Bitter - Shoto x fem! reader

In Case We Don't Live Forever

Bakugo, Midoryia and I stand in shock as we watch (Y/N) attack her former classmates and UA students. She looks nothing like the (Y/N) I knew and loved. My heart pounds in my chest and ears as I watch the girl who held my heart slip away. It almost seems like us trying to help has made her slip faster into madness. I notice the League of Villains smile behind the (F/C) energy shield.
It makes my heart burn.
With anger.
With hate.
With love.
I still love her.
And maybe, it’s time that I admit it to her directly.
I step out from beside Bakugo and the others, raising my hands behind my head and approaching (Y/N) in her rage. She turns to me, fists clenched, anger burning in her (F/C) eyes as her veins pulse with her heartbeat.
“(Y/N)-chan, I am not a threat. Can we just talk, please?” I ask.
She blinks, almost shocked by my question. But her fists relax and her veins slowly stop pulsing as her eyes go back to (E/C).
“What’s the most pain you’ve felt?”
“Huh?” She mutters, “What are you talking about?”
“Right, sorry, I already know the answer,” I smirk for a moment, before taking a breath, “Do you not remember the first day our class got to know you?”
“Why would I?”
“You were amazing. We watched you take down team after team and then finally, it was Midoryia-kun and I’s turn. You seemed impossible to beat. It was great. There was already something about you that called me closer. I had to know more.”
She stares at me, processing what I’ve said, “What are you getting at?”
“What about when you interned at my father’s Hero Agency? We fought the Hero Killer together with Iida and Midoryia-kun! You protected me! I’ll never be able to forget that. Never.”
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There’s no way…
Me?
Protecting a  false hero ?
Or..
Is he just a hero?
“We’ll be friends, for a long time!” He yells, “I told you that. Can’t you remember that at least!?”
Tears rush down both of our faces. I have mine because I don’t understand why I can’t remember who I am. His are because he truly feels like it’s true.
And what if it is?
“I told you everything about my past and I trusted you wholeheartedly,” He continues, “I learned everything about you and you learned everything about me.”
I close my eyes, leaning on my knees as I clench my fists.
“You love (F/F), (F/C) and your favorite hero is ____!” He yells, his words speed up, getting faster and faster, “You hate the taste of cold soba but you lied because you knew I’d be hurt if I found out! And I-”
“And I love you!” He finishes.
My heart stops as a certain memory comes rushing back.
I see him in front of me as I yell out “I love you.” I can feel a tight grip around my neck and other limbs. Tears rush to the boy’s eyes as the memory fades into darkness and I finally open my eyes.
“Sho..”
Shoto immediately smiles upon me using his nickname, “Yes, that’s right. I lost you once, to the LoV. I can’t let it happen again. Not ever. I love you, (Y/N)-chan.”
But then the memories I created with the league come rushing back.
“But I also made memories with them…” I mutter, “This isn’t making any sense.”
“(Y/N).” Shoto says, “What about your parents? Do you remember what they did to you?! They hired All for One to manipulate your memories into thinking your parents were in the hospital. When in reality...they left you behind.”
I shut my eyes tightly, “It can’t be true, it can’t.”
“I’ll always be here!” He yells.
Another memory comes rushing back.
Shoto defended me during the court session against my parents.
“You defeated Overhaul with Midoryia-kun and got hurt. You were in the hospital for days.. in a coma,” His tears coat his face again, “Do you remember what I said to you that day? Just hours before you woke up again?”
“Don’t listen to him, (Y/N)-chan!” Shigaraki yells suddenly, “He’s the one manipulating your memories.”
I ignore him, turning back to Shoto, “Why didn’t you tell me earlier?”
“I was scared..” He mutters, “I didn’t think you had feelings for me and I was sure that we should focus on becoming heroes. I love you (Y/N)-chan,” He continues, “I love your passion, personality, everything. I love you. Everywhere I go, no matter what I do, I can’t stop thinking about you. Please, wake up. For me, for our classmates. For the world. They need you, I need you. You’re all I want, okay? I don’t care how long it takes. Please wake up. I-I love you...so much. The world is protesting for your safety, we’re trying to grant that for you. Please remember.”
The day in the hospital…
I remember now.
I heard him, back then. I couldn’t move or reply, but I heard him. I was scared that it wasn’t a good idea to be together. We were trying to become pro heroes. And I thought I knew what love was because of my parents but they betrayed me. I thought what I felt for Shoto was normal, just the friendship aspect.
I never had friends before..
But now I know, I was wrong.
“Shoto, I-” I relax, “I love you too! I love you more than you could ever understand!
He pauses, most likely surprised by my response.
I rush towards him, ignoring the calls from the League of Villains.
Although his reaction is slow, he’s able to catch me as we collide and I hug him tightly. After a moment, I pull back and grab him by the neck. I pull him closer until our lips lock together.
I can almost feel the anger from Shigaraki and the others. My memories are not all completely back, but I know they are the enemy.
Play Come with Me Now
    
“If you won’t stand with us, then get out of the way!” Shigaraki yells, “I’ll kill you too, if I have to.”
I stand my ground.
“I’m not moving.”
He charges forward but I take my fighting stance and crack the earth between me and him. He pauses.
“You’ve made a mistake, Shigaraki Tomura,” I mutter, powering up my “ultimate,” “You’ve made your enemy stronger!”
I charge forward, as he attempts to dodge. I jump on a plate of energy, spinning into the air and flying back down, landing directly on top of him. He lets out a grunt of pain as the other members of the League of Villains attempt to jump me. I back off as Midoryia, Shoto and the other students immediately step in. We create a circle to protect every side as the villains surround us.
Eventually, the UA teachers enter Gym Gamma and help us. Except more and more “lowly” villains pour through Kurogiri’s portals. He’s the first guy we’ve gotta shut down. So I turn towards him, trapping him in my (F/C) energy and sucking his energy straight out of him. He passes out on the floor as Shigaraki growls.
Quickly, the entirety of the student body and faculty of UA High overtake the villains. Lowly ones that were hired by the LoV solely for this mission decide to abandon ship, disappearing. The main crew are arrested, including Shigaraki. He’s given a quirk-cancelling device and is put behind bars almost immediately.
I turn to Shoto and the other students. My regrets finally catch up with me and I break down crying.