Do You Sometimes Wish That You Would Fit In?

Fitting in

Fitting in can be difficult sometimes..if you're like me. I'm not ultra popular and I'm not one of those awesome, sexy girls everyone loves. I'm in the middle or sometimes at the end. Sure, you can get a load of friends that are your type, but sometimes there's always this one girl who steals them away from you. That's happened to me. People say that if you're a nerd then you wouldn't fit in at all. That's not true. Nerds can fit in but other people are maybe just unfortunate. Like me maybe? I'm not a nerd, but everyone is treating me like one. No one should feel left out or lonely. Not even you.

Today at school was horrible. I walked to school with my primary friends, but then they soon didn't involve me in their conversations. So I put my earphones on and acted like I was really bored, to catch their attention. They didn't care. So I walked ahead of them and hoped that one of them would call my name and say "Wait up Ellen!" That never happened. So I just walked on, listening to this song called 'Cool Kids' that I found by a Vine on Youtube. It explained me clearly. I kept replaying it and replaying it until I walked into the school grounds. A few minutes later my friends walked into the school grounds too, laughing. They all looked at me, my face looking a bit upset. They briefly looked at me then they turned back to talking, completely blocking me out. My heart sank. How come they didn't see that I looked really left out? This is when I suddenly felt that I should go talk to some other class mates (ones I wouldn't really call close friends). So I tagged along with a few but then they found their best friends and left me hanging on the sidelines. Again. I sighed and walked back to my previous primary friends and sighed heavily. No one noticed. I didn't want to say how I was feeling because then they would think I was being really over dramatic and leave me hurt more than ever.
The bell rang so I walked to my form. Unfortunately, they were all in the same form as me and I had to sit next to all of them in class. Every time I tried to talk to them they would ignore me and continue talking to the friend next to them. Annoyed, I left the class, pushing straight past them as the bell rang for the next lesson. It was Chemistry. Personally, I really enjoy Science (though Psychics is my favorite!) but the downside was that I was in the same class as three of my primary friends. One of them called Molly, is the nicest but she has a bunch of new friends so she doesn't really hang out with me a lot anymore. The next one, Arianna, is nice and a quite close friend but she always talks to Molly and my other 'friend', Tom. Tom..is just annoying. He makes jokes that aren't even funny. He makes them about me and then ends the joke with "Just kidding! You can take a joke right?". I hate jokes. And his ones hurt.