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"I don't know how much longer I can take," I mumble as it wipes tears from my eyes. "Sweetie, I don't know either. But we can stop it." It says. I nod. "Y-Yeah...we can..." I agree, looking at it. my eyes pleading. "sweetie..." it says. I look at it, my eyes still pleading. "My family is falling apart. my parents are gone. my brothers pretty much hate me. They hate me. all I do is cause drama." I explain, though it already knows. it sighs and nods.
"I don't specialize in this See More subject. That other one does....I don't know how to do it." It confesses. to me, I can see its nervous. I give it a smile.
"I can teach you." I say. "No." It replies and I look at it, shocked.
"I'm not doing with. Your NOT doing it. Yes, that stuff is happening. You will be fine. Your parents will come back. Your brothers care and love you, just keep it secret. You will be loved. You don't cause drama; you just cause life."
It says to me. I stare at it. It hugs me. "sweetie, don't do it." It pleads and I start crying. "I wont. your so much better then..." I say, nobody needs to know its name so I don't say it. "Thanks. and I know, I will help you. I will help you. I will teach you emotions. Remember, I may be a infestation of your disorders but I'm also based off of your friends, your girlfriend. your true friends." It says. I nod as I cry into it.
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"I wont make it with it!" I scream as IT comes back. IT smiles at me. "I know. That's why I'm here." IT says, grabbing my arm.
"Its time. If you like it or not!" IT screams as IT tugs me away.
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A never ending battle.
and were not winning.
are we?

*stands up and grabs stuff*
I need to go again....
I'm very sorry....
*runs away, wiping eyes as runs*

"Me and mom wont be back until late."
...s-shit....shit....shit....no!
no....please no.
When?! Why?! HOW LONG!?
*starts panicking*
( my father said the thing btw... )

*sits down*
I-I'm back...
*looks away, rubbing arm*
s-sorry if I s-scared you...b-but I'm alive...
*deep breath*

*stands up*
I have to go...
I'm very sorry.
*runs away*

Should I make a zombie accaplose story? XD

*walking around an empty corridor, slightly lost and looking for humans*
...I-is anyone h-here!?

*dips head*
Hello and Welcome.

Shall I turn this into a story?~
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I screamed. "NO, DONT LEAVE!" I said, feeling tears stream down my face as she ran away.
"IM SORRY!" She screamed, running out of my eyesight
I let out a scream. pain. fear.
I felt it all.
was this my fault? no, it was his! See More
HE started this!
I curled up into a ball and cried.
nobody noticed.
nobody would.
she was the only god damn person who knew of my existence.
but would she love me still?
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*Sigh*
god damn it
I'm still sick *sniffle*
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...sorry I wasn't here earilier guys
my bus was late because of the storm
so, I'm sorry... ;-;

*stands up, wiping eyes* I need to go, I'm sorry.... *grabs stuff and runs away, crying*

thing about me:
i pretty much hate talking about myself. Why? hell if i know.
i know i should talk about it; get it off my chest.
but i have always had problems about saying how i feel and my opinion, input, etc.
i know i should try to get it off my chest, talk about it...im just afraid of what people will say.
I've always been afraid of words....
*sigh* See More
I've been trying to say whats on my mind, practicing, yeah in RL? yeah, failing that...
ugh, i will write a new post screaming.
so, be aware. -.-

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that was fun.
i got a scab out of my ear
and now my ears hurt.

"How is your family"
"its fine." (its hell. its actually hell. my mother is in pain. i want to die. My father is upset. my brothers....my family is breaking apart.... )
"oh, awesome!"
"..." (idiot!)

"why does your leg have a big scratch on it?"
"battle scars..."
"um?"
"i said they are battle scars."
"....err...ok. 1 and 2 one lap around the gym!"
*sigh of relief*

"How is your life?"
what i say: "its alright"
what i WANT to say: "its a living hell."
they don't suspect a thing.
"idiots..." is what i mumble every. single. time.
yeah, i know, i shouldn't call them idiots.
i should be calling MYSELF an Idiot for not telling the truth! See More
But i call them idiots for not noticing.
why? i put on a fake smile, go through the day pretending like everything is fine, and LIE.
and they believe it.
so who should i call the idiot here?
*sigh* i don't even know.
I'm clueless about everything.

"who are you?" i whispered to the shadow.
"I'm Shadow. Call me Shad." It replied.
"..." I didn't say a word.
"You know your cousin, correct?" it asked me.
"yeah....she's dead..." i said, shaking a bit at the memory.
"i was her shadow." It said, smiling.
"really?" i asked, quite surprised. See More
"yes!" it replied, still smiling.
"Will you let me in? Will you become my friend?" It asked me.
"Yes, yes!" I say.
"Promise that you wont leave the path that i lead." It replied.
"I promise. i promise everything." I reply back.
it hugged me. "I'm glad." it said.
little did i know, my life had secretly became hell by that promise.