Stranger in my Mirror

Love?

Love?

I hear the word so many times
And yet it sounds so hollow
My heart is heavy
And yet theirs nothing inside
I have fallen from my dreams
At school I failed
I use to be everything
But now I’m nothing.
As I think how many ways to die
I come along a question
Has my whole life been a lie?
I think of something quick and easy
But most of them can back fire at me.
Why do I have these thoughts?
Why can’t I get them out of my head?
Every minute there’s a new way to die.
As I cried in my bed which happens on most nights
I have friend that surround me
And parents that love me
I have everything
But I feel like nothing
I use to have everything
But now I have nothing
I looked ok but now I don’t care.
I need to change but I don’t know how.
Now I cry blood and no more tears
And I feel so weak
As the world fades away from me
I still wanted to be near
But soon I realized
I shot myself in the head.
I’ve made a mess but least none fell on my words
Letters left for my family and friends
They’d understand
Won’t they?