Irrelevant - Page 75

I have a really bad sunburn and it hurts, yet I'm laying on it. No regrets I'm tired.

Also, I'm back because I overreacted.

Two years ago (almost 3) I had a massive anxiety attack and this one life guard (who I don't particularly like, however she's pretty cool). Told me she felt bad about it (yesterday) and told me she was going to tell me she just didn't.

Let me tell you when I say I felt awful that day because I shoved my best friend on rotation, pulled a cleaner up to body because I couldn't keep my shit together. I scared the crap out of 2 lifeguards, and everyone was worried about me and I felt See More shitty.

That day marked the downfall of my mental health though :/ it only got worse from there.

You're home human being is going to try and model at a local boutique. -cue dance music, but not the waltz I'm not graceful-

I'm just going to delete some of my social media, I shouldn't even be on it.

Maybe if I just ignored my feelings it would all go away but it doesn't.

Why do I feel so alone?

I'm not even surprised they don't care about me, because none of the people irl seem to.

Why do I keep doing this to myself, why do I care so deeply for someone only for it to be shoved in the f'ucking ground! Why!? UGH!

How come I'm stuck doing the wellness checks!?

Innocence by Nathan Wagner

"Before my garment lost it's white
Before I saw my father cry
When fear was never on my mind
Take me there
When all I saw was silver gold
When shadows didn't have a hold See More
Before I always needed more
Take me there
Bring me to the garden where we'd go
And cleanse my soul, cleanse my soul
Free me of this anger that I hold
And make me whole, make me whole
Darling won't you let it go
You don't have to let it hold you
Listen to the light
Don't let the darkness take you
Always in this inner fight
Do I listen to the voice that says I'm
Worthless never will be right
Do I try to keep my head up high
Though I feel that I deserve it all
These daggers going through my chest
Can't you see the devastated souls
The remains of my own foolishness
I'll bring you to the garden where we'd go
And cleanse your soul, cleanse your soul
I'll free you of this anger that you hold
And make you whole, I'll make you whole
Darling won't you let it go
You don't have to let it hold you
Listen to the light
Don't let the darkness take you
Your memories aren't your destiny
Your memories aren't your destiny
Your memories aren't your destiny
Your memories aren't your destiny
If I looked you in the eye
And showed the broken things inside
I won't run away, I won't run away
If you saw my darkest parts
The wicked things inside my heart
I won't run away, I won't run away
Listen to the light (Listen to the light)
Listen to the light (Listen to the light)
Listen to the light (Listen to the light)
Listen to the light (Listen to the light)"


This is a beautiful song

Mom is yelling at me because supposedly I'm not doing shit with my room

Okay, I know I said I wasn't going to post today because I was cleaning my room and such.

I'm so closed to being finished with cleaning up my entertainment center omg I am so proud of myself!!

Quick rant because I'm pissed!!

Mom harasses me for three weeks to get my room clean and organized. I finally do it and she bitches at me to do other shit when I'm cleaning my room.

What the hell do you want done, my room or your constant distractions making me go to the store, getting you pop, and putting food away? What's more important, obviously your threat to throw all my shit away.

I'm going to offline for a little bit, I have to organize my room I didn't organize months ago.

When qfeast thinks you have a great idea ?

My tiktok videos are stupid :> I'm surprised with my following count tbh

Sleep never heard of her

*me finally falling asleep at 4 in the morning*

I'm always tired