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I know I'm gonna fail both of these exams
I barely slept last night. And I'm not eating breakfast.

I'm sick of saying that I'm fine.

I have my algebra exam today.
I just wanna go curl up and die. I wish I'd been the one who'd gotten sick. Not her.

I know I won't sleep well. I miss them...

I don't know how to make myself feel better
I know I'm gonna break down tomorrow
I can't do anything about it
I don't get to see my band instructor. Or Karmen. And probably not Josh.
I think I'll sit alone at lunch so I can just cry in peace. Josh, Karmen, and my band instructor are my only sources of happiness at school. Without them, I don't know what to do. Karmen being sick already worries me enough. The usual Winter Break separation issues and exams just made it worse. See More
I'm emotionally attached to Josh, Mr. McCarthy, and Karmen. Without one of them, it's hard to hold on. With none of them, I fall. And with exams piled on top of that, Im gone.

i just want to have christmas and get the break over with
i cant enjoy myself
i want to see her
i just can't stand it

Tbh, if I've actually worried myself sick (Which I probably have), I'm screwed.
We aren't allowed to make up math exams.

I'm shaking and having trouble breathing.
Plus I have a nasty headache and it's making me feel sick.
I really think that I literally worried myself sick.

Ugh
I suddenly feel terrible and I'm wondering if I had literally worried myself sick.

I'm sitting here smiling like an idiot because she's okay but at the same time worrying myself sick because I can't see her until January.

Tbh I'm gonna be on the phone with her a lot.
She has that annoying-ass she stomach virus.
I've had it twice before.
And I don't get to see her until January.

I don't want to go to school tomorrow, ugh.
I'm panicking again. ..

Ugh. Random mood drop.
I won't see her until next year.
Sigh,..

Ayyyy, I beat Twinmold

I tend to keep in step with my friends when walking.
I have also memorized some of my sheet music.
My band instructor thinks I should join a university marching band.

Sometimes I just wish I could wake up.
And it was all just a bad dream.

My family has a lot of Christmas trees...
The main one that we got from the tree farm, two regular sized artificial ones, a small one in the guest room, a table topper one in the kitchen, a medium one next to the stairs, and a twelve foot one outside.