Vent: Trigger Warning it gets a little dark
-
-
-
-
-
- See More
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
I'm under a lot of stress and I'm not emotionally okay right now, the only thing keeping me from doing anything stupid is literally my brother! Only thing keeping me from going insane.
I need counseling, I've needed counseling for a long ass time and I haven't gotten it. I've needed to be left alone without my mom lecturing me but every single day it's the same goddamn lecture of you needed to do this, this, this, and why didn't you listen to me. Maybe if you listened you wouldn't be in this f'ucking position. WELL IF MAYBE YOU DIDN'T HARASS ME AND CONSTANTLY MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT I WOULD HAVE LISTENED TO YOU MORE OFTEN! I'M ON THE VERGE OF A BREAK DOWN AND THE LONGER I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS BULLSHIT THE DEEPER THE HOLE GETS OF ME LITERALLY WANTING TO F'UCKING DIE! LEAVE ME ALONE!
-
-
-
-
-
- See More
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
-
I'm under a lot of stress and I'm not emotionally okay right now, the only thing keeping me from doing anything stupid is literally my brother! Only thing keeping me from going insane.
I need counseling, I've needed counseling for a long ass time and I haven't gotten it. I've needed to be left alone without my mom lecturing me but every single day it's the same goddamn lecture of you needed to do this, this, this, and why didn't you listen to me. Maybe if you listened you wouldn't be in this f'ucking position. WELL IF MAYBE YOU DIDN'T HARASS ME AND CONSTANTLY MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT I WOULD HAVE LISTENED TO YOU MORE OFTEN! I'M ON THE VERGE OF A BREAK DOWN AND THE LONGER I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS BULLSHIT THE DEEPER THE HOLE GETS OF ME LITERALLY WANTING TO F'UCKING DIE! LEAVE ME ALONE!
on September 29, 2020
You know, I'm going to give up on relationships. I'm trying, I'm just not good enough to do this shit.
on September 28, 2020
Form so we can get a feel for you:
Name- Kai or Mae
Age- 18 turning 19 in december
Pronouns- they/them
Hobbies- Art, choir, writing, reading
What is most important to you- Friendship
What is least important to you- Fake people See More
Favorite color(s)- Blue, Red, Black, Electric Green
Favorite food(s)- Meatloaf, pumpkin pie
Likes- a lot of things
Dislikes- a lot of things
Anything you want us to know about you- If you want to know anything ask.
Name- Kai or Mae
Age- 18 turning 19 in december
Pronouns- they/them
Hobbies- Art, choir, writing, reading
What is most important to you- Friendship
What is least important to you- Fake people See More
Favorite color(s)- Blue, Red, Black, Electric Green
Favorite food(s)- Meatloaf, pumpkin pie
Likes- a lot of things
Dislikes- a lot of things
Anything you want us to know about you- If you want to know anything ask.
on September 28, 2020
My friend supports blue lives ?
on September 28, 2020
You can call me either Kaiden or Mae, do not call me by my full dead name after I told you I hate it.
on September 28, 2020
on September 28, 2020
I need to keep this motivation to clean my room goddamn it
on September 28, 2020
Who wants to see my new hair color?
on September 28, 2020
on September 28, 2020
I'm like the easiest person to cheat on because I'm super forgiving and I'll stay in the relationship even though I've been hurt. I mean, I'm the worst girlfriend who wouldn't cheat?
Sure I'm shitty, but I'm already broken you just keep shattering the glass that broke many times before and making it so the pieces are too far gone to put back together.
I'm slowly trying to piece them together tho
Sure I'm shitty, but I'm already broken you just keep shattering the glass that broke many times before and making it so the pieces are too far gone to put back together.
I'm slowly trying to piece them together tho
on September 27, 2020
Want I want in a relationship
1) Them not to cheat on me
That's all I want
1) Them not to cheat on me
That's all I want
Qfeast Relationship 1: Ghosted me two days in
Qfeast Relationship 2: Lied about his age
Qfeast Relationship 3: Lasted a day but we could have gone longer, they were actually cool
Meg was already spoken about, she was godly, I still love that woman!
Qfeast Relationship 4: Cheated on me and tried lying about it See More
Qfeast Relationship 5: Cheated on me 5 times after telling me he didn't want an open relationship because the thought of me with someone else hurt him since he wanted me all to himself. Yeah dated this guy three times, ghosted me (QR1) and then cheated on me the other times.
Qfeast Relationship 2: Lied about his age
Qfeast Relationship 3: Lasted a day but we could have gone longer, they were actually cool
Meg was already spoken about, she was godly, I still love that woman!
Qfeast Relationship 4: Cheated on me and tried lying about it See More
Qfeast Relationship 5: Cheated on me 5 times after telling me he didn't want an open relationship because the thought of me with someone else hurt him since he wanted me all to himself. Yeah dated this guy three times, ghosted me (QR1) and then cheated on me the other times.
on September 27, 2020
Relationship 6: abused me, made me feel like nothing. Constantly ignored me unless she wanted something, made everyone about her. Convinced people I was abusing her when I was the actual victim. Spread sexual lies about me. Everytime I did something she didn't like she'd spread and lie about me and everytime it came back to me she'd deny it. Basically abused See More me until the moment I decided to void our entire friendship. This woman abused me for 12 years, she's the main reason I have trust issues. Lied about being transgender to try and bypass me considering I came out as genderfluid and wanted to be called "Kaiden" she got jealous because people supported me more and gave me attention. Also used me to convince people she was bisexual, that girl is straight she just wants to be apart of something so she can manipulate
Relationship 7: Cheated on me.
Those were my actual relationships
Relationship 7: Cheated on me.
Those were my actual relationships
on September 27, 2020
Relationship 1: Cheated on me and started treating me badly
Relationship 2: Beautiful absolutely beautiful, I love you Meg.
Relationship 3: Basically traumatizing, faked schizophrenia, DID and kept sending me messages about him bleeding out on his bed from getting into a fight making me freak out because I couldn't do anything. Lied to me constantly, pretty See More sure he cheated on me considering he was talking about another girl who kept asking him out, but Idk that part I don't have proof.
Relationship 4: It was okay, nothing bad.
Relationship 5: Raped me after I told him no numerous times. Continued to sexually harass me knowing that if he kept asking me I'd eventually cave in and say yes.
Relationship 2: Beautiful absolutely beautiful, I love you Meg.
Relationship 3: Basically traumatizing, faked schizophrenia, DID and kept sending me messages about him bleeding out on his bed from getting into a fight making me freak out because I couldn't do anything. Lied to me constantly, pretty See More sure he cheated on me considering he was talking about another girl who kept asking him out, but Idk that part I don't have proof.
Relationship 4: It was okay, nothing bad.
Relationship 5: Raped me after I told him no numerous times. Continued to sexually harass me knowing that if he kept asking me I'd eventually cave in and say yes.
on September 27, 2020
on September 27, 2020
Why is it everytime I'm hurting and having a mental break down and I want to talk to someone everyone is gone.
on September 27, 2020
Me: *scrolling through TikTok and sees someone mocking sexual assault victims*
Also Me: *trying to keep my shit together after watching that video*
My Brain: And this is why victims don't come forward!
Also Me: *trying to keep my shit together after watching that video*
My Brain: And this is why victims don't come forward!
@Davey_Miller I have no idea, I just know I'm deeply disgusted in that, and hurt. There are so many victims who silence themselves because of people like that.
on September 27, 2020
What on earth?? Why would someone wanna mock something like that? Thats all sorts of wrong and just like mocking any tragedy should just be stopped
on September 27, 2020
on September 27, 2020
Are we really going to try and record a session of Among Us and post it on youtube um... yeah!
on September 27, 2020
I got lazy and decided not to do it, but I really need to do it. Goddamn it!
on September 27, 2020
Going to organize my dorm room again because I'm a pig and I have my shit everywhere
on September 27, 2020
I'm debating on whether or not I should grow out my hair again. I miss my long hair but I also love my short hair
on September 27, 2020