The Voices

Learn About Love

When I wake up I freeze trying to remember what happened. Then I remember, Xander kissed me. I don’t know why or what was going through his head when he did but he did. I liked it. It may have been my first one but it was worth it. I sit up in the bed and listen to the house. The only thing I can hear is the house settling into the foundation.
As I get up and walk down the stairs I hear somebody singing. It’s Xander. Xander is singing some song that has to do with falling apart. It’s so beautiful. Then I hear the strumming of a guitar. Dang he has everything here. I smile and walk in unsure of how to react. He looks up and smiles. Oh that smile is so amazing.
“Well goodmorning sleeping beauty” He says
“Hey what happened?” I ask
“You collapsed again my love.” He replies
“Why?”
“I don’t know.”
Thats when it hit me. Anger was pissed off that I was falling for him and he knocked me out. Then I smile and sit next to him saying, “keep singing. That song was beautiful”
He smiles and begins strumming again before singing
“ The worlds on fire but we're all smiling
Though it's all our fault
But life is short so we resort to laughing through it all

It's the battle within the good and the sin
With both sides standing strong
It's the permanent scars
How broken we are
It's the things that hurt us all

But isn't it beautiful
The way we fall apart
It's magical and tragic all the ways we break our hearts

So unpredictable
We're comfortably miserable
We think we're invincible
Completely unbreakable
And maybe we are
Isn't it beautiful
The way we all fall apart

You're a liar but I'm a coward so I can't throw a stone
We're so imperfect but so worth it because we're not alone

It's the wars that we wage, the lives that we take
For better or for worse

It's the lion we cage, the love and the rage
That keeps us wanting more

But isn't it beautiful
The way we fall apart
It's magical and tragic all the ways we break our hearts

So unpredictable
We're comfortably miserable
We think we're invincible
Completely unbreakable
And maybe we are
But isn't it beautiful
The way we all fall apart

The world is dark but all it takes
your love to spark
To set my heart on fire once again

But isn't it beautiful
The way we fall apart
Isn't it beautiful
oh, isn't it wonderful
The way we fall apart
It's magical and tragic all the ways we break our hearts

So unpredictable
We're comfortably miserable
We think we're invincible
Completely unbreakable
And maybe we are
But isn't it beautiful
The way we all fall apart

Isn't it beautiful
The way we fall apart”
(This song was by We As Human)

When he finished I couldn’t say anything. That was so beautiful. I can only think that he’s right. When the world is on fire all we do is smile and laugh and move on. It’s pathetic how little we care for others. I hate humans. I guess I don’t as one anymore. My stomach growls making Xander laugh.
“I guess you need to eat because you didn’t eat earlier.” He says
As we get up he grabs my hand and holds it to his chest over his heart. I smile and kiss his cheek before walking into the kitchen to eat the food he put out. As we eat we make very little small talk. When I finish I wait on him to finish before getting up. He smiles and follows me out of the kitchen and up the stairs. “You know you never did give me a tour of this place.” I say
“No I didn’t did I?” He replies. Then he grabs my hand and pulls me along the hallway naming the places as we go. “This is the bathroom, this is your room, and this is my room, and this is a random room and well that’s about it. You’ve seen the kitchen and living room.” He finishes.
When he finishes talking I notice that we’re in front of his room. I smile and take his hand before walking in. He follows me looking mischievous. I sit on the bed and he sits next to me. I look down blushing. Then I feel his hands on my face lifting it to his. When I feel his lips on mine and I press closer. Then he wraps his arms around my waist and pull me on top of him. I start pulling back because I don’t think I’m ready for this. When I break the kiss his eyes narrow in anger. I whisper “I’m not ready for this.”
“Fine. Get out. Go away I don’t want to associate myself with a person who isn’t ready to trust me completely.” He shoves me off his lap and I tumble to the floor. When I get up there are tears in my eyes.
“Fine,” I say  “I’ll leave.” With that I storm out and down the stairs. Then I’m out the door and down the road. If he wants to act like this I’ll leave and I won’t come back. Then I hear my name being yelled. I turn and see who it is. It’s Xander. He’s chasing me as fast as his feet will carry him I prep myself to run and take off hard. Then I hear the whoosh of his wings. He lands in front of me and grabs me.
“What do you think you were doing?” He yells “Why did you leave the house?”
“You said leave. You said you didn’t want to be associated with somebody who isn’t ready to take that step to trust you completely. Basically somebody like me!” I yell back at him. Then I break down crying. I fall to my knees and get up running to the house. When I get there I lock myself in my room. I’m so freaking sick of his crap. He doesn’t understand what it’s like to be feared by everybody. He doesn’t know how I feel about being forced into a relationship where I don’t know anything.
“Calm down sweetie. He can’t hurt you because he’s out there and we’re in here” I hear Insanity whisper.
He keeps changing his mind. It’s like living with a live version of all of you. I think sharply. I hear banging on my door then I feel something running down my cheeks before passing out once more.