andy rourke died and i am devastated
its so easy to not be bothered when it’s someone you don’t really listen to. it didn’t really affect me a lot when EVH died. same with jeff beck. but i listen to the smiths so much. they’ve been at the top of my spotify rewind for the last two years and in the top 5 for at least 3. i met one of my best friends (who is one of the only people from high school i See More still talking to) bc of them. the r genuinely one of my all time favorite bands and it’s so weird
on May 19, 2023
on May 19, 2023
somehow i am the worst while also being better than everyone else and idk what that is
on May 18, 2023
going home after college always sucks but it double sucks when you literally have 0 friends from your hometown because the only high school friend you kept was only here for study abroad.
on May 16, 2023
on May 16, 2023
moved back in w my parents bc someone’s renting my apartment for the next three months and god i need to move back out immediately i fuckking hate it here and i feel so unproductive, it’s 10:30 and i’ve done nothing but shower and smoke today and i still have late finals homework shit bc i’ve been so busy with my performances and other finals that i haven’t had time to do it and i miss my friends and the guy i was seeing hates me i think and everything sucks
on May 14, 2023
j realized i started playing sax when i was 10 im 19 now. that’s almost half my life
on May 14, 2023
hmltd twitter acc posted a pic of shank literally getting stepped on captioned “i now go by SPANK” what happened that lead up to this
on May 14, 2023
i have a picture of my friend extremely high and disoriented and it’s like a meme in my family now
on May 14, 2023
college is insane bc there’s like grown ass people and also people who act like actual children
my former roommates were the actual children type and living with them was Hell i remember once i had a dude over and we were lying in bed (fully clothed, literally just cuddling) and one of the roommates slammed my door shut and later she was like “seeing ur feet in bed made me uncomfortable” bro we were CUDDLING
on May 13, 2023
on May 13, 2023
omg should i get one of those old fashioned tobacco pipes like sherlock holmes
on May 13, 2023
today is a Mess i’m playing 2 shows (3 if i have time but idk) and i gotta see my girl before she leaves and i also gotta bang it out on the keys for class wtf
on May 12, 2023
on May 12, 2023
y’all i played a show last night wearing clothes w a low neckline and my sax strap chafed my neck so bad and today i walked around in a bralette w an unbuttoned shirt w my whole chest OUT and it looks like i have huge hickeys
however the hawaiian shirt/septum piercing combo is basically the same as wearing a pride flag as a cape and a really pretty girl said im pretty + asked for my insta ??
on May 12, 2023
on May 12, 2023