vive_la_revolution - Page 9

Why tf do relationships have to be so frikkin hard
Honestly I wish no one liked me ever to begin with
Idek if I'm gay or bi. Who fvcking knows. Not me.
Not to mention, how does one do polyamorous relationships?? Especially when everyone else is monogamous?? What?? Help?? Jfc
Bc I literally have so many crushes
But it stresses me out when one likes me back bc oh no what if I suddenly found out another crush liked me and then I couldn't date them anymore??
And polyamory would theoretically See More solve that except everyoNE IS MONOGAMOUS
FML.

Raise your hand if you would kill to go to a pride parade or something this month but you can't because of parent/money/scheduling problems

Tbh I mean I know there's a lot of stuff aimed at queer people like "it's just a phase" and that's seriously irritating as hell and needs to stop
But
I mean
99% of the stuff I do and like are phases
I went through a vegetarian phase
I went through a Cinder fandom phase
I went through a "I hate everyone" phase See More
I went through a radical feminist phase
I went through a sjw phase actually tbh
I have no idea what labels fit me. I'm just fourteen years old. I'm still figuring shit out. So can I please just... Go through phases? Can I change who I want to be every other day as I try to figure out who I am and what I want? Can I do that without being judged? Pretty please?

I've been drawing these weird pride flag eyes for pride month
(I'm still planning on doing ace, demi, poly, polyamorous, transfem, transmasc, genderqueer, nonbinary, etc)
And I showed my sister
And everyone else wanted to see what I was drawing
So I ended up showing my homophobic grandparents gay pride art
And they said it was really pretty and didn't even realize.

My dad just?? Handed me a fidget spinner??
Where the actual fvck do these things come from??
My theory is fairies. Fairies leave them for humans to find, so that we will become enthralled with their coolness (or something??) and the fairies can kill us while we're distracted and drink our blood
Actually that sounds more like vampires. Either way

Where does everyone even GET these fidget spinners??
Everyone I know has like 8
And I mean people just keep collecting them
My sister leaves the house for twenty minutes and comes back with six
What is happening
Is this some sort of cult
Or magic

I changed my phone wallpaper to the bi pride flag
I'm thinking about coming out to more people this month? Maybe? Like my cousin and my Nana
I dunno though
We'll see

I literally hate it when I find out my crush likes me back
I have no idea why
I just freak the fvck out because I'm terrified of relationships I guess

WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME THAT DEAR EVAN HANSEN SOUNDS LIKE IT WAS WRITTEN AND SUNG BY GOD HIMSELF

Just started listening to Heathers
Holy shit

I need to go to sleep. Gnite

I wish there were queer adults in my life that I could look up to and safely talk to about things like gayness, questioning of gender identity, polyamory, etc

Tbh I'm like 97% sure that my polyamorous leanings are the reason I've always struggled with relationships
Like, no, I'm not breaking up with you because I don't like you, but because I like you but I also like other people and it feels to weird and restrictive to be confined to one person

Okay I am only legitimately realizing in this moment that it's unusual to have a crush on multiple people at once
Like
Even though I am aware I am poly and that most people are not
It never occurred to me that most people only have one crush at a time
Like. Having multiple crushes just seems completely natural to me and I've done it my whole life
And what about love triangles??
But I mean is this an actual thing? Like is it common to only ever have a crush on one person at a time?