Connecting stars

Secrets Enclosed

"No..it's impossible" i said to myself a hundred times
I had sleepless night that day.
Couldnt think about anything but the words Michiko passed into my ear.
I tried to fall asleep and hugged my stuffed toy as i wanted to hug Makoto, Even if he was there I wouldnt have been able to Hug him ..
I closed my eyes & prayed god that it was all a dream...
"Michiko is a liar" i said and fell asleep


The next day I ,Mom , Dad were having breakfast , pancakes,. We were watching daily reality show when Mom changed it . She wanted to see if there are any Agri show or flower shows going on in the city. that's when a news about a plane crash.
I threw up my pancake in my mouth on the plate
The plane was heading to the same place where his flight goes.
"Coincidence maybe.." i conviced myself again
I rried to call Makoto but it said his phone was switched off.
I have never been worried about anyone so much, i never wanted to happen either.

My hear beat was running faster than usual. i couldnt breathe properly, I ran across all streets, went to all of his friend's houses to ask whether they have any idea.
No one knew anything.
I lost all my hopes

I never thought a day like this would come, where i would totlly loose the person i loved...
I even agreed to become just friends...
But then why?
i questioned
Why dont the red strings of fate  not atleast make us fall in love, but atleast make him again appear in front of my eyes.

He didnt come to the High school farewell party. I tried my best to fake a smile & was surprised to see Michiko happily chatting with her friends. she was dressed like it was her wedding or something.
But maybe she's trying to move on?
She could do it
but why couldnt I?
Am i immature?
Seeing that , I too tried my best to appear normal while inside i wasnt
After the party, I wanted to see our classrooms, And get those sweet nostaligic memories

How I made some friends like Jade, Haru, Iris..
and also some short time friends like Michiko

It was hard to believe that 4 years have passed by but it seemed just like yesterday i entered into the High school

I was not satisified with what i had, i could see Makoto all the time, yet i wanted something to happen between us, like a spring of love
but now i just wanted to see his face
just want to see him again
time can surely change people so much and so do situations.

I and Michiko again met face to face
"sorry"
Why did she say that?
she flipped her hair & i could see some tears in her eyes
She is unpredictable.
so are her lies


the year passed by real fast. It's aldready winter

Today i was on my way to singing auditions which  were held in our city for the first time
"if only makoto waited he wou- no ! i should stay focused" i slapped my cheeks
& started to move on.

The streets are as cold as usual, it was peak winter.
I wanted to first practice the song in a nearby Music class with my old teacher
I used to go ther for music lessons, evenn Makoto used to learn there.
"Again! Uh I must Forget..that..stuff" I ignored my tears and rubbed them off roughly.
I kept my chest on the heart and said "I know i can do it. I'll do this!"

I reached the Music class center and got some nostaligic memories in my mind.

I heard a familiar music.
"Never cried like this before" we sang together

"these little feelings tightly tied together


Will they remain forever


Pray for wishes  to the shooting star "
.......
why was i singing that?
I suddenly remebered those lyrics from back then
was it because i missed him so much
but it goes well with the music...

I wanted to see..who was playing that wondeful melody..
which is always locked in my head

that rhythm

I walked to the room and a guy was playing a keyboard . there were many kids sitting there

"Such a Heart breaking tune"

I couldn't control my tears. I cried harder and harder as all those memories were passing by

"Look , that sis is crying ! Our bro is that amazing" he  grinned

The guy turned back.
My heart was pouncing.

"Oh, Chizu!" he gave me a sweet smile


"Mako..to.." I gulped the lump in my throat and  freed my tears.They continued to roll on my cheeks

He was walking towards me .
I tackled him & hugged him as tightly as he he did before
"You are alive!!" I wasnt this rellieved  and happy  
"What do you mean?" he said
I pushed him back. I was embarassed and looked away
"You..didnt come to the farewell"
"Sorry. i was busy"
"yeah..you were overseas.. right?"
"um..no "
"what?why??"
"Calm down.. " he giggled
"My father was ill suddenly... Let's go out & talk..i These kids are having lessons here."

He lead me to the park near the Music class.
"So what makes you here?" he stared at me
"Oh that.. i wanted to practice for my singing auditions which will be started in 3 hours "
"That's great. Good luck"
"Anyway..i'm glad you came here"
His words made me Blush so hard
"Really..I'm happy to hear that" I looked at his Dazzling eyes

"Why don't you try too..the auditions" i suggested
"Um..Later..I wanna be a teacher here first . After that i'll give it a shot"
"Oh.."
I tried to get courageous and confess to him.
I'm not loosing him like that...
I met him finally!
That means destiny wanted me to try ?
"I.." i slowly spoke
"Don't worry! I will definetly give it a shot after my Marriage!" he said
"Ah..W-wait a minute!! M-marriage??" i shrieked

Is he gonna confess me??
I expected him to confess his love for me
I was confident that it was me..

"Yeah we are going to get engaged this month ending! "
"Oh.." I ws confused
"Yeah! Please come to the Engagement!! Please!?!!!" he begged
"uh..but.."
Such a chaos and confusion. I couldnt get what was happening.
'I am getting engaged to my first love , isnt that great?" he flushed happily
"Who is it?? I am so ..curious" i pushed him in a friendly manner
"She was actually a friend of yours!! didnt she tell you?"
"M-my friend? Jade?"
"No"
"Haruka?"
"No !!"
"then..Hana"
"Noo!"
"So, it's me?"
"what??"
"I was just kidding"
I said even though i wasnt

"Um..If you don't mind can i say this?.. I know i'm being engaged so before that i want to say something"
"Sure , i won't mind" i said still hoping for a confession
"I have actually..had a crush on you before in elementary.. Oh man..it's so Embarassing!! I have always like you so much..even in middle school ..i have always liked only you before I met her...
Michiko"

"So it was Michiko?? " I smiled fakely
but he was so happy that he could not see me, standing there, devastated, completely wrecked and broken .
"That's so great!! Congratulations..I feel happy for you" I pushed my tears away
"You are not angry?"
"About?"
"Me having crush on you..i gave up because i thought you'd never have special feelings for me..." he said

"I liked you too" I softly whispered
"Really?"
"yes as a good friend"
"I knew it. friendzoned" he laughed

I joined him too

Was it the winter breeze which was making my skin cand heart colder?

Tears have no value..Things won't return or come back even if i cry

Would he change his mind if i cried?
It wasn't his fault
nor it was Michiko's

I & Makoto are like parllel lines.

we cannot meet anywhere at any point...

it's all because

I was a big liar...
One who even lies to their own feelings.....

A pathetic liar.






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