Kaiser

Rejected Apologies

Mama was never mean, she was a big love heart ready to burst when somebody poked it with a needle, I felt so stupid for what I had done. I was so selfish, I never thought of mama and how she would've felt when she heard the news. But to talk to her, I couldn't have just went up front, could I? No, I had some money in my piggy bank, about enough to buy a bouche of roses, that would win her heart! So I guesses that mama would be upstairs for sometime, since she'd been up there for two sorrowful days, so I sprinted down to Florence Bouches, "Ah, Anjelica! How's your mama? Good I hope, this war don't make all of us feel good, eh?" Florence was a kind woman, a little bit older than my mama, about 40 or something, but I hadn't been able to see her a lot after her husband died. "Oh, well, my mama's fi-" I stopped suddenly, I had forgotten about my papa! I had hurt my mama so much, I forgot my papa! I started stuttering as the tears came rolling down. "Darling dear, are you okay? C'one, tell Florence what happened, eh?" she brought me to the seat behind the desk and sat me on her knee, "Well," I stuttered, "my-my-papa is dead! And-and-and-my mama, I-I-I hurt her feelings you see. I made her feel guilty. I am a devil child! That's what they will start calling me, am I right Florence!" I burst out more tears, Florence didn't know what to do, as she didn't have any children, "Shh, hush dear, hush now, shh, turn around, I think someone is looking for you." She positioned me on her knee towards the door and there he was, Velken. "Come on Anjelica," he opened his arms, and smiled, "mama's been looking for you, and so has Kaiser." I rushed into his arms, "And tell your mama we have to have some tea, yes? Goodbye dear." Florence said sweetly.
"So what were you doing at the florists?" questioned Velken, "I feel bad for what happened with mama, don't know if you're there or not, but I hurt mama's feelings, I said she should feel guilty about not telling me about what happened with papa, but I was a selfish girl, how can I win her back Velken?" we had gotten to the front door by this time and Kaiser was jumping on me, as usual, "Well, I say you run upstairs and give mama the biggest hug, hm?" we hugged each other, then I raced past him up the stairs, then stopped. I knocked on mama's bedroom door, "Velken? Is this you? Fetch Anjelica for me will you. I need to apologize to-" "It's me mama." I then walked in the door. She hugged me, she mumbled a few things but I couldn't understand because she was talking into me. She apologized and so did I. "Oh mama! You don't deserve a devil like me," I said wandering around the room, "I was being so selfish, I never thought of your feelings, and I am ever so sorry mama, will you ever forgive me?" she held my hand and pulled me into her to embrace me, "You are god's perfect creation my dear," she whispered, "and I can not forgive you..As there is nothing to forgive." she smiled, then all of a sudden, guess who opened the door? Kaiser, always there yo save the day! "Oh my goodness gracious Kaiser," exclaimed mama, "you scared the living daylights out of me!" we laughed for a while, the I remembered. "Ah, mama? Could I ask you a question?" mama nodded and smiled, "Mama, I love Kaiser, he is the best friend anyone could ask for-but, I also love papa, and since..Since papa's death, I've been thinking. Maybe Kaiser could...He's a clever dog so?-" "Anjelica, what seems to be the problem?" I looked down as if the checked carpet could help me say what I was about to say, "Kaiser could help those soldiers in the war, mama, I love him but-I feel like all those young soldiers out there are waiting to be killed and, well, they need Kaiser, mama." she was looking at the ground as well, as if the carpet was going to give her something to say too, "Well," sighed mama, "you are a mature girl, with an enormous heart, and I will tell you this, Kaiser is your dog, your little emperor, your only king. And if this is what you want to do.." I nodded, "Then you will do so my little bear." I hugged my mama and apologized once again, even though she claimed she didn't need it, and I cried in my room for sometime. Kaiser must have known something was wrong, as he had seen me hug and laugh with my mama, happiness in other words, so in his clever mind he knew that there was something odd about me crying. He would often paw my hand as to dance with him, so I danced for a while then stopped. I shouldn't have, but I did at one point shout at him, and he backed away into the corner, paws over his nose, I knelt down beside him, "Oh my little emperor," I said, even though he wasn't  puppy anymore, "if only you knew what I was crying about, you'd understand, wouldn't you? If you could talk, you'd probably be able to take down Hitler himself! And you could also tell me what you wanted, you could tell me if you wanted some Snitchel, yes, and you could also tell me if you wanted to help those poor soldiers. You are so brave Kaiser," he eventually lifted his head up, "you're my little hero, the best dog in the word, that's what you are." I said, tapping his nose. He was now sitting up, head held high in pride...But seriously, I did want him to be able to talk, I wanted my best friend's opinion on what I was about to do, but I had to face it...It would never happen.