on November 24, 2015
So apparently Mika is doing a show in Paris called Wonderland, where he will be performing songs that he has never sang live before.
I really want him to sing Heroes, because it means so much to me and it deserves so much more recognition. He never performs it live, and the one time he does at OSM, he doesn't even put it on the No Place in Heaven repack. :/
I really want him to sing Heroes, because it means so much to me and it deserves so much more recognition. He never performs it live, and the one time he does at OSM, he doesn't even put it on the No Place in Heaven repack. :/
@jenesaispas
Yeah, I guess. But he always goes to Korea, and I wouldn't be able to see him even if he came here.
Yeah, I guess. But he always goes to Korea, and I wouldn't be able to see him even if he came here.
on November 24, 2015
on November 24, 2015
on November 24, 2015
Today SkyDoesMinecraft Girl was taken out of PE, and I didn't know where she had gone until I saw her after the lesson. She told me that she had been talking to the teachers about seeing a counsellor every week about her problems, and that she thinks it might help her. I was happy for her, but I was also kind of annoyed, because she got to see a counsellor and she's getting a lot of support from teachers. But I'm not, even though I have problems too. It took a lot to talk to the See More school nurse about what happens to me, and the school isn't even doing anything to try and help me. The school nurse said that she would talk to the pastoral mentor about how I've been feeling, but he hasn't even done anything to help or punish the other people in my year. I asked for help, and I didn't get any. To be honest, I think the teachers at my school only care if you're bad and misbehave in lessons or you're someone who all the teachers like. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl is someone who is liked by all the teachers, and I'm just someone who is good in lessons, but the teachers ignore most of the time.
I feel like a really selfish and horrible person for saying this, but it is kind of true. :/
I feel like a really selfish and horrible person for saying this, but it is kind of true. :/
on November 23, 2015
Today was okay, but I've been feeling bad all day and I don't really know why. :/
@PucciPegasister
No, sometimes I just have days where I hate myself more than usual.
No, sometimes I just have days where I hate myself more than usual.
on November 23, 2015
on November 23, 2015
Person: Do you like Mika?
Me: No. . .I just have social media accounts dedicated to him and I cry over his flawlessness in my spare time. But he's pretty cool, I guess.
Me: No. . .I just have social media accounts dedicated to him and I cry over his flawlessness in my spare time. But he's pretty cool, I guess.
on November 21, 2015
My username is a year old today, and today is also the day that I decided to start posting about my day every day. ?
on November 21, 2015
Guys, remember how I said that my cousin went to school with Dan Howell and is still close friends with him? Well, my mum saw a picture of Phil Lester on a magazine today, and she told me that it's actually Phil who my cousin knows, not Dan.
I'm actually going to tweet Phil and ask him if he knows my cousin. ?
I'm actually going to tweet Phil and ask him if he knows my cousin. ?
on November 21, 2015
The line in Mika's version of Beautiful Disaster that says, "All of these people are talking to themselves, they think they're talking to someone, but they're talking to themselves." is probably the worst thing he has ever written. ?
on November 20, 2015
Everyone in the Mika fandom group chat was yelling at me and saying that I was wrong when I told them that they were all becoming bullies. I also said that the other people only cared about the more popular members of the fandom, and whenever I tried to mention personal things, everyone ignores me. So I left the group chat.
They're probably all talking about me and making fun of me right now. They said that they wouldn't do that, but some people in the group chat don't like me See More and they could be getting everyone to hate me. :/
They're probably all talking about me and making fun of me right now. They said that they wouldn't do that, but some people in the group chat don't like me See More and they could be getting everyone to hate me. :/
@Galactic_Noodles
Yeah. I might still talk to the few people that are nice to me and just weren't online then, but I don't like the others.
Yeah. I might still talk to the few people that are nice to me and just weren't online then, but I don't like the others.
on November 19, 2015
on November 19, 2015
Today was okay, apart from one thing.
In English, near the end of the lesson, I was just packing my things into my bag. Then the teacher said that if you had written a letter to the French teacher telling her why you want to be a Literacy Leader during the lesson, you had to give it to her. I got really angry and upset, because the teacher didn't even mention that we were allowed to write the letter in the lesson. Then I noticed that there was a note on the board saying that See More you could write the letter if you wanted to become a Literacy Leader, but I hadn't seen it in the lesson because I sit facing away from the board and I was concentrating on doing my work. I felt really stupid, because I hadn't noticed it and there probably wouldn't be room left for more people to become Literacy Leaders. Then I started thinking about how I wouldn't get the job anyway because of how untalented I am, and I almost had a panic attack. Then the bell went, and I managed to go outside before I started panicking.
While I was in the car on my way home, TheDoctorsQueen was telling my mum about how she had written a letter to apply for becoming a Literacy Leader, and she kept talking about how much she wanted the job, which just made me feel even worse. When we had dropped her off at her house, my mum told me that I should still write a letter. She said that I was better than TheDoctorsQueen, and I was the one who was good at English, not her. She said that she wished she would just stop doing things at the same time as me and stealing things that I deserved from me. I agreed, and I felt a bit better. But I still felt horrible.
In English, near the end of the lesson, I was just packing my things into my bag. Then the teacher said that if you had written a letter to the French teacher telling her why you want to be a Literacy Leader during the lesson, you had to give it to her. I got really angry and upset, because the teacher didn't even mention that we were allowed to write the letter in the lesson. Then I noticed that there was a note on the board saying that See More you could write the letter if you wanted to become a Literacy Leader, but I hadn't seen it in the lesson because I sit facing away from the board and I was concentrating on doing my work. I felt really stupid, because I hadn't noticed it and there probably wouldn't be room left for more people to become Literacy Leaders. Then I started thinking about how I wouldn't get the job anyway because of how untalented I am, and I almost had a panic attack. Then the bell went, and I managed to go outside before I started panicking.
While I was in the car on my way home, TheDoctorsQueen was telling my mum about how she had written a letter to apply for becoming a Literacy Leader, and she kept talking about how much she wanted the job, which just made me feel even worse. When we had dropped her off at her house, my mum told me that I should still write a letter. She said that I was better than TheDoctorsQueen, and I was the one who was good at English, not her. She said that she wished she would just stop doing things at the same time as me and stealing things that I deserved from me. I agreed, and I felt a bit better. But I still felt horrible.
@Galactic_Noodles
She hates me, but when other people hate me she says positive things about me.
She hates me, but when other people hate me she says positive things about me.
on November 18, 2015
@Galactic_Noodles
Yep. I think she was only saying it because she hates TheDoctorsQueen, though.
Yep. I think she was only saying it because she hates TheDoctorsQueen, though.
on November 18, 2015
@jenesaispas
Yeah. Most kids at my school can't spell and write about stupid things instead of doing their work properly, but they have the levels expected of college students for some reason. And I actually try to work, and I have one of the lowest levels in the class.
Yeah. Most kids at my school can't spell and write about stupid things instead of doing their work properly, but they have the levels expected of college students for some reason. And I actually try to work, and I have one of the lowest levels in the class.
on November 18, 2015
on November 18, 2015
Today in Drama we had to mime a scene where you are given a poison drink at a dinner party, and all I could think of while I was doing it was the Popular Song music video. ?
on November 17, 2015
HAPPY 1700!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
on November 17, 2015
CONGRATS ON 1700! ^-^ *throws confetti*
on November 17, 2015
This morning at school, we had an assembly and the headteacher was talking about the terrorist attack in Paris. But she didn't even mention that it was a terrorist attack, or that people had died. She just kept talking about how everyone was supporting each other after what happened, and she said that the French people helping each other after the attack was like the school community.
I was actually disgusted by that, because you should never compare a tragic event like what See More happened in Paris to something like a school. It's really disrespectful. And the people in Paris are victims working together to try and help their city after the attack, unlike the kids at my school, who probably don't even care about helping to stop terrorism. And it's horrible that the headteacher didn't even explain what had happened or talk about all of the people that lost their lives. I bet most people at my school didn't even know or care about what happened, actually.
I was actually disgusted by that, because you should never compare a tragic event like what See More happened in Paris to something like a school. It's really disrespectful. And the people in Paris are victims working together to try and help their city after the attack, unlike the kids at my school, who probably don't even care about helping to stop terrorism. And it's horrible that the headteacher didn't even explain what had happened or talk about all of the people that lost their lives. I bet most people at my school didn't even know or care about what happened, actually.
@headfirstforhowell
Yeah. We had a minute's silence, but people were talking during it, which is horrible as well.
Yeah. We had a minute's silence, but people were talking during it, which is horrible as well.
on November 16, 2015
that is really disrespectful. like, we talked about it in english class this morning but the teacher was actually very respectful and did speak about how truly tragic it was??
on November 16, 2015
on November 16, 2015
Part 2 of today's post:
SkyDoesMinecraft Girl also told the school nurse about some of the bad things that have been happening to me, and then she told me that I should try and ignore what my parents and people at school say. She said that it was none of people's business why I don't speak, and she told me to think of it as something that made me even more unique. Then she asked me if there was a reason that I didn't speak to people, and I said that there was a reason, but I See More wasn't really comfortable with telling her. She said that was okay, and she asked me how long people have been treating me like this. I said that people have always acted this way towards me since I was about three years old, and then she said that she was going to tell the pastoral mentor about how people at school were making me feel and get him to try and deal with it. Then the school nurse said that we were very brave for going to see her, and she told us to go and eat lunch. While we were walking to the canteen, I told SkyDoesMinecraft Girl the reason why I don't speak to people. She was shocked at first, but she was okay with it and accepted me.
So today was good, but when I came out of the school nurse's office, I remembered a lot of things that I forgot to mention to her. I forgot to tell her that I'm not allowed to like Mika, I have panic attacks, I feel like I might be depressed, it upsets me a lot when people make fun of Mika, etc. I was going to tell her my username for my social media so that she could read about everything that happens to me, but I forgot about that too. And I was going to say that I self harm, but then she would probably call my mum and tell her about it, and I didn't want that to happen because my mum would hate me even more than she already does. :/
SkyDoesMinecraft Girl also told the school nurse about some of the bad things that have been happening to me, and then she told me that I should try and ignore what my parents and people at school say. She said that it was none of people's business why I don't speak, and she told me to think of it as something that made me even more unique. Then she asked me if there was a reason that I didn't speak to people, and I said that there was a reason, but I See More wasn't really comfortable with telling her. She said that was okay, and she asked me how long people have been treating me like this. I said that people have always acted this way towards me since I was about three years old, and then she said that she was going to tell the pastoral mentor about how people at school were making me feel and get him to try and deal with it. Then the school nurse said that we were very brave for going to see her, and she told us to go and eat lunch. While we were walking to the canteen, I told SkyDoesMinecraft Girl the reason why I don't speak to people. She was shocked at first, but she was okay with it and accepted me.
So today was good, but when I came out of the school nurse's office, I remembered a lot of things that I forgot to mention to her. I forgot to tell her that I'm not allowed to like Mika, I have panic attacks, I feel like I might be depressed, it upsets me a lot when people make fun of Mika, etc. I was going to tell her my username for my social media so that she could read about everything that happens to me, but I forgot about that too. And I was going to say that I self harm, but then she would probably call my mum and tell her about it, and I didn't want that to happen because my mum would hate me even more than she already does. :/
@Galactic_Noodles
Yeah, I think she's the on!y person at my school with sense. She only comes to school on Monday lunchtimes, though, so I can't really visit her a lot.
Yeah, I think she's the on!y person at my school with sense. She only comes to school on Monday lunchtimes, though, so I can't really visit her a lot.
on November 16, 2015
telling her all of that was a really good idea and wow, that was brave of you, well done!! ☺️✨
on November 16, 2015
@jenesaispas
Yeah, I guess. I might go and see her again, and tell her what I forgot to mention. And you are spelling her name right. ?
Yeah, I guess. I might go and see her again, and tell her what I forgot to mention. And you are spelling her name right. ?
on November 16, 2015
on November 16, 2015
Part 1 of today's post:
Today was actually quite a good day.
At lunch, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I went to the school nurse, because last week she had done an assembly and told us that she can help out with emotional issues. We went and sat down in her office, and the school nurse asked us for our names and birthdays. We told her, and she wrote it down on her notepad. Then she asked SkyDoesMinecraft Girl what she had come to talk to her about, and she explained that her older See More brother abuses her. She and the school nurse had a long conversation about what has been happening to her and how she was going to help her, and she said that she would call her mum and tell her about it. Then it was my turn to explain my problems to the teacher, and I said that everyone at school bullies me and makes fun of me because I don't speak. I said that I write what happens to me each day on my social media, and that I think that people at school have found my accounts. I told her that I idolise Mika and people at school make fun of him because of Lollipop, and that people ask me if I like him. But I didn't tell her about Mika, I just said that I idolise someone who released a song that people make fun of. I also said that my parents call me names sometimes, and that older kids yell at me in the corridors and say that I'm ugly.
Today was actually quite a good day.
At lunch, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I went to the school nurse, because last week she had done an assembly and told us that she can help out with emotional issues. We went and sat down in her office, and the school nurse asked us for our names and birthdays. We told her, and she wrote it down on her notepad. Then she asked SkyDoesMinecraft Girl what she had come to talk to her about, and she explained that her older See More brother abuses her. She and the school nurse had a long conversation about what has been happening to her and how she was going to help her, and she said that she would call her mum and tell her about it. Then it was my turn to explain my problems to the teacher, and I said that everyone at school bullies me and makes fun of me because I don't speak. I said that I write what happens to me each day on my social media, and that I think that people at school have found my accounts. I told her that I idolise Mika and people at school make fun of him because of Lollipop, and that people ask me if I like him. But I didn't tell her about Mika, I just said that I idolise someone who released a song that people make fun of. I also said that my parents call me names sometimes, and that older kids yell at me in the corridors and say that I'm ugly.
on November 16, 2015