Updates again: 🦋
- Had another pregnancy scare. (Not pregnant.)
- Will probably be in the psych ward for a few days/weeks after I post this.
- Got suspended from school because I can't afford to pay my bills right now LOL but I'll figure something out like I always do.
- I have some really good friends who I love and I feel like most of my friendships are genuine.
- I have a bad crush that'll probably end in me getting my heart broken.
- Thinking about cutting my See More hair again.
- Had another pregnancy scare. (Not pregnant.)
- Will probably be in the psych ward for a few days/weeks after I post this.
- Got suspended from school because I can't afford to pay my bills right now LOL but I'll figure something out like I always do.
- I have some really good friends who I love and I feel like most of my friendships are genuine.
- I have a bad crush that'll probably end in me getting my heart broken.
- Thinking about cutting my See More hair again.
on December 11, 2023
Literally everything in my life has changed so much since I left this site, so much for the better. I'm no longer friends with anyone I used to be from here and that's wild as fuсk to me. My mental health as been a little better but I've had a few relapses though. It's genuinely insane to me how different my life is now because what the fuсk lmao.
on December 03, 2023
Life update! 🌙
- Moving AGAIN. Gonna be living with my aunt.
- Still working on producing all of my projects.
- Made a lot of new friends/followers.
- Learning to be okay without having any bio family members in my life. I'm more at peace whenever I'm alone.
- Started dating again and I've had some great experiences that I absolutely deserve. If ykyk.
- Enjoying my hobbies again. See More
- Trying to be more positive and happy.
- Moving AGAIN. Gonna be living with my aunt.
- Still working on producing all of my projects.
- Made a lot of new friends/followers.
- Learning to be okay without having any bio family members in my life. I'm more at peace whenever I'm alone.
- Started dating again and I've had some great experiences that I absolutely deserve. If ykyk.
- Enjoying my hobbies again. See More
- Trying to be more positive and happy.
on December 03, 2023
Updates; 🌙
- Moving again.
- Actually studying often, trying to get myself to be more motivated.
- I don't know, life is weird and I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. It's strange how different my life is now compared to when I was primarily active on here. Everything has changed so fast and I've experienced a lot of things I shouldn't have.
- I'm trying to enjoy my hobbies again but I'm going through a major depressive episode along with some other things. See More
- I have a bunch of new friends/2K+ followers but I'm still lonely LOL.
- Pretty sure I'm pagan/wiccan?
- Might be vegetarian? Thinking about it.
- Completely irrelevant but I don't think I'm bisexual at all anymore. I don't really feel attraction to men but I can't date either way so it doesn't matter.
- Overall I'm just trying to move forward with my life.
- Moving again.
- Actually studying often, trying to get myself to be more motivated.
- I don't know, life is weird and I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. It's strange how different my life is now compared to when I was primarily active on here. Everything has changed so fast and I've experienced a lot of things I shouldn't have.
- I'm trying to enjoy my hobbies again but I'm going through a major depressive episode along with some other things. See More
- I have a bunch of new friends/2K+ followers but I'm still lonely LOL.
- Pretty sure I'm pagan/wiccan?
- Might be vegetarian? Thinking about it.
- Completely irrelevant but I don't think I'm bisexual at all anymore. I don't really feel attraction to men but I can't date either way so it doesn't matter.
- Overall I'm just trying to move forward with my life.
on November 05, 2023
Short update:
- I'm back in school.
- Still looking for another place to stay because my family is toxic + more.
- Trying to stay as relaxed and calm as possible but it's never easy.
- Trying to get back into things I used to enjoy.
- Taking everything one day at a time.
- I'm back in school.
- Still looking for another place to stay because my family is toxic + more.
- Trying to stay as relaxed and calm as possible but it's never easy.
- Trying to get back into things I used to enjoy.
- Taking everything one day at a time.
- Also, I'm so much more pretty now. For obvious reasons I'm never posting a photo here again lmao but I've lost weight, found a makeup and hair style that really suits me and overall I'm genuinely more confident and I lowkey like myself.
on October 13, 2023
on October 13, 2023
Life update:
- Currently staying here and there. I never know where I'll be at.
- I'm trying to enroll in an online school/early college.
- I'm slowly giving up on my music - I don't have anywhere to record or wifi so. I gotta push through this and hopefully I'll be able to record and release new things soon.
- My book(s) are getting published very soon.
- I've been having a lot of health issues and family drama but I'm trying to stay positive and relaxed.
- I think See More I'm doing a lot better compared to the times I was primarily active on this website and that's such a blessing lmao.
- Had a lowkey glow up compared to last year.
- Overall, I'm surviving by some miracle.
- Currently staying here and there. I never know where I'll be at.
- I'm trying to enroll in an online school/early college.
- I'm slowly giving up on my music - I don't have anywhere to record or wifi so. I gotta push through this and hopefully I'll be able to record and release new things soon.
- My book(s) are getting published very soon.
- I've been having a lot of health issues and family drama but I'm trying to stay positive and relaxed.
- I think See More I'm doing a lot better compared to the times I was primarily active on this website and that's such a blessing lmao.
- Had a lowkey glow up compared to last year.
- Overall, I'm surviving by some miracle.
on October 03, 2023
Random update. ✨
- Living with a relative until another week. Then I'm going to be living in a different state and will be a lot more happier and successful.
- Forcing myself to be positive even though everything is not that good in my life right now. I've been thinking about a lot and at this point I geuninely want to be okay for once.
- I got a kitten.
- Sleeping more often.
- Publishing my books soon.
- Finishing up my album. See More
- Probably going to go no contact with my mom since she loves to choose men over me and left me to go live with a stranger. 🥰
- Nothing too crazy.
- Living with a relative until another week. Then I'm going to be living in a different state and will be a lot more happier and successful.
- Forcing myself to be positive even though everything is not that good in my life right now. I've been thinking about a lot and at this point I geuninely want to be okay for once.
- I got a kitten.
- Sleeping more often.
- Publishing my books soon.
- Finishing up my album. See More
- Probably going to go no contact with my mom since she loves to choose men over me and left me to go live with a stranger. 🥰
- Nothing too crazy.
on September 15, 2023
Life updates again because everything has changed so much in a short time period.✌️
- Dealing with a lot of things right now and it's so stressful. I'm not completely safe or happy where I am but I can't do anything about it so it's almost kind of pointless to say anything. I've had to get restraining orders and that's insane.
- I'm nineteen now.
- Once again applying for multiple different jobs.
- Can't focus on classes because of all the issues in my life but hopefully See More everything will calm back down soon enough.
- I've been exhausted all the time.
- I started working on art again and I have my own online shop/commissions.
- Currently in a situationship?!
- Dealing with a lot of things right now and it's so stressful. I'm not completely safe or happy where I am but I can't do anything about it so it's almost kind of pointless to say anything. I've had to get restraining orders and that's insane.
- I'm nineteen now.
- Once again applying for multiple different jobs.
- Can't focus on classes because of all the issues in my life but hopefully See More everything will calm back down soon enough.
- I've been exhausted all the time.
- I started working on art again and I have my own online shop/commissions.
- Currently in a situationship?!
on August 13, 2023
I've decided to do a life update before I abandon this place. Might do a life update every few months, probably won't though. ?
- Started doing online classes again, getting my diplomas and whatnot later on in the year. Thinking about going to college in a different state or a different country? Probably won't but heavily considering it. I have no idea what the fuсk to do.
- I've been eating healthier and I'm in recovery from a lot of issues. I'm trying to get better day by See More day.
- I've mostly been working at stressful fast food jobs and doing other unsafe things to try to make enough money. Iykyk. ?
- I'm turning nineteen this year. Insane because I joined this website when I was around nine/ten years old.
- I've moved four times since I last used this site? My situation is very different but unfortunately it's not better at all. I'm trying to figure out a way to get a car and move out ASAP.
- I've been trying to get into my hobbies more often and I've released some music/songs, and I'm planning on going into the music or model industry. My music and photos pop up on google if you search my stage name so for now, I won't be giving that out for safety. I'm not popular or famous at all but I thought that was kinda cool. I know it'll be a living hell in some ways but at the same time, it feels so right to me.
- Finally broke up with ******. It happened when I was still active here I think but as an adult I've realized he was straight up grooming/SAing me and had been throughout my whole preteen AND teen years. <\3
- Possiblity that I might be pregnant right now and I have zero idea on what to do because this shouldn't even be happening.
- I'm back in therapy and it's helpful sometimes.
- I have tattoos and piercings now.
- I finally cut my hair but I'm letting it grow back out now. It's currently black.
- My great grandmother is my best friend at this point.
- Still heavily into certain musicians and dramas like I was before. I'll listen to anything regardless of genre or language.
- I'm multilingual.
- I spend most of my time studying and working.
- I have been diagnosed with multiple disorders and that explains a lot. Also have been realizing I went through a lot of traumatic events as a child and I should have never had unsupervised internet access between the ages of 8 - 12.
- The things that I used to cry about literally do not bother me at all and I'm more likely to just block someone instead of being upset so? Progress.
- I'm learning to be okay with how everything is and work on being better.
- Started doing online classes again, getting my diplomas and whatnot later on in the year. Thinking about going to college in a different state or a different country? Probably won't but heavily considering it. I have no idea what the fuсk to do.
- I've been eating healthier and I'm in recovery from a lot of issues. I'm trying to get better day by See More day.
- I've mostly been working at stressful fast food jobs and doing other unsafe things to try to make enough money. Iykyk. ?
- I'm turning nineteen this year. Insane because I joined this website when I was around nine/ten years old.
- I've moved four times since I last used this site? My situation is very different but unfortunately it's not better at all. I'm trying to figure out a way to get a car and move out ASAP.
- I've been trying to get into my hobbies more often and I've released some music/songs, and I'm planning on going into the music or model industry. My music and photos pop up on google if you search my stage name so for now, I won't be giving that out for safety. I'm not popular or famous at all but I thought that was kinda cool. I know it'll be a living hell in some ways but at the same time, it feels so right to me.
- Finally broke up with ******. It happened when I was still active here I think but as an adult I've realized he was straight up grooming/SAing me and had been throughout my whole preteen AND teen years. <\3
- Possiblity that I might be pregnant right now and I have zero idea on what to do because this shouldn't even be happening.
- I'm back in therapy and it's helpful sometimes.
- I have tattoos and piercings now.
- I finally cut my hair but I'm letting it grow back out now. It's currently black.
- My great grandmother is my best friend at this point.
- Still heavily into certain musicians and dramas like I was before. I'll listen to anything regardless of genre or language.
- I'm multilingual.
- I spend most of my time studying and working.
- I have been diagnosed with multiple disorders and that explains a lot. Also have been realizing I went through a lot of traumatic events as a child and I should have never had unsupervised internet access between the ages of 8 - 12.
- The things that I used to cry about literally do not bother me at all and I'm more likely to just block someone instead of being upset so? Progress.
- I'm learning to be okay with how everything is and work on being better.
Also;
- I've tried to have contact with my biological family but it's lowkey obvious they don't want anything to do with me, which I'm starting to accept and be okay with.
- I consider myself to be a centrist but I don't care much for politics anyway. As an adult I've come to realize that I'm just a bisexual woman who prefers other women? I had a harsh awakening See More and realized labels are stupid and pointless, nobody actually cares.
- I'm always growing and learning about myself and I love/hate the fact I've grown for the better since leaving this site, losing a lot of people, and whatnot but it's all good. I'm definitely not where I want to be at in my life but I've been through a lot worse so I can say I'm definitely making progress and that's good enough for me.
- Lowkey just want a fresh start. New city, new people, new environment. Waiting for that day to happen.
- I still have a pet and she is adorable, I love her.
Anyways, that's all that I can think of that's important enough to mention.
- I've tried to have contact with my biological family but it's lowkey obvious they don't want anything to do with me, which I'm starting to accept and be okay with.
- I consider myself to be a centrist but I don't care much for politics anyway. As an adult I've come to realize that I'm just a bisexual woman who prefers other women? I had a harsh awakening See More and realized labels are stupid and pointless, nobody actually cares.
- I'm always growing and learning about myself and I love/hate the fact I've grown for the better since leaving this site, losing a lot of people, and whatnot but it's all good. I'm definitely not where I want to be at in my life but I've been through a lot worse so I can say I'm definitely making progress and that's good enough for me.
- Lowkey just want a fresh start. New city, new people, new environment. Waiting for that day to happen.
- I still have a pet and she is adorable, I love her.
Anyways, that's all that I can think of that's important enough to mention.
on June 26, 2023
on June 26, 2023
Wow, I never thought I'd actually be here again. I'm not going to reach out to anyone for obvious reasons. I used this site often between the years 2014 - 2020/2021. I have a lot of great memories here and a lot of bad memories as well, although the bad memories outweigh the good. The thing I remember most is the drama, death threats/constant harassment, grooming, and being doxxed from this site. So yeah, not a lot of good memories came from this website and I'm sure things that See More happened on here later contributed to my PTSD. I thought about this site a lot but never regained the nerve to rejoin after everything. I still get flashbacks to certain events to be honest. I thought I'd rejoin to somehow give myself closure or peace over things that happened here so I could finally forget about it all and move on, if that makes any sense. I do want to say I don't necessarily hold any grudges towards anyone because I think most of us were literal children, although some users have definitely left me with scars and trauma, not going to lie. Anyhow, I didn't come back to cause drama so I won't mention anything else. I'm moving forward with life and I hope everyone else has too.
I also won't mention previous usernames or names I used to go by, because I'm not planning on being active or interacting with anyone. I only came to visit for a few minutes due to nostalgia and repressed memories I need to work through.
My life has changed very much since I was on here, a lot for the better. I'd rather not give an actual life update due to the small chance someone somehow recognizes me because I'm still very anxious of nearly all users. I'm definitely not the same person I was when I joined, and when I left. Everything about me has changed from how I look, my hobbies, my interests, my political opinions, how I present myself. Everything. I was a young child when I first joined this site and now I'm an adult, and that feels very strange to me. This website used to be my safe place once upon a time, and I don't think I'd ever forget all the friends I had once or the good times.
I doubt anyone will even see this because this place seems very dead now and like I said, I'm not planning on actually being active again. I'm surprised this website is still running but I think I'll finish this whole thing up here.
This website used to mean a lot to me as a kid and I wanted to revisit for a while.
I also won't mention previous usernames or names I used to go by, because I'm not planning on being active or interacting with anyone. I only came to visit for a few minutes due to nostalgia and repressed memories I need to work through.
My life has changed very much since I was on here, a lot for the better. I'd rather not give an actual life update due to the small chance someone somehow recognizes me because I'm still very anxious of nearly all users. I'm definitely not the same person I was when I joined, and when I left. Everything about me has changed from how I look, my hobbies, my interests, my political opinions, how I present myself. Everything. I was a young child when I first joined this site and now I'm an adult, and that feels very strange to me. This website used to be my safe place once upon a time, and I don't think I'd ever forget all the friends I had once or the good times.
I doubt anyone will even see this because this place seems very dead now and like I said, I'm not planning on actually being active again. I'm surprised this website is still running but I think I'll finish this whole thing up here.
This website used to mean a lot to me as a kid and I wanted to revisit for a while.
on June 20, 2023