My mental health plummeted like severely lmao, I now always dissociate that's crazy
on July 31, 2021
I'm feeling much better now, I did have my first panic attack, but it's fine lmao. Idk I don't rly feel like writing on here rn, but funny thing is I used this a lot this year. 2020 will nearly be finished, hopefully I'll do a review soon
on December 06, 2020
Got rook done 2day hehe means I'm kinda sad abt stuff, not rly said but I've been feeling so off recently, like mad and agitated and sad and feeling like somethings starting and also ending. Like idk what it could be but the whole bday situation made me pretty sad today. Other than that I've been fine Better than before I think
on June 09, 2020
I just wanna cry myself to sleep that would genuinely be so nice. Sorry I've been good besides today btw. It's in quarantine. I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep I think it'll e nice
on April 19, 2020
I'm so hopeless rn idk what to do I desperately need help. I've been good these days tho. Never happy but kinda numb in a good way, not like before surely. Right now I'm not good tho, I just had a crying fit and idk why, wish I could talk to someone abt it I think, would talk to mum but that thing is making me upset rn. I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself rn
on April 19, 2020
Currently feel like I'm always putting a bandaid on every aspect of my life. The ocd I do great for a few months only for It to come back again, studying, I just avoid everything unless I have something due, my friends, I forget everything I feel and keep it bottled, my whole life has a fat band aid on it and it's always abt to rip, I can't keep living like this
on April 19, 2020
Thinking back on it I think I had a full on emotional or smth breakdown in June, it was crazy, I'm so out of control with my mind and it makes me cry. I should probably get therapy, yummy thing is that no one knows abt it either. It's crazy I can be so happy but sad at the same time, idk what's wrong with me and idk why I'm liek this, I wish I knew why I cry that would be nice, saying I don't understand my thoughts or emotions is an under statement.
on April 19, 2020
I thought I was better during the summer but I guess not? Anyways I've been better ish these days. He's come back and stuff and it makes me feel sick but u know. And idk why it's flaring up or if it's me or the ocd idk I truly don't but it's horrible sometimes, I just wanna enjoy myself and I feel so horrible. And then I had a break down this morning and I couldn't even tell why, like I can't tell what I'm feeling. Yea the friend stuff is bad it's better ish but that's a back See More burner thing. The thing abt mum that u remembered is making me rly upset, like horrible I think that's why I broke down. And I wish truly I didn't have to write abt thks but it's the truth. Overall I've been better I promise nothing as bad as June
on April 19, 2020
So much for a new decade, really hoping I do better than the sht show that was my mental health for a few parts of 2019, greatful for the times I felt good because I never wrote those down
on January 02, 2020
I have no clue if I can manage uni or if it’ll actually kill me, maybe I can maybe it’s the new start that I need, I’m just scared of everything changing, but it’s happening w the ppl I luv and idk its me its my fault I’m the common denominator
on January 02, 2020
on January 02, 2020
on January 02, 2020
Wow I had a feeling before but now I know for certain, people aren’t replying to me and leaving me on read or having rly dry convos, like best fking friends. Its worse w everything and everyone and everything I was scared of is happening and i feel sick
on January 02, 2020
on October 11, 2019
Its empty and thats what i hate, maybe its the lowest ive been yet? Maybe not? I cant tell, its not dramatic, its so mundane and thats even worse, i shoukd stop publishing my mental health issues on ghe fking internet im gonna regret this one day
on October 11, 2019
We're drifting apart, me and everyone. Its me because im the common denominator. Its not the anxiety fuelled things like before, its an empty dread thats in my stomach because i know im doing things wrong but i cant stop. Im so selfish
on October 11, 2019
Im supposed to be atudying for exams these holidays and im not if i fking fail ill kms
on October 09, 2019
Bye this was the saddest one yet i hope im doing better next time i have a feeling i wont knock on wood
on June 11, 2019
I dont know what there is for me anymore i have no hope i thought id be better by now i was doing so well alst year. Idk mayb its just these few days but ive dramatically been feeling worse im probably over reactibg. But those two have fkced me uo the most but tbh uts everyone. Im feeling so isolated even tho its all my faukt! Im a horrible oerson to he around and i know it uet i keep on blaming everyone else for it. Its my fault. Anyways gane of thrones is good lmao
on June 11, 2019