i love how i’m literally in college for performance yet today i fully had a panic attack and cried trying to perform for like 10 people
kafka
granted it wasn’t really the performing itself that caused it?? i’m MAD stressed w finals coming up + there was a whole fiasco w my sheet music file being bad and me accidentally sending the pianist that + i have four more performances coming up and originally one was supposed to be tonight, one was wednesday, and the other two were next friday but tonight’s See More got pushed back so now im playing three shows back to back next friday (including one that is this huge setlist of like 20 full length arrangements) however it’s good bc there was No Way i was finishing the single i wanna debut at the last gig before tonight
on May 06, 2023
on May 06, 2023
i have this one friend who’s like my exact twin and it’s so funny
-we both love elton john and met bc of this goofy ass elton john fanpage
-we both got betta fish that looked EXACTLY the same around the same day (mine died tho this was like 3 years ago)
-we accidentally got the same shaped glasses on the same day
-both of us are super afraid of throwing up
-we both have super cool teachers we exchange stories about
-we both love elton john and met bc of this goofy ass elton john fanpage
-we both got betta fish that looked EXACTLY the same around the same day (mine died tho this was like 3 years ago)
-we accidentally got the same shaped glasses on the same day
-both of us are super afraid of throwing up
-we both have super cool teachers we exchange stories about
on May 05, 2023
i swear there r two types of musicians: “will literally go onstage with all limbs severed” and “oh oopsie i sneezed sorry can’t go on lolsies” like,, elton john?? bros geriatric and literally played a show with pneumonia. however morrissey will walk off if it’s too cold outside. there’s a video somewhere of thom yorke playing guitar while his hand is just GUSHING blood everywhere. seth evans tho?? “sorry guys ate too much can’t play piano tonight” and don’t even get me started See More on taylor swift jfc i don’t care for her music but i saw recently she performed w her hand cut open and jesus i couldn’t.
actually nvm seth valid for that stage lights are hot and sitting under them for hours if you’re already feeling shitty from overeating will most likely make you sick but morrissey has no excuse cmon bro sorry ur cold just put on a jacket ur not obligated to show us ur titties PLEASE god we don’t want to see them
on May 05, 2023
on May 05, 2023
i love musicians that run accounts that are essentially just meme pages
like.. tommy lee and slash also do it but i think tommy has posted 2 of his own nudes and slash mostly posts weird animated porn but greep?? he doesn’t play man the very first tweet i saw in 2023 was greep and he tweeted like five fully uncensored pictures of men giving themselves head. he’ll give a nonchalant ass caption [ae: what do we think of this?] followed See More by the most graphic and horrifying picture of a penis he could get his hands on. i am so scared to open his lives in public because 90% of the time he will flash a penis picture via green screen. idk how he still has any of his accounts. he’s only gotten banned once and that was because he said he was gonna assassinate tom holland
on May 05, 2023
the greep deserves his own post tho. his entire social media presence is a shitpost and goes beyond just meme pages bro regularly posts straight up porn
on May 05, 2023
ae: slash, tommy lee, the entirety of mustard service, everyone in black midi but particularly geordie greep
on May 05, 2023
on May 05, 2023
everyone thinks that i don’t mind performing bc i’m a music performance major. False!!!! I am scared shitless!!!
on May 05, 2023
HATE bitches who tell me that telling pedophiles to kill themselves is wrong!!! “telling people to kys is bad” Ok don’t care every time a pedophile dies i do a little happy dance
also the people who blame the kids r so fuckked too like.. if they aren’t victims and r just actively seeking out older men bc they want to that’s a whole other issue but as someone who has been personally affected by pedophillia we don’t realize that we’re being groomed. i went through a WHOLE phase from like 14-15 where i’d post heavily edited photos with weird See More sexual undertones on websites predominated by creepy older guys bc i liked the attention i got + it lead to me having an actual thing with a whole college senior (who was also my coach which added a whole other power dynamic) at 15 so Yeah. pedophiles should be shot in the head
on May 05, 2023
on May 05, 2023
no bc there needs to be STUDIES done on kids who got ahold of the internet too early bc that shit’s crazy i should Not have been posting straight porn links and regurgitating far right conspiracy bullshit i saw on 4chan and reddit on qfeast dot com
on May 05, 2023
on May 05, 2023
omg marco posted tour highlights and one of the videos was him accidentally dropping a cigarette RIGHT in front of one of my college’s music centers i literally have a class in it also i commented and and he liked it
on May 05, 2023
various small tweaks, facts and traits of The HS entities that i think r cool and important !!!
d-ray:
-his ears are pierced and he did it himself
-he wears eyeliner but swears it’s natural bc “only f slurs wear makeup” (this is pre Accidentally Sleeping With Rex era)
-has a hooked nose
-he’s got several moles bc moles are cool
-enjoys fishing but is bad at it See More
-has a small dent/scar on his forehead from crushing a beer can w his head while drunk (he says it was worth it)
-can smoke 3 cigarettes at once
-swears he doesn’t have adhd(meanwhile he can’t focus on anything and complains that instead of getting him jacked up adderall just makes him feel productive)
rex:
-acne prone and also has mad dry skin on account of being allergic to everything
-autistic and largely non-speaking sometimes
-loves radiohead and car seat headrest
-beige food enthusiast especially french fries. always brings up that french fries are actually from belgium
-plays bass really well. d-ray wanted him in his band when he found out but rex refused because he’s scared he’ll get nervous
-his family has an orange cat
-slightly uneven haircut (his mom cuts it!!)
-nail biter
-teeth r a little yellow and kinda crooked. (d-ray used to bully him for being british but stopped when he realized that being called british hurts rex’s feelings)
-big fan of tea but not coffee
-regularly shares cigarettes w d-ray
-family is wealthy because his grandpa owns a coffee shop and his grandma grows flowers (where his grandparents live a coffee shop is another name for a dispensary. his grandpa sells weed and his grandma grows it)
mitch:
-very coarse hair. puts it in braids sometimes but not often.
-tan bc he’s outside a lot
-paints his nails occasionally
-jewish
-his teeth are nice. almost weirdly nice. like they’re slightly too white he’s really good at brushing his teeth
-has a cool necklace that his grandpa gave him
-never learned how to ride a bike
-when he was a kid he had an ant farm
-serial tree climber
-has been wearing the same huge pair of boots since freshman year because he’s always had huge feet
-has one of those tree car air fresheners in his car
zee:
-short (d-ray calls him half pint)
-when he was little he played soccer
-was raised catholic
-lost his father to substance abuse and his older sister shortly afterwards
-total mamas boy (his mother is sweet but overprotective, rightfully so)
-loves carrots
-probably hasn’t washed that purple hoodie in years
-there’s definitely one of those china cabinets in his house
-his mom owns a crusty white dog that is older than he is and she treats it like a second child
-always a little sleepy
-horrible vision. thick ass glasses lenses make his eyes look wide set.
-nose is kinda flat, face is kinda round.
-has one of those aquarium lamps
d-ray:
-his ears are pierced and he did it himself
-he wears eyeliner but swears it’s natural bc “only f slurs wear makeup” (this is pre Accidentally Sleeping With Rex era)
-has a hooked nose
-he’s got several moles bc moles are cool
-enjoys fishing but is bad at it See More
-has a small dent/scar on his forehead from crushing a beer can w his head while drunk (he says it was worth it)
-can smoke 3 cigarettes at once
-swears he doesn’t have adhd(meanwhile he can’t focus on anything and complains that instead of getting him jacked up adderall just makes him feel productive)
rex:
-acne prone and also has mad dry skin on account of being allergic to everything
-autistic and largely non-speaking sometimes
-loves radiohead and car seat headrest
-beige food enthusiast especially french fries. always brings up that french fries are actually from belgium
-plays bass really well. d-ray wanted him in his band when he found out but rex refused because he’s scared he’ll get nervous
-his family has an orange cat
-slightly uneven haircut (his mom cuts it!!)
-nail biter
-teeth r a little yellow and kinda crooked. (d-ray used to bully him for being british but stopped when he realized that being called british hurts rex’s feelings)
-big fan of tea but not coffee
-regularly shares cigarettes w d-ray
-family is wealthy because his grandpa owns a coffee shop and his grandma grows flowers (where his grandparents live a coffee shop is another name for a dispensary. his grandpa sells weed and his grandma grows it)
mitch:
-very coarse hair. puts it in braids sometimes but not often.
-tan bc he’s outside a lot
-paints his nails occasionally
-jewish
-his teeth are nice. almost weirdly nice. like they’re slightly too white he’s really good at brushing his teeth
-has a cool necklace that his grandpa gave him
-never learned how to ride a bike
-when he was a kid he had an ant farm
-serial tree climber
-has been wearing the same huge pair of boots since freshman year because he’s always had huge feet
-has one of those tree car air fresheners in his car
zee:
-short (d-ray calls him half pint)
-when he was little he played soccer
-was raised catholic
-lost his father to substance abuse and his older sister shortly afterwards
-total mamas boy (his mother is sweet but overprotective, rightfully so)
-loves carrots
-probably hasn’t washed that purple hoodie in years
-there’s definitely one of those china cabinets in his house
-his mom owns a crusty white dog that is older than he is and she treats it like a second child
-always a little sleepy
-horrible vision. thick ass glasses lenses make his eyes look wide set.
-nose is kinda flat, face is kinda round.
-has one of those aquarium lamps
on May 05, 2023
you say Zodiac, we say Homestuck
you worship your gods, we worship LORD HUSSIE!
you say we die for good, we say we go godtier
you say Homestuck is boring, we say its the best thing to read besides manga
you say card symbols, we say quadrants
you say best friend, we say morial
you say lover, we say matesprit See More
you say were weird , we say your normal
you facepaint at parties, we paint for cosplay
you say bucket, we get discusted
you say its windy, we say its John doing the windy thing
you say parents, we say lusus
you say movies, we say romcons and nic cage
You say cool, we say strider
you say crab, we say crabdad
you say rainbow , we say hemospectrum
you say aliens, we say trolls
you say cat, we say pawbeast
you drink soda, we drink faygo
you say the universe was made by a big bang, we say Karkat made the universe
you say red and blue, we say psionics
you say fashion, we say kanaya
you have ships, we have shipping walls
you say Jesus, we say Jegus
you say books are long, we say Homestuck is HUGE
you say God, we say Gog
you say 69, we say cancer symbol
you say freaked out, we say triggered
you say adorable, we say adorabloodthirsty
you say we're freaks, we say we're HOMESTUC
you worship your gods, we worship LORD HUSSIE!
you say we die for good, we say we go godtier
you say Homestuck is boring, we say its the best thing to read besides manga
you say card symbols, we say quadrants
you say best friend, we say morial
you say lover, we say matesprit See More
you say were weird , we say your normal
you facepaint at parties, we paint for cosplay
you say bucket, we get discusted
you say its windy, we say its John doing the windy thing
you say parents, we say lusus
you say movies, we say romcons and nic cage
You say cool, we say strider
you say crab, we say crabdad
you say rainbow , we say hemospectrum
you say aliens, we say trolls
you say cat, we say pawbeast
you drink soda, we drink faygo
you say the universe was made by a big bang, we say Karkat made the universe
you say red and blue, we say psionics
you say fashion, we say kanaya
you have ships, we have shipping walls
you say Jesus, we say Jegus
you say books are long, we say Homestuck is HUGE
you say God, we say Gog
you say 69, we say cancer symbol
you say freaked out, we say triggered
you say adorable, we say adorabloodthirsty
you say we're freaks, we say we're HOMESTUC
on May 05, 2023
invented this game its called weed chess
on May 04, 2023
on May 04, 2023
im the worst kind of music student bc i have to make every assignment so much more complicated than it needs to be. simple drum groove? what’s that? hell yeah subdivisions!! triplets!! polyrhythms!!! i’m supposed to use diatonic chords and not modulate? boring!!! i will change the key 3 times to be silly. also i have lyrics and the melody alternates between the lead sheet and bass and treble in the piano part fuckk you xd
i also have perfect pitch and i am an ass about it (technically i just associate every note with songs in my mind and that’s cheating but hey it counts probably)
on May 01, 2023
on May 01, 2023
the brew moment today: possibly going to urgent care bc i woke up in excruciating pain multiple times overnight #ate
did not go to urgent care bc it got kinda better im currently skipping class tho (unrelated reasons, im waiting to get my concert clothes from the dry cleaners and i have a concert immediately after that class)
on May 01, 2023
on May 01, 2023
on May 01, 2023
rating beach finds today??
-beach glass: 10/10 what i went for
-plain glass: 8/10 let it cook
dead chicken: what/10 i know damn well that chicken didn’t just walk onto the beach and die
-crab claw 10/10 it was blue
-two girls making out: 10/10 be who u areee
-beach glass: 10/10 what i went for
-plain glass: 8/10 let it cook
dead chicken: what/10 i know damn well that chicken didn’t just walk onto the beach and die
-crab claw 10/10 it was blue
-two girls making out: 10/10 be who u areee
on April 29, 2023
W
Drugspassed
Perfect!
10 correct questions out of 10. The passing score mark is 5
on April 29, 2023