Trigger Warning: I mainly post these to try and calm myself down
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Yesterday while I was dying my hair blue I was having a mental breakdown and my cat came into the room as I started crying and just laid next to me and started licking my side. If that isn't f'ucking love I don't know what is? I love Myka so much. It literally helped calm me down too.
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Yesterday while I was dying my hair blue I was having a mental breakdown and my cat came into the room as I started crying and just laid next to me and started licking my side. If that isn't f'ucking love I don't know what is? I love Myka so much. It literally helped calm me down too.
on June 23, 2020
Okay, Trigger warning, I literally don't know how to describe it.
Okay, at random times when I'm light-headed and standing I'll collapse and immediately start shaking and I don't really know what to think of it. Multiple people have witnessed it (it's not a seizure) and it has scared the crap out of them. When this happens I'm usually freaking out about something and it gets to the point where I've collapsed. I've done this numerous times in front of my parents and they're like See More "stop being dramatic", when I did it on rotation last year I had three leads rushing to my aid and I had no idea what was going on.
It's not a seizure, I have spoken to my doctor about it I just don't know what it would be. I haven't done it lately so that's good ig.
Okay, at random times when I'm light-headed and standing I'll collapse and immediately start shaking and I don't really know what to think of it. Multiple people have witnessed it (it's not a seizure) and it has scared the crap out of them. When this happens I'm usually freaking out about something and it gets to the point where I've collapsed. I've done this numerous times in front of my parents and they're like See More "stop being dramatic", when I did it on rotation last year I had three leads rushing to my aid and I had no idea what was going on.
It's not a seizure, I have spoken to my doctor about it I just don't know what it would be. I haven't done it lately so that's good ig.
@eltonjohnsfatcock Probably, I already know I have anxiety I've known for a while I just haven't done anything about it.
on June 23, 2020
@eltonjohnsfatcock I don't have anemia and I don't have epilepsy and that's why I don't know how to feel about it. I don't even know if I should mention it because it doesnt happen often.
on June 23, 2020
Honestly only two people know irl and those are the friends it happened to and they haven't said anything about it.
on June 23, 2020
on June 23, 2020
I'm going to be in the same place as Trump, July 3rd 2020. Shoot me.
on June 23, 2020
THIS CUTE COSPLAY GIRL IS RETURNING AS A LIFEGUARD THIS YEAR *is screaming*
on June 23, 2020
I want someone to tell me they love me while giving me an ice cream cone while Queen is playing in the background because why not.
But life doesn't work that way. Give me an off brand version of that. It's called loneliness.
But life doesn't work that way. Give me an off brand version of that. It's called loneliness.
on June 23, 2020
I relate to Anyone by Demi Lovato, when I first listened to that song I couldn't stop crying.
@ihatemen Dude I know, i feel so bad for Demi she went through so much and she's trying to make things better for herself. I love and appreciate Demi
on June 23, 2020
@ihatemen I shed so many tears, I have never related to a song so much man.
I related to Silent Scream by Anna Blue and Anyone by Demi Lovato. Those songs are powerful!
I related to Silent Scream by Anna Blue and Anyone by Demi Lovato. Those songs are powerful!
on June 23, 2020
on June 23, 2020
I finally bought myself a 'purse' after my mom has repeatedly harassed me to get one.
Guess how many times I'll use it. 0 I hate purses, I hate carrying another useless bag. If I deem it worthy enough to bring I'd wear my coat and stuff it in my pockets. I HATE PURSES!
Guess how many times I'll use it. 0 I hate purses, I hate carrying another useless bag. If I deem it worthy enough to bring I'd wear my coat and stuff it in my pockets. I HATE PURSES!
on June 23, 2020
Actually, I won't finish my rant because there's so much to rant about I'd technically be writing a full-on book.
on June 23, 2020
on June 23, 2020
on June 23, 2020
If I blocked any one of my family members they would throw a riot, except for one person (which everyone has them blocked). Although, most of my family is fairly understanding there is still a select few that would riot because I blocked someone in the family. My mother for one, she's constantly on my ass about my social media, she literally even asks for the passwords sometimes and that pisses me off it's my account therefore I should decide who is and isn't on my social media See More (that's not the case). My mother has to control everything, literally everything! I post something she doesn't like I have to remove it, I have to be respectful of other peoples views and if I say something that offends them then I need to remove it. My 'offensive' content is me posting about how I'd rather have short hair than long hair, how mean I am because I'm sorry I say things as it is. I can't post anything I like, it has to be mom-approved before I do anything and guess what my mother doesn't approve of anything I post. I can't come out because my mom will flip a shit, I can't go by Kaiden on Facebook because it would upset the relatives, I can't even post about a book I'm writing because my relatives would be ashamed I'm writing something fictional that deals with mental and physical abuse, "What do you feel this way in real life that you have to go around and put it in your stories?" Yes, I do feel mentally abused because you never once consider my thoughts about anything, it's always about you!
Part 1 of an ongoing rant.
Part 1 of an ongoing rant.
My emotions aren't worth jack shit, and neither are my words. Everything I say or do disappoints you, and you'll never leave it alone. I came out to you twice, and both times you've denied me and you have never let go of it since. You constantly remind me about those days on how you lectured me for 5 hours about how I'm not gay, and that I'm trying to upset you See More and be something I'm not. I wasn't genderfluid because I was born a girl and those people who transition are just trying to get attention. You never once considered my pain through anything that you said, you've always said things that completely hurt me and act like it's fine. There's a thing called being a good protective mother and a toxic mother. You're toxic.
Part 2 of an ongoing rant.
Part 2 of an ongoing rant.
on June 23, 2020
on June 23, 2020
I came up with new song lyrics (it's only like three verses, who wants to hear it?)
on June 23, 2020
The amount of racism coming from my mother's mouth is upsetting.
Rn your words are pure racism and I am not going to stand for that. I'm not going to stand by a racist person.
on June 23, 2020
"I don't believe George deserved what he got, the police should be punished but people need to stop being butthurt and trying to erase history"
Her 'support' is just a front so people assume she's supportive and an ally. She's not she's racist and homophobic, actions speak louder than words, I'm sorry.
Her 'support' is just a front so people assume she's supportive and an ally. She's not she's racist and homophobic, actions speak louder than words, I'm sorry.
on June 23, 2020
on June 23, 2020
I'll make a private page for a bunch of my vents I don't want to post on my main. If you'd like it, go ahead and dm me and I'll probably give it to you. I'm picky with who I share my life story with so don't get upset if I deny you. There are things I'd rather not share with some people.
on June 23, 2020
This is a m3ssage to the people who think I have something better to do with my life, I don't so stop asking.
on June 23, 2020
I said I was surrounded by idiots at work today and ONE person got my reference ONE person! Nevermind about idiots, I'm surrounded by uncultured swines!
on June 23, 2020