Now three other people have literally complained about others liking their idols, and none of them have got any hate for it. And they all complained about it in really rude way as well, which I didn't really do, but I still get a lot more hate. And as I said before, it's because they're very popular users and people ignore the controversial things they do just because they like them. :/
on June 04, 2016
I wish that I could just post what I want about the things that happen to me without people yelling at me for it, to be honest. Most of the people on here don't even know me, and they shouldn't comment on things that they don't understand, especially if they've never talked to me before. I just wish people would leave me alone.
Also, something that is kind of annoying is that another user on here has just said almost the same thing as me, and has said that they don't want anyone See More else to like their idol, because other people 'don't understand how she feels about him'. But they don't get any hate at all for it, and when I say it, everyone acts as if I've done something terrible. The only reason the other person isn't getting any hate is because they're a lot more popular, which just creates double standards. :/
Also, something that is kind of annoying is that another user on here has just said almost the same thing as me, and has said that they don't want anyone See More else to like their idol, because other people 'don't understand how she feels about him'. But they don't get any hate at all for it, and when I say it, everyone acts as if I've done something terrible. The only reason the other person isn't getting any hate is because they're a lot more popular, which just creates double standards. :/
on June 03, 2016
(I'm sorry I'm rambunctious. I feel guilty about everything I've done for some reason so I'm trying to be as social as possible because that helps for me) I know your pain. At school I can't even walk down the halls without being glared at.
on June 03, 2016
on June 03, 2016
Guys, I'm scared.
I just had a really bad panic attack, because of something someone posted about Mika that really upset me. I was hyperventilating and shaking really badly, and I stopped being able to think because I was panicking that much. I couldn't stop crying, I couldn't feel my hands or feet, and my chest actually hurt. I really didn't expect it, because every time that I've had one before, it has been at school, and it's never happened at home before. I managed to calm See More myself down, but I'm still shaking.
I feel like such a pathetic and selfish person for getting this upset about someone saying something about Mika that anyone else would think was a good thing, and I wish I could just be happy with sharing him and his music with other people. But it just hurts a lot for me.
I just had a really bad panic attack, because of something someone posted about Mika that really upset me. I was hyperventilating and shaking really badly, and I stopped being able to think because I was panicking that much. I couldn't stop crying, I couldn't feel my hands or feet, and my chest actually hurt. I really didn't expect it, because every time that I've had one before, it has been at school, and it's never happened at home before. I managed to calm See More myself down, but I'm still shaking.
I feel like such a pathetic and selfish person for getting this upset about someone saying something about Mika that anyone else would think was a good thing, and I wish I could just be happy with sharing him and his music with other people. But it just hurts a lot for me.
*hugs* The simple mentioning of a test or the name "Emma" sends me in tears (Emma was the name of a bully- Wait, no, abuser is a more accurate term) and that doesn't make you pathetic. Just a trigger.
on June 03, 2016
on June 03, 2016
Sometimes I feel like nobody actually takes any notice of my posts telling people not to post about Mika, because people still carry on being fake fans of him. I have reasons for not wanting people to post about him, but people still continue to do it, and it just really hurts. :/
... Half of me feels bad, possibly qualifying as a "fake fan" but the other half says this may be directed at me. If so, I'm sorry *hugs* And if not, then sorry i wasted your time reading this.
on June 03, 2016
on June 03, 2016
I blame you for making me addicted to Mika. His voice- *screams*
I can't even..
XD
Also, your name is Victoria? =o
I can't even..
XD
Also, your name is Victoria? =o
@MikasPrincess
1) Is it bad I get jealous of one of my idols? Because that's my additude about him currently XD
2) I'm also named Victoria! ^_^
1) Is it bad I get jealous of one of my idols? Because that's my additude about him currently XD
2) I'm also named Victoria! ^_^
on June 03, 2016
on June 02, 2016
Today is Mika's boyfriend's birthday, so happy birthday to him. He's very lucky to be dating him, and I wish I could thank him for making my idol happy. ??????
on May 31, 2016
I just watched Alessia Cara's performance at BBC Radio 1's Big Weekend, because I didn't watch it yesterday, and it was really good. She performed Scars To Your Beautiful, which is my favourite song by her, and I didn't really expect her to sing it because it's not one of her well known songs, and it's probably her darkest song. But I'm glad she did, because I really love that song, and I've never heard her sing it live before. Her speech about the song was quite inspiring and See More relatable as well, and it kind of made me happy. ??
on May 31, 2016
Oh my gosh.
Today I was in the car with my parents, and they were listening to BBC Radio 2. Then I heard a voice come on the radio that I would recognise anywhere, and it was Mika. I really didn't expect him to be on the radio, because he hadn't even tweeted about it, and he usually does before he does a show on the radio. He had tweeted a few weeks ago saying that he was recording something for BBC Radio 2, but he hadn't said when it was or what he was going to do. I actually See More nearly cried then, because I didn't want my parents to say anything about him, and I felt like a fake fan because I didn't think to check the Radio 2 website for information about Mika's show. But I was kind of happy that he was doing something in the UK again. Then he played a song, and after that, the radio presenter said that it was the end of Mika's interview, which was kind of disappointing, because I'd only just realised that he was on the radio and started listening to it. But I was also kind of relieved, because I wouldn't have to listen to it with my parents anymore.
I don't know whether this made me feel happy or sad, to be honest. I'm glad that Mika was on the radio, but I kind of feel like a fake fan. :/
Today I was in the car with my parents, and they were listening to BBC Radio 2. Then I heard a voice come on the radio that I would recognise anywhere, and it was Mika. I really didn't expect him to be on the radio, because he hadn't even tweeted about it, and he usually does before he does a show on the radio. He had tweeted a few weeks ago saying that he was recording something for BBC Radio 2, but he hadn't said when it was or what he was going to do. I actually See More nearly cried then, because I didn't want my parents to say anything about him, and I felt like a fake fan because I didn't think to check the Radio 2 website for information about Mika's show. But I was kind of happy that he was doing something in the UK again. Then he played a song, and after that, the radio presenter said that it was the end of Mika's interview, which was kind of disappointing, because I'd only just realised that he was on the radio and started listening to it. But I was also kind of relieved, because I wouldn't have to listen to it with my parents anymore.
I don't know whether this made me feel happy or sad, to be honest. I'm glad that Mika was on the radio, but I kind of feel like a fake fan. :/
@jenesaispas
I guess so. And thanks. And yeah, I'm on holiday this week, but even if I wasn't, I wouldn't post about school anyway, because it's a bank holiday. ☺
I guess so. And thanks. And yeah, I'm on holiday this week, but even if I wasn't, I wouldn't post about school anyway, because it's a bank holiday. ☺
on May 31, 2016
@jenesaispas
I just looked on Twitter, and all of the other British fans somehow knew about it. :/
I just looked on Twitter, and all of the other British fans somehow knew about it. :/
on May 30, 2016
@jenesaispas
Really? Wow, haha. And I only knew about the tweet where Mika said he was recording something for BBC Radio 2, I haven't seen anything else.
Really? Wow, haha. And I only knew about the tweet where Mika said he was recording something for BBC Radio 2, I haven't seen anything else.
on May 30, 2016
on May 30, 2016
Today I was in a shop, and Grace Kelly literally came on the radio when I walked in. ?
When it came on, I actually didn't know if it was Grace Kelly, because it's hardly ever played over here anymore. When I realised that I was right, and I heard Mika's voice, I was trying really hard not to fangirl, because I was kind of happy and excited that it was being played on the radio in England again, and the last time I heard it played anywhere was about ten years ago. I actually nearly See More cried, because I was thinking about how it was his first hit in the UK, and how far he's come since then. Also, my dad was there, and he didn't say anything about Mika, which was good. ?
It just made me really happy, to be honest. ?
When it came on, I actually didn't know if it was Grace Kelly, because it's hardly ever played over here anymore. When I realised that I was right, and I heard Mika's voice, I was trying really hard not to fangirl, because I was kind of happy and excited that it was being played on the radio in England again, and the last time I heard it played anywhere was about ten years ago. I actually nearly See More cried, because I was thinking about how it was his first hit in the UK, and how far he's come since then. Also, my dad was there, and he didn't say anything about Mika, which was good. ?
It just made me really happy, to be honest. ?
on May 28, 2016
... I just realized my parents are kinda scared I'm mentally unstable and my brother has my brother has speach issues.
on May 28, 2016
on May 28, 2016
Part 2 of today's post:
In English, we were watching this movie that the other people in the class had chosen to watch, but it was really inappropriate, so the teacher said that we were going to watch The Big Bang Theory instead. I didn't want to watch it, because I knew that there was a character with Asperger's and a character that doesn't talk in it, so I knew that people would make fun of people that go through things like that. Then when we were watching it, someone asked See More the teacher if one of the characters had Asperger's. She said that he did, and everyone started making fun of it and asking questions about it. I just sat there while everyone talked about it, and I actually felt like a test subject or something. Then TheDoctorsQueen made a joke about it, even though she knows that I have it, and she started talking about what people with Asperger's could and couldn't call themselves, even though that's not really for her to have an opinion on, as she doesn't have it. Everyone still kept making fun of it, and I ended up crying. I very nearly had a panic attack, but I managed to calm down. It was just horrible.
So, yeah. :/
In English, we were watching this movie that the other people in the class had chosen to watch, but it was really inappropriate, so the teacher said that we were going to watch The Big Bang Theory instead. I didn't want to watch it, because I knew that there was a character with Asperger's and a character that doesn't talk in it, so I knew that people would make fun of people that go through things like that. Then when we were watching it, someone asked See More the teacher if one of the characters had Asperger's. She said that he did, and everyone started making fun of it and asking questions about it. I just sat there while everyone talked about it, and I actually felt like a test subject or something. Then TheDoctorsQueen made a joke about it, even though she knows that I have it, and she started talking about what people with Asperger's could and couldn't call themselves, even though that's not really for her to have an opinion on, as she doesn't have it. Everyone still kept making fun of it, and I ended up crying. I very nearly had a panic attack, but I managed to calm down. It was just horrible.
So, yeah. :/
@MobileDorkestra
Yeah. It bothers me how people always make fun of serious things just because they don't understand. :/
Yeah. It bothers me how people always make fun of serious things just because they don't understand. :/
on May 27, 2016
on May 27, 2016
Part 1 of today's post:
Today was okay, apart from a few things.
In ICT, I was doing my work, and Diamond Girl asked me if I was still a fan of Mika. I was really scared, because I was worried that she was going to say horrible things about him and make fun of him. I said yes, and for some reason she asked me if I had a Mika pillow. I said that I didn't, and she said, "Really?" and laughed at me. I said yes again, because I obviously didn't have any Mika merchandise when I wasn't See More allowed to be a fan of him, apart from the three albums I own, and they were very hard to get. Then she asked me what my favourite song by him was, and she said that it was probably Popular Song or Lollipop. Then I instantly thought of Heroes, but I didn't want to share the song that saved my life with her, so I said Celebrate, because it's one of my other favourite songs by him. That song still meant a lot to me, but not as much as Heroes did. Then Diamond Girl asked if Mika was gay, and I said yes. She asked me if I was upset when I found out, and I said no, because it's not like it affects me in any way. She said that she would cry if she was me, and she said, "You need to get a new favourite singer, because you can't exactly be a fan of someone who is gay when they wouldn't date you." That made me really annoyed, because you can be a fan of someone without wanting them to love you, and even if you do love them, they're a celebrity, so they won't date you anyway. That's like saying that you can't be a fan of straight celebrities either, because they're not exactly going to date you either when you're just one person in millions of fans. And you don't have to be in love with someone to be a fan of them, you just have to like their music and them as a person. I just felt really bad, and I hated that Diamond Girl literally only liked celebrities for their looks and popularity.
In History, when I sat down in my seat, Football Boy sat down next to me and kept making fun of me. He kept trying to make me smile and making fun of me, and I tried to ignore him, but I almost started crying. After a while, he left me alone, and I was relieved. But when it was almost the end of the lesson, he started making fun of me again, and he told this girl to watch while he tried to make me smile. Then the girl asked me to smile, and I didn't, because I was scared and my smile is kind of ugly. The girl said, "Okay, don't then." and I felt really bad.
Today was okay, apart from a few things.
In ICT, I was doing my work, and Diamond Girl asked me if I was still a fan of Mika. I was really scared, because I was worried that she was going to say horrible things about him and make fun of him. I said yes, and for some reason she asked me if I had a Mika pillow. I said that I didn't, and she said, "Really?" and laughed at me. I said yes again, because I obviously didn't have any Mika merchandise when I wasn't See More allowed to be a fan of him, apart from the three albums I own, and they were very hard to get. Then she asked me what my favourite song by him was, and she said that it was probably Popular Song or Lollipop. Then I instantly thought of Heroes, but I didn't want to share the song that saved my life with her, so I said Celebrate, because it's one of my other favourite songs by him. That song still meant a lot to me, but not as much as Heroes did. Then Diamond Girl asked if Mika was gay, and I said yes. She asked me if I was upset when I found out, and I said no, because it's not like it affects me in any way. She said that she would cry if she was me, and she said, "You need to get a new favourite singer, because you can't exactly be a fan of someone who is gay when they wouldn't date you." That made me really annoyed, because you can be a fan of someone without wanting them to love you, and even if you do love them, they're a celebrity, so they won't date you anyway. That's like saying that you can't be a fan of straight celebrities either, because they're not exactly going to date you either when you're just one person in millions of fans. And you don't have to be in love with someone to be a fan of them, you just have to like their music and them as a person. I just felt really bad, and I hated that Diamond Girl literally only liked celebrities for their looks and popularity.
In History, when I sat down in my seat, Football Boy sat down next to me and kept making fun of me. He kept trying to make me smile and making fun of me, and I tried to ignore him, but I almost started crying. After a while, he left me alone, and I was relieved. But when it was almost the end of the lesson, he started making fun of me again, and he told this girl to watch while he tried to make me smile. Then the girl asked me to smile, and I didn't, because I was scared and my smile is kind of ugly. The girl said, "Okay, don't then." and I felt really bad.
on May 27, 2016
I have History again today, and I'm scared because Football Boy is probably going to make fun of me again. :/
on May 27, 2016
Today was okay, apart from a few things.
At break, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I were sat down talking, and TheDoctorsQueen came over to us and sat with us. She started talking about how she was going to the zoo on a trip for Literacy Leaders, and she kept bragging about it. It reminded me of how I wasn't a Literacy Leader, and I almost started crying because I felt really bad. Then Football Boy came over to me and started making fun of me, which made me feel even worse. After See More he had gone, I said that I hated when he made fun of me, and TheDoctorsQueen said, "Well, maybe if you answered him, he would leave you alone." I nearly cried again then, because it wasn't a choice for me not to talk to him, and I was upset that she was being ignorant of what I go through.
In History, I was doing my work, and Football Boy kept trying to make me talk to him. He kept making fun of me, and I actually started crying because of that and what happened at break. I almost had a panic attack, but I managed to calm myself down. When I was crying, he thought that I was smiling for some reason, and he kept talking about how 'proud' he was that he had 'made me smile'. That was just horrible, because you shouldn't be proud of putting someone in a situation where they are obviously upset. He kept making fun of me for the whole lesson, and I just felt awful.
In French, I was doing my work, and Chicken Nugget Boy accidentally stabbed himself with a pen. Twerking Bat Boy said, "That's self harm!" and everyone started laughing. Then he kept joking about mental illnesses and saying that people had them when they didn't, and it was really triggering. I just felt really bad.
In Maths, after I had finished doing my test, I was moving seats to sit next to SkyDoesMinecraft Girl, and when she moved her coat off the seat next to her so I could sit down, Echosmith Hater Girl sat down there. She wouldn't move when SkyDoesMinecraft Girl told her to and said that she wanted me to sit there, so I just stood there waiting for her to move. Then this boy (Let's call him Twenty One Pilots Boy, because he's obsessed with them) sarcastically told her that she was being mean, so she moved. Then she asked me if I liked her, and I said that I didn't. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl said that she didn't like her either, and then Echosmith Hater Girl started joking about killing herself because nobody liked her, and she was making fun of suicide, which was just horrible.
So, yeah. :/
At break, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I were sat down talking, and TheDoctorsQueen came over to us and sat with us. She started talking about how she was going to the zoo on a trip for Literacy Leaders, and she kept bragging about it. It reminded me of how I wasn't a Literacy Leader, and I almost started crying because I felt really bad. Then Football Boy came over to me and started making fun of me, which made me feel even worse. After See More he had gone, I said that I hated when he made fun of me, and TheDoctorsQueen said, "Well, maybe if you answered him, he would leave you alone." I nearly cried again then, because it wasn't a choice for me not to talk to him, and I was upset that she was being ignorant of what I go through.
In History, I was doing my work, and Football Boy kept trying to make me talk to him. He kept making fun of me, and I actually started crying because of that and what happened at break. I almost had a panic attack, but I managed to calm myself down. When I was crying, he thought that I was smiling for some reason, and he kept talking about how 'proud' he was that he had 'made me smile'. That was just horrible, because you shouldn't be proud of putting someone in a situation where they are obviously upset. He kept making fun of me for the whole lesson, and I just felt awful.
In French, I was doing my work, and Chicken Nugget Boy accidentally stabbed himself with a pen. Twerking Bat Boy said, "That's self harm!" and everyone started laughing. Then he kept joking about mental illnesses and saying that people had them when they didn't, and it was really triggering. I just felt really bad.
In Maths, after I had finished doing my test, I was moving seats to sit next to SkyDoesMinecraft Girl, and when she moved her coat off the seat next to her so I could sit down, Echosmith Hater Girl sat down there. She wouldn't move when SkyDoesMinecraft Girl told her to and said that she wanted me to sit there, so I just stood there waiting for her to move. Then this boy (Let's call him Twenty One Pilots Boy, because he's obsessed with them) sarcastically told her that she was being mean, so she moved. Then she asked me if I liked her, and I said that I didn't. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl said that she didn't like her either, and then Echosmith Hater Girl started joking about killing herself because nobody liked her, and she was making fun of suicide, which was just horrible.
So, yeah. :/
on May 26, 2016
Today was okay, apart from a few things.
When I was walking to my Maths classroom, this girl suddenly pointed at me and yelled, "It's her!" Then she walked away with her friends, and I just felt really horrible and embarrassed. I think it was the same girl that sarcastically called me her best friend yesterday, but I wasn't sure, because I didn't really see the person who shouted.
In PSHE, we had to work in pairs, and I was told to work with Echosmith Hater Girl because she See More was sat next to me. When the teacher said that we had to work together, she said that we couldn't work together because I hated her and that's why I didn't talk to her. Then the teacher said, "Well, that's funny, because this doesn't involve any talking." and walked away. That made me feel bad, because that wasn't even the reason why I didn't speak to her, and it wasn't just her that I didn't talk to. Then when I was doing another piece of work, I heard HeyHoHereWeGo making fun of anxiety, and that just made me feel even worse.
In English, I almost had a panic attack because of everyone else in the class. It was really loud, and everyone was screaming and shouting instead of doing their work. Everyone was just messing around, and the way they were acting was just making me feel really stressed out. I had a headache and I felt dizzy, and then I started to feel as if I couldn't breathe properly. I managed to stop myself from panicking, but I still felt horrible.
So, yeah. :/
When I was walking to my Maths classroom, this girl suddenly pointed at me and yelled, "It's her!" Then she walked away with her friends, and I just felt really horrible and embarrassed. I think it was the same girl that sarcastically called me her best friend yesterday, but I wasn't sure, because I didn't really see the person who shouted.
In PSHE, we had to work in pairs, and I was told to work with Echosmith Hater Girl because she See More was sat next to me. When the teacher said that we had to work together, she said that we couldn't work together because I hated her and that's why I didn't talk to her. Then the teacher said, "Well, that's funny, because this doesn't involve any talking." and walked away. That made me feel bad, because that wasn't even the reason why I didn't speak to her, and it wasn't just her that I didn't talk to. Then when I was doing another piece of work, I heard HeyHoHereWeGo making fun of anxiety, and that just made me feel even worse.
In English, I almost had a panic attack because of everyone else in the class. It was really loud, and everyone was screaming and shouting instead of doing their work. Everyone was just messing around, and the way they were acting was just making me feel really stressed out. I had a headache and I felt dizzy, and then I started to feel as if I couldn't breathe properly. I managed to stop myself from panicking, but I still felt horrible.
So, yeah. :/
on May 25, 2016
2 likes and I will tell:
HAVE I EVER:
Kissed someone: No. Only in my fanfic, haha.
Been Drunk: No.
Cried Myself to Sleep: Most nights I do.
Self harm: Yeah. . .
Felt lonely: A lot of the time. See More
Been depressed: Probably. I think I'm depressed, but I don't know because I can't get diagnosed with anything.
Smoked: No, smoking is disgusting.
WHAT'S YOUR?
Age: 14.
Birthday: 5th September 2001.
Biggest fear: I'm scared of a lot of things. But my biggest fear is probably my parents finding out everything about me, not having a good career in the future and people from school having better futures than me, or losing someone that I love.
Dream Job: An author or a journalist.
Dream Car: I don't really have a dream car, to be honest.
Dream place: I want to live in London in the future, because it's probably the only part of England that is actually okay.
DO YOU?
Like someone: No.
Love someone: Mika, haha.
Want a boyfriend/girlfriend: No. There's not anyone that I like in that way, really. I don't want to date anyone until I'm older, because I think people should sort out their own lives first before getting involved in relationships.
Have a tattoo: No. But in the future, I want to get a tattoo on my arm that says, "I wish there was a way to give you a hand to hold, because you don't have to die in your glory, due to never grow old." because that's the Mika lyric that saved my life. I don't know, though, because I might be too scared to actually get it, as I'm scared of needles.
Have a piercing: No. I kind of want to get my ears pierced, but I'm scared to.
Party: No. I'm kind of scared of going to parties, because they're too loud and there's a lot of people.
FAVOURITE?
Artist: Mika.
Movie: Radio Rebel or Monte Carlo.
Song: Heroes by Mika, because it's the song that saved my life.
TV Show: I don't really watch a lot of TV, so I don't know.
Animal: Red panda.
Book: I have three favourite books. Girl Online by Zoella, This Song Will Save Your Life by Leila Sales and The Manifesto on How to Be Interesting by Holly Bourne.
HAVE I EVER:
Kissed someone: No. Only in my fanfic, haha.
Been Drunk: No.
Cried Myself to Sleep: Most nights I do.
Self harm: Yeah. . .
Felt lonely: A lot of the time. See More
Been depressed: Probably. I think I'm depressed, but I don't know because I can't get diagnosed with anything.
Smoked: No, smoking is disgusting.
WHAT'S YOUR?
Age: 14.
Birthday: 5th September 2001.
Biggest fear: I'm scared of a lot of things. But my biggest fear is probably my parents finding out everything about me, not having a good career in the future and people from school having better futures than me, or losing someone that I love.
Dream Job: An author or a journalist.
Dream Car: I don't really have a dream car, to be honest.
Dream place: I want to live in London in the future, because it's probably the only part of England that is actually okay.
DO YOU?
Like someone: No.
Love someone: Mika, haha.
Want a boyfriend/girlfriend: No. There's not anyone that I like in that way, really. I don't want to date anyone until I'm older, because I think people should sort out their own lives first before getting involved in relationships.
Have a tattoo: No. But in the future, I want to get a tattoo on my arm that says, "I wish there was a way to give you a hand to hold, because you don't have to die in your glory, due to never grow old." because that's the Mika lyric that saved my life. I don't know, though, because I might be too scared to actually get it, as I'm scared of needles.
Have a piercing: No. I kind of want to get my ears pierced, but I'm scared to.
Party: No. I'm kind of scared of going to parties, because they're too loud and there's a lot of people.
FAVOURITE?
Artist: Mika.
Movie: Radio Rebel or Monte Carlo.
Song: Heroes by Mika, because it's the song that saved my life.
TV Show: I don't really watch a lot of TV, so I don't know.
Animal: Red panda.
Book: I have three favourite books. Girl Online by Zoella, This Song Will Save Your Life by Leila Sales and The Manifesto on How to Be Interesting by Holly Bourne.
on May 24, 2016
Today in French, I had to find out about Paris using the computer. When I searched it, there was a list of upcoming events in Paris, and it literally said 'MIKA concert on 27th May'. ?
I really wanted to fangirl, but I couldn't because I was at school. I was actually shaking a bit, because I didn't expect it to come up on the computer, and people could have seen it. I don't think they did, though, which is good. ?
I really wanted to fangirl, but I couldn't because I was at school. I was actually shaking a bit, because I didn't expect it to come up on the computer, and people could have seen it. I don't think they did, though, which is good. ?
on May 24, 2016
Today was okay, apart from one thing.
In French, we were in the ICT block, and I was walking there to find the other people in my class. I was literally made fun of three times, when I was just walking around school. Firstly, these younger kids saw me and made fun of me. Then one of them said, "Hey, that's the girl that Lindsey said was her sister!" Then the others agreed, and one said, "You can tell she's her sister." I was confused, because I didn't know anyone that was called See More Lindsey, and I don't even have any sisters. That meant that someone had been making fun of me, and that made me feel bad. Then when I was walking into the main building to get to the ICT block, the girl that was asking me questions a few weeks ago when I was in the corridors walked past me with her friends. She sarcastically said, "Oh, look, it's my best friend!" and her friends laughed and walked away with her. After that, when I was about to go into the ICT block, this boy that always makes fun of me (Let's call him Football Boy) walked past with his friend. He shouted, "Yes, Victoria!" and then he made fun of me, but I walked into the building away from him.
So, yeah. :/
In French, we were in the ICT block, and I was walking there to find the other people in my class. I was literally made fun of three times, when I was just walking around school. Firstly, these younger kids saw me and made fun of me. Then one of them said, "Hey, that's the girl that Lindsey said was her sister!" Then the others agreed, and one said, "You can tell she's her sister." I was confused, because I didn't know anyone that was called See More Lindsey, and I don't even have any sisters. That meant that someone had been making fun of me, and that made me feel bad. Then when I was walking into the main building to get to the ICT block, the girl that was asking me questions a few weeks ago when I was in the corridors walked past me with her friends. She sarcastically said, "Oh, look, it's my best friend!" and her friends laughed and walked away with her. After that, when I was about to go into the ICT block, this boy that always makes fun of me (Let's call him Football Boy) walked past with his friend. He shouted, "Yes, Victoria!" and then he made fun of me, but I walked into the building away from him.
So, yeah. :/
on May 24, 2016
A rant:
Today at school, in RE, the pastoral mentor came into the classroom, and she told everyone that there would be an assembly in the next lesson. Everyone was trying to guess what it would be about, and everyone was scared because they thought it was going to be about something really bad. I was kind of nervous as well, because everyone kept talking about it and saying that they were worried, and it was making me feel like that too.
But when we went to the assembly, it See More turned out that it was one of those assemblies where the pastoral mentor tells everyone that the school inspectors were going to be coming to school, and they tell everyone to pretend that the school is a good place so that the inspectors don't see what it's really like. It made me really angry, because the teachers always say this before the inspectors come in. When they come to the school and watch the lessons, the teachers actually teach us and everyone behaves properly, but the second they leave the room, everyone starts shouting and swearing and going on their phones, while the teacher sits there on their phone, not teaching us anything. It just bothers me so much, and if I could talk to the inspectors, I would tell them what the school is really like.
In the assembly today, the pastoral mentor literally said, "Your teachers might act a bit differently when the inspectors are in school, but that's only because they want them to see the best side of them." Which was just disgusting, because that just proves that they fake everything when they come into school, and they know exactly what they are doing. If they didn't pretend that the school was a good place every time the inspectors came, it would probably have been closed down by now. It was supposed to be closed down a long time ago, but it never was, because the teachers somehow managed to convince them that the school was 'improving', even when it really wasn't, and that got them out of the 'special measures' category. They should still be in it, to be honest, because it hasn't changed at all.
Something else that she said was, "You probably feel sad when you read bad reports about this school sometimes in newspapers, because it's not true." Whenever I find bad reports about my school in newspapers, I agree with everything that the article says about it, because it's all the truth and the people writing the review usually have the exact same opinions as me. One time, my grandma told me about something that she'd seen about an older boy from my school talking about how he was scared for his future because of the way that the school is, and I agreed with everything that my grandma told me he had said. There needs to be more people like that who actually show people what the school is really like, because it's just awful. Whenever the school interviews people, they only interview the people that they know are going to say positive things about it, so nobody really knows the truth.
It's all just fake, and I wish people knew that.
Today at school, in RE, the pastoral mentor came into the classroom, and she told everyone that there would be an assembly in the next lesson. Everyone was trying to guess what it would be about, and everyone was scared because they thought it was going to be about something really bad. I was kind of nervous as well, because everyone kept talking about it and saying that they were worried, and it was making me feel like that too.
But when we went to the assembly, it See More turned out that it was one of those assemblies where the pastoral mentor tells everyone that the school inspectors were going to be coming to school, and they tell everyone to pretend that the school is a good place so that the inspectors don't see what it's really like. It made me really angry, because the teachers always say this before the inspectors come in. When they come to the school and watch the lessons, the teachers actually teach us and everyone behaves properly, but the second they leave the room, everyone starts shouting and swearing and going on their phones, while the teacher sits there on their phone, not teaching us anything. It just bothers me so much, and if I could talk to the inspectors, I would tell them what the school is really like.
In the assembly today, the pastoral mentor literally said, "Your teachers might act a bit differently when the inspectors are in school, but that's only because they want them to see the best side of them." Which was just disgusting, because that just proves that they fake everything when they come into school, and they know exactly what they are doing. If they didn't pretend that the school was a good place every time the inspectors came, it would probably have been closed down by now. It was supposed to be closed down a long time ago, but it never was, because the teachers somehow managed to convince them that the school was 'improving', even when it really wasn't, and that got them out of the 'special measures' category. They should still be in it, to be honest, because it hasn't changed at all.
Something else that she said was, "You probably feel sad when you read bad reports about this school sometimes in newspapers, because it's not true." Whenever I find bad reports about my school in newspapers, I agree with everything that the article says about it, because it's all the truth and the people writing the review usually have the exact same opinions as me. One time, my grandma told me about something that she'd seen about an older boy from my school talking about how he was scared for his future because of the way that the school is, and I agreed with everything that my grandma told me he had said. There needs to be more people like that who actually show people what the school is really like, because it's just awful. Whenever the school interviews people, they only interview the people that they know are going to say positive things about it, so nobody really knows the truth.
It's all just fake, and I wish people knew that.
@jenesaispas
Same here. But at my school, everyone else agrees with the teachers, and they only behave properly when the inspectors are in school. If I could, I would probably be the only person telling the inspectors what the school is really like. :/
Same here. But at my school, everyone else agrees with the teachers, and they only behave properly when the inspectors are in school. If I could, I would probably be the only person telling the inspectors what the school is really like. :/
on May 24, 2016
on May 23, 2016
Today was actually a good day.
Everything that I was scared about turned out okay. In Food Tech, it turned out that today was the day that we were going to make cakes, but I had brought some money with me in case it was today, so I could pay for it and it turned out okay. And in RE, the teacher didn't notice that my book was full, so I got the lined paper out of my bag and used that, and she didn't notice that either. I'm really relieved that everything turned out okay.
And See More something else really good happened this morning in form. HeyHoHereWeGo's mum had bought a box of albums, and there was a copy of Life in Cartoon Motion in it, so he gave it to TheDoctorsQueen to give to me. She gave it to me in form this morning, and it's a different version of the album to the one I already have, because the cover is a different colour and it doesn't have the bonus tracks on it. And the copy of it that I have doesn't work properly, so I'm happy that I have another one. I'm really surprised that HeyHoHereWeGo actually did something this nice for me, because usually whenever he talks to me he just insults me. But I'm really happy that I have another Mika album, because of how hard it is for me to get them.
Everything that I was scared about turned out okay. In Food Tech, it turned out that today was the day that we were going to make cakes, but I had brought some money with me in case it was today, so I could pay for it and it turned out okay. And in RE, the teacher didn't notice that my book was full, so I got the lined paper out of my bag and used that, and she didn't notice that either. I'm really relieved that everything turned out okay.
And See More something else really good happened this morning in form. HeyHoHereWeGo's mum had bought a box of albums, and there was a copy of Life in Cartoon Motion in it, so he gave it to TheDoctorsQueen to give to me. She gave it to me in form this morning, and it's a different version of the album to the one I already have, because the cover is a different colour and it doesn't have the bonus tracks on it. And the copy of it that I have doesn't work properly, so I'm happy that I have another one. I'm really surprised that HeyHoHereWeGo actually did something this nice for me, because usually whenever he talks to me he just insults me. But I'm really happy that I have another Mika album, because of how hard it is for me to get them.
@butterflyrainbowwarrior
Oh, right. And it only has Erase on the Japanese version, so the one I have doesn't have it.
Oh, right. And it only has Erase on the Japanese version, so the one I have doesn't have it.
on May 23, 2016
Ohh but the green one does have Over My Shoulder, it's a hidden track. I just looked it up and the pink one has indeed Ring Ring and also Erase, according to Amazon. But except there i didnt see a Dutch website selling the pink one, so i guess i couldnt have had it anyway so yeah q:
on May 23, 2016
@butterflyrainbowwarrior
Yeah, it has Ring Ring and Over My Shoulder, which aren't on the standard edition of the album. The pink version is kind of like the deluxe version, really. And thanks. ?
Yeah, it has Ring Ring and Over My Shoulder, which aren't on the standard edition of the album. The pink version is kind of like the deluxe version, really. And thanks. ?
on May 23, 2016
on May 23, 2016
I'm scared for this week, because there's a lot of things that I'm scared about.
In Food Tech, we're supposed to be making cakes, and we were told that we would be making them on 24th May. But the only day that I have Food Tech this week is tomorrow, and the 24th is Tuesday, but I don't have it then. And you have to bring 40p to school to pay for all of the ingredients, but I don't know if it's tomorrow or not. If it turns out that we are making the cakes tomorrow, and I don't See More have the money, then I could get into trouble, and I wouldn't be able to tell the teacher that I didn't have 40p.
In RE, I filled my book, and I need to get a new one, but I can't ask the teacher for one. I really hope that the teacher noticed that I need a new book while she's marking my homework, but if she doesn't, then I have lined paper in my bag. But I'm scared that she'll notice that I have lined paper in my book, and yell at me asking why I didn't ask for a new book.
In Drama on Tuesday, I have to perform a scene in front of the whole class in a group. I have to act as a person in the scene that is being shot by the other people in the group, and it's probably going to be just horrible. People will probably make fun of me for being given that role, so I'm scared to do it.
In the lesson of Food Tech where I do woodwork, I'm going to have to carry on making my box. In the last lesson, everyone was supposed to be finishing cutting the pieces for their box out, but I hadn't even started, because of Goldfish Girl ruining my work, the teacher losing my pieces and the fact that I didn't know how to use the machine that cuts the wood. I'm probably going to be in trouble for this, and I won't really know what to do in the next lesson, so I'm worried about that.
And people have been making fun of Mika more and more recently, so I'm really scared that people will do it again tomorrow. It would be just awful if it became a sort of trend at school to say horrible things about him, like it did before, because I just wouldn't be able to cope with that. It just hurts so much when people hate on him, even more than when people make fun of me, and I wish they wouldn't do it.
I'm really scared. :/
In Food Tech, we're supposed to be making cakes, and we were told that we would be making them on 24th May. But the only day that I have Food Tech this week is tomorrow, and the 24th is Tuesday, but I don't have it then. And you have to bring 40p to school to pay for all of the ingredients, but I don't know if it's tomorrow or not. If it turns out that we are making the cakes tomorrow, and I don't See More have the money, then I could get into trouble, and I wouldn't be able to tell the teacher that I didn't have 40p.
In RE, I filled my book, and I need to get a new one, but I can't ask the teacher for one. I really hope that the teacher noticed that I need a new book while she's marking my homework, but if she doesn't, then I have lined paper in my bag. But I'm scared that she'll notice that I have lined paper in my book, and yell at me asking why I didn't ask for a new book.
In Drama on Tuesday, I have to perform a scene in front of the whole class in a group. I have to act as a person in the scene that is being shot by the other people in the group, and it's probably going to be just horrible. People will probably make fun of me for being given that role, so I'm scared to do it.
In the lesson of Food Tech where I do woodwork, I'm going to have to carry on making my box. In the last lesson, everyone was supposed to be finishing cutting the pieces for their box out, but I hadn't even started, because of Goldfish Girl ruining my work, the teacher losing my pieces and the fact that I didn't know how to use the machine that cuts the wood. I'm probably going to be in trouble for this, and I won't really know what to do in the next lesson, so I'm worried about that.
And people have been making fun of Mika more and more recently, so I'm really scared that people will do it again tomorrow. It would be just awful if it became a sort of trend at school to say horrible things about him, like it did before, because I just wouldn't be able to cope with that. It just hurts so much when people hate on him, even more than when people make fun of me, and I wish they wouldn't do it.
I'm really scared. :/
on May 23, 2016
Okay.