Hurt. (One direction fanfic)

I lost part 1

Zayn P.O.V
I drove home and opened the door. I then slammed it shut. "Hello there. Wow. Someone's mad." Niall backed away and I ignored him. I threw the car keys on the couch and ran to my room where I locked it. I couldn't take this anymore. What's wrong with me? First, I confess my feelings to Angela and we almost got together but Liam just had to be in the picture. Then I see them kiss and feel jealous even though I knew this would happen since I never visited Angela. I punch him and then leave, heartbroken so I date a girl named Perrie who I don't even like. Lastly, I realize this after the first date so I go to visit Angela but she shouts that she hates me so I tell her I hate her when I don't. Maybe I should've visited her more. But I couldn't see her like that. She was pale and weak. Whenever I saw her like that, I felt my heart break and I wanted to die. I hated myself for not saving her. Why couldn't I be brave and see her more often? A loud knock snapped me out of my thoughts. "Zayn! Zayn!" Sh*t, it's Perrie. "I know you're in there!" She shouted and then I heard a click. She burst in the room and hugged me. "Why did you leave without me?" She asked. Crap. I forgot she was with me. "Sorry babe, I was a little mad." "Because of that Angela girl? Right? Oh forget her. She's just a little piece of crap who lies just to get attention." She paused but then continued. "She doesn't love you Zayn. It was all a lie. I'm sure if you never dated her then Niall would have never gotten shot and Eleanor wouldn't have died. Forget her." "FORGET HER?? HOW COULD I FORGET THE GIRL WHO MADE ME HAPPY?? THE GIRL WHO LOVED ME FOR WHO I WAS AND MADE ME FEEL SPECIAL?? THE GIRL THAT HELPED MY DREAMS COME TRUE?? HOW COULD I FORGET HER??" "Zayn, baby, calm down." "CALM DOWN?? HOW COULD I CALM DOWN WHEN YOU JUST TOLD ME TO FORGET THE GIRL THAT I USED TO LOVE?? H*LL, I STILL LOVE HER! I JUST DATED YOU SO THAT I COULD FORGET HER BUT THAT DIDN'T REALLY WORK! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE, YOU B*TCH! I NEVER WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN! OH YEAH. AND WE'RE OVER!!" I was furious. She looked so scared and hurt. She started crying and ran out. "AND CUT THE ACTING!" I yelled. I really needed to punch somebody. No, I needed to kill somebody. The door slowly opened and Niall came in. "Zayn. You lost." What? I was confused. "It's over Zayn. She's gone. Angela's gone. She's with Liam now. She doesn't love you anymore. She hates you Zayn. She never wants to see you again." My heart broke into a million, no, a billion pieces. "I lost. I lost." I muttered. Niall looked frightened. I laughed. I now sounded like a crazy person. "I lost Niall. I lost." I stood up and pushed him out of the way. I took my jacket and got the keys. "Where are you going Zayn?" He asked. "Niall, I lost, remember?"