your.cool.grandma - Page 7

I’m literally just trying to vibe and every bit in my body is like ‘no not allowed sad only’ like literally only two bad things happened today why am I sad

I don’t even know what’s worth it anymore

Just Abt Ready to kms

My moods have just been

Bouncy bouncy haha happy
Hmmmmnmnm focused
Am i tired, hungry, or sad?
Mmmmmm anxiety got brrrr
Lol I want to die shoot me

Anyways I might stop posting here for a while bc a lotta people don’t really. Acknowledge my existence and this place has just become a form of venting and no one sees so it literally doesn’t even help plus there’s constant negativity here so

I love that I can’t say no to my sister bc when I do she gets pissy and then I feel bad lol

Vent? Just a talk ig. Tw, self harm. I’m okay.


It’s so weird. Like. I’ve relapsed a few times this and last month and I just. I don’t feel bad about it. I do it high enough on my thigh that if I wear shorts you can see it, it’s practically on my hip. Not only that, I started using fuckingg,,,, scissors and idk it’s. It’s weird. Like. I’m kinda scared it’s gonna get worse but i also want it to be cold so I can actually like. Do it where I want to. And I know I should tell someone See More but I don’t want all my shit to get taken away. Nothings ever bleeds, but it tears skin enough to leave marks for a couple days??? Idk. Idk idk. It hurts but it feels really good and I don’t do it for pleasure or anything, I don’t enjoy the paint but. It’s relieving. And I hate it.

Me: it’s Suicide awareness month!!
Me, two hours later: I wish I wasn’t alive

National suicide awareness month! I just learned that September is National Suicide awareness month, please help spread awareness to save lives and help those struggling

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/promote-national-suicide-prevention-month/

I love that a lot of my friends just dropped off the face of the earth and don’t talk to me and now I’m wondering if they’re even alive :P

Imagine realizing you’re into way more than you think :’))

I feel awful lol

And on top of that I’m only contacted for TH A T HAHAHAHAHAHDGSHSGAFSVSBDBSVSBSGGSVZGDHSHAJANXNS

Tw s**cide


Lol my friends contemplating suicide this week just keeps getting worse

Lol so youth is starting in person again and guess who can't go because they're doing it inside :)

Everything I write is shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish my friends would actually talk to me (:

I love that I’m scared to express my interests to my parents. I love that I have to hide my fandoms from them. Why?? Because at a young age I was told I wasn’t allowed to like certain things and so many things I enjoyed were taken from me and I had to hide it. So now when my parents find out about certain fandoms, I get scared they’re going to say ‘no that’s not okay’ and then ground me. It’s such a stupid fear.

Dropping out lol bye