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dances

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uhm. i was looking for a safe space cuz i heard about this creep called mcfaggot stalking garfeild... this is perfect

am i the a hole?
so what happened to me yesterday so i had a horrible day Then I decided to block my friend.(Lazycat is me so check out the screenshots)
then my new friends got my toxic friend number then she sided with her then ik my toxic friend (lets call her aurora i'll tell u her real name in pms just ask me) ik aurora called me a bitch and a hoe behind my back and being mean to my friends then my 2 besties are now friends with her they left the gc so i had a mental breakdown See More cuz of it then me and my bestie kk was having fun calling her stuff cuz she called us names then one of my besties (lets call her kween) so kween send me a snap of not calling aurora stuff even tho aurora was being a toxic friend anyways then i put on do not disturb and had another breakdown
am i the a hole for having a breakdown cuz my 2 new besties are being friends with my toxic friend and being scared?

I kinda wanna vent about something…
So last night, I went to a dance because my guy friend invited me. He was like “are you going?” So we talked about it and he was like “well if you’re going I’m going” and he said to one of my friends “you’re lucky she’s going otherwise I wouldn’t be going”. I feel like he’s had a crush on me because he gets me candy so I don’t have to get up to get it myself and we talk a lot and he sits next to me a lot. I thought I’d give him a chance at See More the dance (no pun intended) ya know? So we were talking even tho it was rlly awkward at first. He eventually dared me to go dance but I said no and asked him if he just wanted me to go away bc earlier when we were playing mafia he was like “go away why u hanging around me you might be killer I don’t trust u” playfully but it still kinda hurt my feelings.
Back to the dance thing, when I asked him if he wanted me to go away, he shrugged or something I can’t remember and I asked him if he doesn’t like me and he mumbled something but I didn’t quiet catch what it was because the music was so darn loud. He kept on abandoning me for these guys who are older than him. At this point I’ve already given him a chance and he passed with flying colors and I have a crush on him. Then his older brother walked up to me and was like “did (guy friend’s name) abandon you?” And I said yeah, and then his older brother walked away. I don’t know if my guy friend was jealous that his older brother was talking to me or he overheard what I said (which is unlikely, stupid music) but he walked up to me and talked to me after that. Then, he went back to the people he was talking to. Eventually, we played mafia again and I was the killer so I killed him and everyone saw but I didn’t care I wanted revenge for him abandoning me. When the party was coming to an end I grabbed my phone and called my dad for him to pick me up but he told me my mom was already there waiting for me at the entrance so I packed up. I had a feeling that while I was calling my dad my guy friend was staring at me as usual but I didn’t care. I didn’t look back either when I left.
Am I overreacting by crying rn? I just feel like he doesn’t actually like me and that I’m stupid for letting him into my heart like that. And I just feel abandoned and not really cared for, and I would like another view on this, apart from the views of my friends, who thinks he’s a huge jerk and pulled a real jerk move by inviting me and being really serious about wanting me to come, and then ditching me. It’s not like it was a date or anything, I just feel really lost, and I’d like feedback so I can plan what to do next.

sadness