I've decided to do a life update before I abandon this place. Might do a life update every few months, probably won't though. ?
- Started doing online classes again, getting my diplomas and whatnot later on in the year. Thinking about going to college in a different state or a different country? Probably won't but heavily considering it. I have no idea what the fuсk to do.
- I've been eating healthier and I'm in recovery from a lot of issues. I'm trying to get better day by See More day.
- I've mostly been working at stressful fast food jobs and doing other unsafe things to try to make enough money. Iykyk. ?
- I'm turning nineteen this year. Insane because I joined this website when I was around nine/ten years old.
- I've moved four times since I last used this site? My situation is very different but unfortunately it's not better at all. I'm trying to figure out a way to get a car and move out ASAP.
- I've been trying to get into my hobbies more often and I've released some music/songs, and I'm planning on going into the music or model industry. My music and photos pop up on google if you search my stage name so for now, I won't be giving that out for safety. I'm not popular or famous at all but I thought that was kinda cool. I know it'll be a living hell in some ways but at the same time, it feels so right to me.
- Finally broke up with ******. It happened when I was still active here I think but as an adult I've realized he was straight up grooming/SAing me and had been throughout my whole preteen AND teen years. <\3
- Possiblity that I might be pregnant right now and I have zero idea on what to do because this shouldn't even be happening.
- I'm back in therapy and it's helpful sometimes.
- I have tattoos and piercings now.
- I finally cut my hair but I'm letting it grow back out now. It's currently black.
- My great grandmother is my best friend at this point.
- Still heavily into certain musicians and dramas like I was before. I'll listen to anything regardless of genre or language.
- I'm multilingual.
- I spend most of my time studying and working.
- I have been diagnosed with multiple disorders and that explains a lot. Also have been realizing I went through a lot of traumatic events as a child and I should have never had unsupervised internet access between the ages of 8 - 12.
- The things that I used to cry about literally do not bother me at all and I'm more likely to just block someone instead of being upset so? Progress.
- I'm learning to be okay with how everything is and work on being better.
- Started doing online classes again, getting my diplomas and whatnot later on in the year. Thinking about going to college in a different state or a different country? Probably won't but heavily considering it. I have no idea what the fuсk to do.
- I've been eating healthier and I'm in recovery from a lot of issues. I'm trying to get better day by See More day.
- I've mostly been working at stressful fast food jobs and doing other unsafe things to try to make enough money. Iykyk. ?
- I'm turning nineteen this year. Insane because I joined this website when I was around nine/ten years old.
- I've moved four times since I last used this site? My situation is very different but unfortunately it's not better at all. I'm trying to figure out a way to get a car and move out ASAP.
- I've been trying to get into my hobbies more often and I've released some music/songs, and I'm planning on going into the music or model industry. My music and photos pop up on google if you search my stage name so for now, I won't be giving that out for safety. I'm not popular or famous at all but I thought that was kinda cool. I know it'll be a living hell in some ways but at the same time, it feels so right to me.
- Finally broke up with ******. It happened when I was still active here I think but as an adult I've realized he was straight up grooming/SAing me and had been throughout my whole preteen AND teen years. <\3
- Possiblity that I might be pregnant right now and I have zero idea on what to do because this shouldn't even be happening.
- I'm back in therapy and it's helpful sometimes.
- I have tattoos and piercings now.
- I finally cut my hair but I'm letting it grow back out now. It's currently black.
- My great grandmother is my best friend at this point.
- Still heavily into certain musicians and dramas like I was before. I'll listen to anything regardless of genre or language.
- I'm multilingual.
- I spend most of my time studying and working.
- I have been diagnosed with multiple disorders and that explains a lot. Also have been realizing I went through a lot of traumatic events as a child and I should have never had unsupervised internet access between the ages of 8 - 12.
- The things that I used to cry about literally do not bother me at all and I'm more likely to just block someone instead of being upset so? Progress.
- I'm learning to be okay with how everything is and work on being better.
on June 26, 2023
Wow, I never thought I'd actually be here again. I'm not going to reach out to anyone for obvious reasons. I used this site often between the years 2014 - 2020/2021. I have a lot of great memories here and a lot of bad memories as well, although the bad memories outweigh the good. The thing I remember most is the drama, death threats/constant harassment, grooming, and being doxxed from this site. So yeah, not a lot of good memories came from this website and I'm sure things that See More happened on here later contributed to my PTSD. I thought about this site a lot but never regained the nerve to rejoin after everything. I still get flashbacks to certain events to be honest. I thought I'd rejoin to somehow give myself closure or peace over things that happened here so I could finally forget about it all and move on, if that makes any sense. I do want to say I don't necessarily hold any grudges towards anyone because I think most of us were literal children, although some users have definitely left me with scars and trauma, not going to lie. Anyhow, I didn't come back to cause drama so I won't mention anything else. I'm moving forward with life and I hope everyone else has too.
I also won't mention previous usernames or names I used to go by, because I'm not planning on being active or interacting with anyone. I only came to visit for a few minutes due to nostalgia and repressed memories I need to work through.
My life has changed very much since I was on here, a lot for the better. I'd rather not give an actual life update due to the small chance someone somehow recognizes me because I'm still very anxious of nearly all users. I'm definitely not the same person I was when I joined, and when I left. Everything about me has changed from how I look, my hobbies, my interests, my political opinions, how I present myself. Everything. I was a young child when I first joined this site and now I'm an adult, and that feels very strange to me. This website used to be my safe place once upon a time, and I don't think I'd ever forget all the friends I had once or the good times.
I doubt anyone will even see this because this place seems very dead now and like I said, I'm not planning on actually being active again. I'm surprised this website is still running but I think I'll finish this whole thing up here.
This website used to mean a lot to me as a kid and I wanted to revisit for a while.
I also won't mention previous usernames or names I used to go by, because I'm not planning on being active or interacting with anyone. I only came to visit for a few minutes due to nostalgia and repressed memories I need to work through.
My life has changed very much since I was on here, a lot for the better. I'd rather not give an actual life update due to the small chance someone somehow recognizes me because I'm still very anxious of nearly all users. I'm definitely not the same person I was when I joined, and when I left. Everything about me has changed from how I look, my hobbies, my interests, my political opinions, how I present myself. Everything. I was a young child when I first joined this site and now I'm an adult, and that feels very strange to me. This website used to be my safe place once upon a time, and I don't think I'd ever forget all the friends I had once or the good times.
I doubt anyone will even see this because this place seems very dead now and like I said, I'm not planning on actually being active again. I'm surprised this website is still running but I think I'll finish this whole thing up here.
This website used to mean a lot to me as a kid and I wanted to revisit for a while.
on June 20, 2023
- I've tried to have contact with my biological family but it's lowkey obvious they don't want anything to do with me, which I'm starting to accept and be okay with.
- I consider myself to be a centrist but I don't care much for politics anyway. As an adult I've come to realize that I'm just a bisexual woman who prefers other women? I had a harsh awakening See More and realized labels are stupid and pointless, nobody actually cares.
- I'm always growing and learning about myself and I love/hate the fact I've grown for the better since leaving this site, losing a lot of people, and whatnot but it's all good. I'm definitely not where I want to be at in my life but I've been through a lot worse so I can say I'm definitely making progress and that's good enough for me.
- Lowkey just want a fresh start. New city, new people, new environment. Waiting for that day to happen.
- I still have a pet and she is adorable, I love her.
Anyways, that's all that I can think of that's important enough to mention.