March 13, 2016
Four Pink Walls is amazing. It's funny because I have four pink walls in my room, and that song applies to me. Seventeen is a good song too!
on March 13, 2016
on March 13, 2016
Oh my gosh. ?
Mika was doing a concert last night, and he was performing Underwater. When he was asking the crowd to join in with the chorus, he said, "Sing as loud as you can, as if Donald Trump wouldn't become president if you did!"
This is why I love him. ?
Mika was doing a concert last night, and he was performing Underwater. When he was asking the crowd to join in with the chorus, he said, "Sing as loud as you can, as if Donald Trump wouldn't become president if you did!"
This is why I love him. ?
on March 13, 2016
I'm back from SkyDoesMinecraft Girl's birthday sleepover now, guys! It was good, apart from getting hate on one of my livestreams. ?
And the day out to the Trafford Centre was fun. I felt anxious some of the time because I felt like a burden, but I managed to calm myself down. And SkyDoesMinecraft Girl's mum was a lot more accepting of the fact that I'm a fan of Mika than my mum is, because she said that my mum treats me like a baby, and she said that she would let me buy a Mika See More album and told me to hide it from my mum. But there weren't any Mika albums today, so I couldn't get any. So I'm still a bad fan, haha. ?
And the day out to the Trafford Centre was fun. I felt anxious some of the time because I felt like a burden, but I managed to calm myself down. And SkyDoesMinecraft Girl's mum was a lot more accepting of the fact that I'm a fan of Mika than my mum is, because she said that my mum treats me like a baby, and she said that she would let me buy a Mika See More album and told me to hide it from my mum. But there weren't any Mika albums today, so I couldn't get any. So I'm still a bad fan, haha. ?
on March 12, 2016
I'm livestreaming again now, guys! SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I are going to do the Bean Boozled Challenge.
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on March 12, 2016
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on March 11, 2016