weirdass period of my life, most of the time i am filled w/ a constant sense of dread and i still spend most of my free time wandering aimlessly or playing guitar. recently got into films (by the hands of my best friend and the guy im kinda seeing rn) lotsa vampire flicks lately?
been delving into existentialism a lot more also (ive been an existentialist for a hot minute but lately ive been real into that shit lol)
been delving into existentialism a lot more also (ive been an existentialist for a hot minute but lately ive been real into that shit lol)
fudanshi
ur the coolest
on November 12, 2024
on November 12, 2024
saw my lil friend yesterday was so nice we did not go on a walk bc it was raining + hes still sick but we listened to some tunes n he made me tea and i may sorta like love him a lil bit possibly ?
on November 07, 2024
the weird little white boy i like to go on walks with got sick and we had to reschedule todays walk and for some reason that gave me the courage to text my ex girlfriend what timeline are we even in rn
on October 29, 2024
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on October 26, 2024
my life has been so weird n crazy lately trying to balance school w a part time job as well as being a professional musician + at this point essentially being a talent manager as well (started booking shows for ppl on a whim) is fuckingf insane
on October 18, 2024
new lore:
-me n that one person sorta called it off (for now) nothin happened we both j have a lot of baggage n didn’t wanna bring it into a relationship, we still talk tho
-my old band sorta died but yk me had to start a new one (acc kinda considering the previous person for lead guitar but also might j do it myself)
-went to the countryside over the weekend was nice stayed at my uncles farm and got to hang out w the barn cats
-been reading a lot as always
-currently really See More into philosophy bc of a class im taking
-also got into adventure time (childhood fav decided to binge it n its cute)
-i think im gonna get into movies too lmao
-me n that one person sorta called it off (for now) nothin happened we both j have a lot of baggage n didn’t wanna bring it into a relationship, we still talk tho
-my old band sorta died but yk me had to start a new one (acc kinda considering the previous person for lead guitar but also might j do it myself)
-went to the countryside over the weekend was nice stayed at my uncles farm and got to hang out w the barn cats
-been reading a lot as always
-currently really See More into philosophy bc of a class im taking
-also got into adventure time (childhood fav decided to binge it n its cute)
-i think im gonna get into movies too lmao
on October 15, 2024
lore guys hey
-played my first paid gig ever (75! dollars!)
-went on what ended up being a lil date yesterday, very happy to have been kissed in august and they r superrrr cool n we have a lot in common and they also sang radiohead for me. my last gf was cool n such and by no means a bad partner (despite ultimately screwing me over in more ways than one) but this person is j… WOW. they also gave me a sweater
-played an open mic late last night, everyone loved me
-my hair is See More getting long again and im so ready for fall. i think i will dye it on the first day of fall again and make that a ritual
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-played my first paid gig ever (75! dollars!)
-went on what ended up being a lil date yesterday, very happy to have been kissed in august and they r superrrr cool n we have a lot in common and they also sang radiohead for me. my last gf was cool n such and by no means a bad partner (despite ultimately screwing me over in more ways than one) but this person is j… WOW. they also gave me a sweater
-played an open mic late last night, everyone loved me
-my hair is See More getting long again and im so ready for fall. i think i will dye it on the first day of fall again and make that a ritual
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i think about the singing radiohead every days idk whats more insane singing creep on the first date or the fact that its been a year and id still let him hit
on June 29
on August 29, 2024
i keep getting jared bridal ads. guys who’s jared?
on August 28, 2024
hi guys it is 5:26 am i was at the bar w this person im sorta into until midnight afger playing a show and i got a solid 3 hours of sleep but i woke up and cat sleep again bc im giggling and kicking my feet
on August 26, 2024
on August 25, 2024
updates:
-the greep made a solo song its really good. def less gritty than bm but still good, rly musical theatry
-rebound era??? they are a sorta eccentric songwriter from california with a marshall lee pfp and they listen to radiohead im prob cooked but also they might just be nice and im misreading it (probably) also cant tell if im into them or niet lol
-i moved into a new room, rly nice, a bit roomier and i have a coffee table now
-the greep made a solo song its really good. def less gritty than bm but still good, rly musical theatry
-rebound era??? they are a sorta eccentric songwriter from california with a marshall lee pfp and they listen to radiohead im prob cooked but also they might just be nice and im misreading it (probably) also cant tell if im into them or niet lol
-i moved into a new room, rly nice, a bit roomier and i have a coffee table now
on August 22, 2024
i organized my first ever diy show last night!!! some highlights
-i debuted 3 (3!) new songs ab the breakup n ppl went nuts lmao
-turnout was way bigger than anyone was expecting, we literally had ppl sitting in the stairwell bc they couldn’t fit
-the friend my ex gf lost her mind over bc “they were so clearly into me” was there + they hugged me like 5 times. i think i may have the opportunity to do the funniest thing ever…
-my back is so sore from moving gear wtf
-i debuted 3 (3!) new songs ab the breakup n ppl went nuts lmao
-turnout was way bigger than anyone was expecting, we literally had ppl sitting in the stairwell bc they couldn’t fit
-the friend my ex gf lost her mind over bc “they were so clearly into me” was there + they hugged me like 5 times. i think i may have the opportunity to do the funniest thing ever…
-my back is so sore from moving gear wtf
on August 16, 2024
on August 14, 2024
recent lore???
-playing 2 or 3 shows in the next few weeks lmao one is opening for a bigger chi based artist at a pretty popular bar lmao im scared
-been seein my friends loads which is cool!!!
-i forgot about my cash tips for several days and finally remembered today, i got 32 dollars lmao
-bought a new tote bag and it has a zipper pocket (my old one had a pocket on the outside so i was always hella paranoid ab losing things, putting this here bc its important enough to mention!!!) See More
-currently terrified that im getting a cold can it wait for 2 days until i play my show on thursday lmao (also could be allergies tho, its more of a scratchy throat than sore and my eyes/nose have been HELLALALAAAA itchy for days)
-ate a whole boston cream danish myself and now i have to wait to sleep bc if i don’t ill wake up nauseous lmao
-playing 2 or 3 shows in the next few weeks lmao one is opening for a bigger chi based artist at a pretty popular bar lmao im scared
-been seein my friends loads which is cool!!!
-i forgot about my cash tips for several days and finally remembered today, i got 32 dollars lmao
-bought a new tote bag and it has a zipper pocket (my old one had a pocket on the outside so i was always hella paranoid ab losing things, putting this here bc its important enough to mention!!!) See More
-currently terrified that im getting a cold can it wait for 2 days until i play my show on thursday lmao (also could be allergies tho, its more of a scratchy throat than sore and my eyes/nose have been HELLALALAAAA itchy for days)
-ate a whole boston cream danish myself and now i have to wait to sleep bc if i don’t ill wake up nauseous lmao
im prob only this skinny bc not even exaggerating prob 1/3 of my diet consists of coffee (when i get hungry at work i fix myself a coffee bc if i actually eat i’ll be tired lmao) (today i was sooooo dizzy and shaky this is probably why)
on August 14, 2024
ive had like 5 customers comment smth about how “its a wonder i’m so tiny working w all those pastries (referring to my weight lmao im freakishly tall)
on August 14, 2024
on August 14, 2024