Offered up my wrist, and you thought you hit it. But your arrow missed, couldn't kill me with it. All I asked of you was to free my pain, so you couldn't do this to me again. ?
on July 04, 2016
Take a bow, play the part, of a lonely, lonely heart. Say goodbye, to the world you thought you lived in. ?
on July 04, 2016
And Mika's songs are making me feel better, as usual. I think his music is one of the only things that helps me anymore, really. He's helped me more than my fake friends ever have, really.
on July 04, 2016
I think all of my friends in real life are fake friends, to be honest. Nobody who is really a good person has ever cared about me. They've always only ever wanted to use me, because I can't exactly stick up for myself, and when I try, they make me feel bad. And then they always decide that they hate me and leave. :/
on July 04, 2016
Part 2 of today's post:
In English, we were in a different classroom, and I didn't know where the new classroom was. The note on the door of my old classroom said that it was in a room that I didn't even know existed, and I didn't know how to find it. I couldn't see anyone else from my class, so I was really scared, and I felt as if I was going to have a panic attack again. I kept walking around school trying to find it, and while I was walking around, this older boy jumped in See More front of me and yelled whilst clapping his hands. That made me feel even worse, but then I found my teacher and some of the kids from my class, and I felt a bit better. I followed them to the new classroom, which turned out to be one of the teachers' office. When we sat down, this girl gave out the books, and she had a pile of books that were all undamaged, apart from one that didn't have a cover or a back, and it looked as if it had been ripped out of the book. That one was in the middle of the pile, and she literally got that one out and gave it to me. I was really annoyed, but after that there were some spare books, and Golden Girl gave me a good copy. That was better. After that, Chicken Nugget Boy was messing around, and the teacher said he had to move seats. The teacher told him to sit next to me, and he said that he was going to kill himself because he had to sit next to me. That made me feel horrible, and when he refused to sit next to me, the teacher put Football Boy next to me instead. He kept making fun of me, and it was just awful.
In Food Tech, the teacher was doing a demonstration, and I couldn't see what she was doing because everyone else in the class was messing around in front of the table she was demonstrating on. She didn't even try to tell them off, and everyone was just behaving really ridiculously. She didn't even do anything when there was a fight, which was really bad. Then the teacher yelled at me for not paying attention, but I was, and I just couldn't see. It was bad how everyone else was causing so much noise and trouble, and causing a lot of disruption, but I got yelled at for something that small, and something that I didn't do. I had a headache from it all, and I was so glad the day was over when the bell went.
When I was in the car on the way home, I was looking out of the window, and I saw TheDoctorsQueen and SkyDoesMinecraft Girl walking home together. They were laughing and having fun, and they looked like they had become a lot closer by being Literacy Leaders together. I felt like crying again as I thought about how they had a lot more fun without me. I thought about how I was such a boring and annoying person, and how TheDoctorsQueen probably deserves to be friends with SkyDoesMinecraft Girl more than me. I thought about how I might have actually been replaced, and I felt like crying again.
Today was horrible. :/
In English, we were in a different classroom, and I didn't know where the new classroom was. The note on the door of my old classroom said that it was in a room that I didn't even know existed, and I didn't know how to find it. I couldn't see anyone else from my class, so I was really scared, and I felt as if I was going to have a panic attack again. I kept walking around school trying to find it, and while I was walking around, this older boy jumped in See More front of me and yelled whilst clapping his hands. That made me feel even worse, but then I found my teacher and some of the kids from my class, and I felt a bit better. I followed them to the new classroom, which turned out to be one of the teachers' office. When we sat down, this girl gave out the books, and she had a pile of books that were all undamaged, apart from one that didn't have a cover or a back, and it looked as if it had been ripped out of the book. That one was in the middle of the pile, and she literally got that one out and gave it to me. I was really annoyed, but after that there were some spare books, and Golden Girl gave me a good copy. That was better. After that, Chicken Nugget Boy was messing around, and the teacher said he had to move seats. The teacher told him to sit next to me, and he said that he was going to kill himself because he had to sit next to me. That made me feel horrible, and when he refused to sit next to me, the teacher put Football Boy next to me instead. He kept making fun of me, and it was just awful.
In Food Tech, the teacher was doing a demonstration, and I couldn't see what she was doing because everyone else in the class was messing around in front of the table she was demonstrating on. She didn't even try to tell them off, and everyone was just behaving really ridiculously. She didn't even do anything when there was a fight, which was really bad. Then the teacher yelled at me for not paying attention, but I was, and I just couldn't see. It was bad how everyone else was causing so much noise and trouble, and causing a lot of disruption, but I got yelled at for something that small, and something that I didn't do. I had a headache from it all, and I was so glad the day was over when the bell went.
When I was in the car on the way home, I was looking out of the window, and I saw TheDoctorsQueen and SkyDoesMinecraft Girl walking home together. They were laughing and having fun, and they looked like they had become a lot closer by being Literacy Leaders together. I felt like crying again as I thought about how they had a lot more fun without me. I thought about how I was such a boring and annoying person, and how TheDoctorsQueen probably deserves to be friends with SkyDoesMinecraft Girl more than me. I thought about how I might have actually been replaced, and I felt like crying again.
Today was horrible. :/
on July 04, 2016
Part 1 of today's post:
Today was absolutely awful.
In RE, I got my test back. I had been excited to get it back, because I thought I would get full marks on it like the teacher said I would. But when I got it back, I found out that I had got all of the marks apart from one, and I had got 29 out of 30. I was really upset and annoyed at myself, and I thought that Phone Girl, who was the only other person expected to get full marks, had probably done better than me.
In Maths, See More when I sat down at my desk, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl looked really happy. She showed me a badge on her blazer, and I realised it was a Literacy Leader badge. She told me that she had been allowed to become a Literacy Leader, and I almost started crying. She knew how much I wanted to become one, and she still became one and showed off about it in front of me. I felt awful, but I pretended to be happy for her anyway. But I just kept thinking about how I couldn't be happy for other people and how horrible I was, and I just felt like crying even more.
At break, I was sat on my own, because SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and TheDoctorsQueen were busy being Literacy Leaders. I still felt horrible, and after a while, I heard these younger kids whispering and pointing at me. That made me feel even worse, and I knew they were going to talk to me, so I prepared myself. One of them came over to me, and she kept asking me where my friends were and saying that she felt sorry that I was sat on my own. I just shrugged my shoulders and she walked away, but I heard her and her friends saying things about me when she sat back down. One of them said, "I feel sorry for her." and another one of them said, "Doesn't she have friends?" Then I started crying, but I tried my best to stop so the younger kids wouldn't see and say something. I felt awful, and I suddenly felt as if I was going to have a panic attack. I tried to keep breathing, and then the bell eventually went. When I left the canteen, I started crying even more, and it was even more obvious. But nobody at all asked me if I was okay. When I got to PE, which was my next lesson, I wiped my tears away and managed to stop crying. I still felt horrible, and I was really scared in case the younger kids talked to me again at lunch.
At lunch, I was eating, and SkyDoesMinecraft Girl came to the canteen to see how I was doing. She kept bragging about being a Literacy Leader and talking about how she had always wanted to be one, and I just felt like crying again. After a while, she said she had to go, and she said that she would come back. I said that was okay, and then she left. She never actually came back.
Today was absolutely awful.
In RE, I got my test back. I had been excited to get it back, because I thought I would get full marks on it like the teacher said I would. But when I got it back, I found out that I had got all of the marks apart from one, and I had got 29 out of 30. I was really upset and annoyed at myself, and I thought that Phone Girl, who was the only other person expected to get full marks, had probably done better than me.
In Maths, See More when I sat down at my desk, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl looked really happy. She showed me a badge on her blazer, and I realised it was a Literacy Leader badge. She told me that she had been allowed to become a Literacy Leader, and I almost started crying. She knew how much I wanted to become one, and she still became one and showed off about it in front of me. I felt awful, but I pretended to be happy for her anyway. But I just kept thinking about how I couldn't be happy for other people and how horrible I was, and I just felt like crying even more.
At break, I was sat on my own, because SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and TheDoctorsQueen were busy being Literacy Leaders. I still felt horrible, and after a while, I heard these younger kids whispering and pointing at me. That made me feel even worse, and I knew they were going to talk to me, so I prepared myself. One of them came over to me, and she kept asking me where my friends were and saying that she felt sorry that I was sat on my own. I just shrugged my shoulders and she walked away, but I heard her and her friends saying things about me when she sat back down. One of them said, "I feel sorry for her." and another one of them said, "Doesn't she have friends?" Then I started crying, but I tried my best to stop so the younger kids wouldn't see and say something. I felt awful, and I suddenly felt as if I was going to have a panic attack. I tried to keep breathing, and then the bell eventually went. When I left the canteen, I started crying even more, and it was even more obvious. But nobody at all asked me if I was okay. When I got to PE, which was my next lesson, I wiped my tears away and managed to stop crying. I still felt horrible, and I was really scared in case the younger kids talked to me again at lunch.
At lunch, I was eating, and SkyDoesMinecraft Girl came to the canteen to see how I was doing. She kept bragging about being a Literacy Leader and talking about how she had always wanted to be one, and I just felt like crying again. After a while, she said she had to go, and she said that she would come back. I said that was okay, and then she left. She never actually came back.
@jenesaispas
I guess, but I didn't really want anyone to care about me then, and I just wanted everyone to ignore me. And they might have just been making fun of me and pretending to care, because nobody actually does care. And maybe, but she might leave me. :/
I guess, but I didn't really want anyone to care about me then, and I just wanted everyone to ignore me. And they might have just been making fun of me and pretending to care, because nobody actually does care. And maybe, but she might leave me. :/
on July 04, 2016
on July 04, 2016
And the verses I write will speak for me, good girls don't make history. ?
on July 03, 2016
Mika is such a nice person, really. He always does things to support charities and help his fans, and he has also literally never done anything bad to be in the media. He's so lovely to everyone, and I just love him so much. ?
on July 02, 2016
Yesterday, while Mika was performing Underwater at a concert, there were a lot of people under the influence of alcohol and drugs in the crowd. Some drunk girls started punching this other girl, and she was taken out of the concert because she was overwhelmed and upset. After that, Mika invited her on stage to sing and dance with him, and he told her that everything would be okay. And today, he tweeted saying that he hoped the fan would have a better day today.
Mika is such a See More kind and lovely person, and I'm proud of him. ❤
Mika is such a See More kind and lovely person, and I'm proud of him. ❤
on July 02, 2016
on July 01, 2016
Part 2 of today's post:
In Geography, we were lining up to go into assembly, and I was stood next to Handbag Girl. She told the girl on the other side to switch places with her, and when she asked why, she said, "I don't like sitting next to people that I don't like." I felt as if everyone hated me, and I felt like crying.
In English, I was doing my work, and this boy was being told off for talking. He said, "But everyone else was talking!" and Football Boy said, "Victoria wasn't!" See More Everyone started laughing, and I heard the other boy say, "Why do you always have to bring Victoria into everything!" in a sarcastic voice. I just felt horrible.
One good thing that happened today, though. I didn't have to do my presentation, because Human Copy Machine Girl's best friend did a presentation that took nearly half of the lesson, and the teacher chose other people to present the rest of the time. So that was good. I might have to present in the next lesson, but I really hope that the teacher will forget about it.
In Geography, we were lining up to go into assembly, and I was stood next to Handbag Girl. She told the girl on the other side to switch places with her, and when she asked why, she said, "I don't like sitting next to people that I don't like." I felt as if everyone hated me, and I felt like crying.
In English, I was doing my work, and this boy was being told off for talking. He said, "But everyone else was talking!" and Football Boy said, "Victoria wasn't!" See More Everyone started laughing, and I heard the other boy say, "Why do you always have to bring Victoria into everything!" in a sarcastic voice. I just felt horrible.
One good thing that happened today, though. I didn't have to do my presentation, because Human Copy Machine Girl's best friend did a presentation that took nearly half of the lesson, and the teacher chose other people to present the rest of the time. So that was good. I might have to present in the next lesson, but I really hope that the teacher will forget about it.
on July 01, 2016
Part 1 of today's post:
Today was a bad day.
In ICT, I worked with Diamond Girl again, because TheDoctorsQueen was off school. We were doing the work, and then Diamond Girl said that she wanted England Girl to join our group. I didn't want to work with her, because I didn't really like her, but luckily England Girl said that she was going to work on her own. After a while, we finished the work and printed it out, and I was kind of happy, because it looked quite good. The teacher See More said that we could play on game because we were finished, and I didn't go on any games, because I don't like them, especially not the ones that people at school play on. Diamond Girl kept trying to force me to play a game called Crazy Taxi with her, and I didn't want to, but I tried to play it. It was just rubbish, so I closed the window, and she kept saying that I should play on games. She asked me if I played on them after school, and I said no, because who actually does that? Then she went on Run 2, and I thought about how stupid it was that there were literally no maths games on Cool Maths Games, and how it was annoying that every single kid at my school was obsessed with the exact same games. Then after that, England Girl said that she hadn't done any work, and Diamond Girl said that she should work with us, even though it was almost the end of the lesson and we had already done the work. She said that she would work with us, and Diamond Girl told me that we were going to just add England Girl's name to the work so that it looked like she had worked on it with us. I was so angry about that, and I told Diamond Girl that I wouldn't do it because England Girl had done nothing at all. Then Diamond Girl said, "So? We can just pretend she did." I was even more annoyed, because I had worked so hard on it, and most of it was my own work. I had thought of nearly everything we had done, and they were just taking the credit for my work to make themselves look better. England Girl couldn't even be bothered to do anything, and she didn't even do her own work. I almost cried because I was so angry, and I just felt horrible. I honestly just wanted to delete all the work, and work on my own on a completely different piece of work, because I felt that bad. Diamond Girl kept yelling at me and saying that I had to put her name on the work, and eventually I gave in and did it, even though I really didn't want to. They didn't print it out, because it was the end of the lesson, but they said that they would do it in the next lesson. I just felt terrible, and I almost cried.
Today was a bad day.
In ICT, I worked with Diamond Girl again, because TheDoctorsQueen was off school. We were doing the work, and then Diamond Girl said that she wanted England Girl to join our group. I didn't want to work with her, because I didn't really like her, but luckily England Girl said that she was going to work on her own. After a while, we finished the work and printed it out, and I was kind of happy, because it looked quite good. The teacher See More said that we could play on game because we were finished, and I didn't go on any games, because I don't like them, especially not the ones that people at school play on. Diamond Girl kept trying to force me to play a game called Crazy Taxi with her, and I didn't want to, but I tried to play it. It was just rubbish, so I closed the window, and she kept saying that I should play on games. She asked me if I played on them after school, and I said no, because who actually does that? Then she went on Run 2, and I thought about how stupid it was that there were literally no maths games on Cool Maths Games, and how it was annoying that every single kid at my school was obsessed with the exact same games. Then after that, England Girl said that she hadn't done any work, and Diamond Girl said that she should work with us, even though it was almost the end of the lesson and we had already done the work. She said that she would work with us, and Diamond Girl told me that we were going to just add England Girl's name to the work so that it looked like she had worked on it with us. I was so angry about that, and I told Diamond Girl that I wouldn't do it because England Girl had done nothing at all. Then Diamond Girl said, "So? We can just pretend she did." I was even more annoyed, because I had worked so hard on it, and most of it was my own work. I had thought of nearly everything we had done, and they were just taking the credit for my work to make themselves look better. England Girl couldn't even be bothered to do anything, and she didn't even do her own work. I almost cried because I was so angry, and I just felt horrible. I honestly just wanted to delete all the work, and work on my own on a completely different piece of work, because I felt that bad. Diamond Girl kept yelling at me and saying that I had to put her name on the work, and eventually I gave in and did it, even though I really didn't want to. They didn't print it out, because it was the end of the lesson, but they said that they would do it in the next lesson. I just felt terrible, and I almost cried.
on July 01, 2016
on July 01, 2016
Guys, I might make a School Trip In The Life Of MikasPrincess story when I go to Blackpool Pleasure Beach. ?
on June 30, 2016
Today was mostly okay, but in Maths, there was a lot of drama and we didn't learn anything because of everyone disrupting the lesson.
But I didn't have to do my presentation in History, because we had another lesson to work on our presentation to give the Literacy Leaders more time, as they weren't in the last lesson. But I have to do it tomorrow now. :/
But I didn't have to do my presentation in History, because we had another lesson to work on our presentation to give the Literacy Leaders more time, as they weren't in the last lesson. But I have to do it tomorrow now. :/
@Mindfang
I'm not still in school, I've just got home to make this post. And I got home late because I was at my grandma's house.
I'm not still in school, I've just got home to make this post. And I got home late because I was at my grandma's house.
on June 30, 2016
on June 30, 2016
This morning, when I got up, the music channel was on, and I heard songs like I Kissed A Girl by Katy Perry and So What by Pink being played. I thought that they would be having a day for older music, and I was excited because I thought they would play a Mika song. But it turned out that it was 10 Years of Awesome Girls Day, and it was only for female artists. So they didn't play any of Mika's songs.
on June 30, 2016
I have to do my presentation today in History, and I'm really scared. :/
on June 30, 2016
Also, TheDoctorsQueen's internet girlfriend's school is going to Blackpool Pleasure Beach on the same day as our school, so she's going to meet her for the first time. I'm happy for her, because it's really good that she's actually going to meet her. But I'm kind of sad, because she'll probably go off with her internet girlfriend and not want to spend time with SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I, and it will probably remind me of how I'll probably never meet my internet friends. And See More nearly all of the girls in our year, especially Human Copy Machine Girl, want to meet TheDoctorsQueen's girlfriend with her, and that means that everyone will want to hang around with her and not me.
Also, I think Human Copy Machine Girl is a lot better friends with TheDoctorsQueen than I am, now that I'm trying to stop being friends with her. And I realised something about this. Human Copy Machine Girl has become so much like me that she has actually ended up replacing me. And I'm not sure how to feel about that. :/
Also, I think Human Copy Machine Girl is a lot better friends with TheDoctorsQueen than I am, now that I'm trying to stop being friends with her. And I realised something about this. Human Copy Machine Girl has become so much like me that she has actually ended up replacing me. And I'm not sure how to feel about that. :/
on June 29, 2016
Yesterday, I went to the teacher in the office to ask if she knew anything about my letter for the school trip to Blackpool Pleasure Beach, as I hadn't been given it by my form tutor and everyone else had. She told me to go to the head of year, so I went there. She told me that I needed to see my form tutor, but when I went to see her, she told me to go back to the head of year because she 'didn't deal with it'. When I went back to the head of year, she told me to go and see another See More teacher in the office to get a new one printed out, and then break was over, so I had to wait until after I had eaten lunch to go and see her. I finally got a new letter printed out for me by her, but it was still quite annoying and stressful.
This just proves that the teachers at my school can't do their jobs properly. :/
This just proves that the teachers at my school can't do their jobs properly. :/
@jenesaispas
Ugh, that must have been annoying. I had to get my letter, though, because if I didn't I would be left at school on my own with the most badly behaved kids. :/
Ugh, that must have been annoying. I had to get my letter, though, because if I didn't I would be left at school on my own with the most badly behaved kids. :/
on June 30, 2016
on June 29, 2016