shygirl23 - Page 9

Happy early Valentine's Day everyone! Hope u have that special someone, unlike me:(.... Anyway, enough about my problems. Tell me in the comments who's ur special someone or what u going to do for the person. Thank you for taking the time to read this. Love you all! Check at my "who is your qfeaster Valentine's" page, if ya want. Thanks again!:D
Me when I talk to my crush: ☺️?
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"What am I doing here, even if it seems I don't matter. I know God created me, for a reason. But what for? For me to be the best, or to be invisible to the rest? I don't know. But I want to know soon. Everybody wants me to be someone else. Everybody want me not to be me. I want to matter, in my universe. I want to be me. Won't they just let me be? Do I not matter anymore?

Why does it feel like I'm alone? That it feels like slipping out. I have done my part in screaming and shout. See More But nobody heard, nobody listened. Even if I did my loudest. Guess I'm not worth listening too.... What's my choice? What's my destiny? What's my purpose, in this reality?

My head is spinning, my voice is screaming. My soul is breaking, my arms reaching out. Am I just a girl or a human? Am I just another being? Do I not matter at all? Guess not, because nobody hears me. Nobody sees me. Nobody knows the real me.

I don't want to be who they all want me to be.
I don't want to be that perfect student
I don't want to be the perfect daughter
I don't want to be the perfect friend
Because there is no perfect in this world
I just want to be me.
If you can't except that, then let me be.
God please tell what's my reason here in this reality..."

Me: sorry if that was long, if you actually read this whole thing. Just feeling down, need to let it sometime. Thanks for reading this, have a great day!

I took a quiz and the results are this....
Sad.
Me: yeah, I'm sad
-about not knowing what my crush is thinking when I'm when him
-Sad that everybody wants me to be somebody else
-Sad that I don't get to be myself around everybody
-Too sad that I can feel the pain still left in my heart See More
-Too sad that I can just say I'm used to it.

Help me please?

That last post was really true. It's in my profile page, so check it out.
About a day ago, nobody noticed he was absent except me
The wifi is too slow to send messages, so I just did that last post.
Should I send that to him?
I'm in high school btw.
High school drama!

That last post was really true.
About a day ago, nobody noticed he was absent except me
The wifi is too slow to send messages, so I just did that last post.
Should I send that to him?
I'm in high school btw.
High school drama!

U weren't at school for 3 days.
I noticed that you weren't here, while everyone just keeps going.
My mind is going: why aren't you here, are you alright.
You know I care for you, because you are one of my closet friends. You know that, don't u?
U tell me u trusted me, but I know you care too
What did I promise you, only to be friends
We are still friends, we've always been. See More
You won't tell me what happened, wifi is too slow
I've always thought about you, you know.
I'm just stuck on what everybody wants me to be.
Being the 4.0 student, a background character, the silent one, the insane one, loyal friend...
Everybody wants me to be somebody else
Everybody wants it, except me.
I just want some time with my friends without worries.
I can't be everything by myself, not alone
My friends and music keeps me sane.
If one friend is not happy, then I can't think straight.
I'll worry.
So please tell me what happened.
Because I want to make it up to u.
Tell me, I'll listen
I've always have been.

How can I be scary?
My mind is.
I might look normal, and act innocent. But my mind is chaos, and it's scary.

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