good vibes// tw: self harm//
it’s officially been 2 months I haven’t cut or scratched myself : )
My scars on my arms are starting to clear up a bit
I’m not going to lie though, the reason for this is fear.
My dad told me he’d hurt me if I hurt myself...
it’s officially been 2 months I haven’t cut or scratched myself : )
My scars on my arms are starting to clear up a bit
I’m not going to lie though, the reason for this is fear.
My dad told me he’d hurt me if I hurt myself...
AnimePup
I'm sorry that the only reason that you're not self-harming is because of your dad. I am happy that you are doing well in that area of your life though!!
on December 11, 2018
on December 11, 2018
my parents got me a weighted blanket and it really helps me fall asleep so that’s good
on December 11, 2018
it’s kinda comforting to know that there are other people who know what’s happening to me. These strange feelings I have constantly, other people have them too. After years of wondering why I’m so alone in my illness, I finally find out I’m not.
on December 10, 2018
getting my official bpd diagnosis today ??
Like Jay said, it's hard to accept a diagnosis. Especially when it comes to a mental illness or personality disorder. I have a close friend with BPD and it's not as scary as it might seem. If you don't have it, great. If you do have it, it's good to know because you can treat it. Modern medication and therapy are wonderful tools. Just remember that at the end See More of the day, mental illness doesn't define you. You can still choose the person you want to be.
on December 11, 2018
yeah, i feel you. when my therapist said i had PTSD, i didnt wanna believe it
however, knowing that you have it will be better because you know what you gotta work on to get better instead of thinking you're okay and still suffering
either way, i'm really hoping you get better!!!
however, knowing that you have it will be better because you know what you gotta work on to get better instead of thinking you're okay and still suffering
either way, i'm really hoping you get better!!!
on December 10, 2018
@aeipathy maybe both? idk
it might be nice to know what’s wrong with me
but at the same time I’m in denial that it’s true
it might be nice to know what’s wrong with me
but at the same time I’m in denial that it’s true
on December 10, 2018
on December 10, 2018
and i can’t even tell my friends about my problems.
because every damn time i do some parent finds out and tries to “help”, but they just make my situation worse by calling my parents, which just pisses them off. i have nobody to talk to outside of myself and the few people i know on here, and 90% of the time my cries for help go ignored/unseen on here.
i’m in so much pain right now.
i want it to go away
because every damn time i do some parent finds out and tries to “help”, but they just make my situation worse by calling my parents, which just pisses them off. i have nobody to talk to outside of myself and the few people i know on here, and 90% of the time my cries for help go ignored/unseen on here.
i’m in so much pain right now.
i want it to go away
I know this probably isn't what you want to hear right now, but this will get better. It's just a few more years until you graduate high school and get a supporting job. Or go to uni and live on campus if you choose. And yeah, waiting sucks ass. But you've already toughed it out for years. And a few more years from now, you'll look back on this and be grateful See More you were patient. Think of how great your freedom will be once you can safely leave.
on December 10, 2018
on December 10, 2018
and i can’t deal with my family anymore.
i’m so trapped with them and there’s no hope for me.
i’ll just have to wait. but it’s too long to wait. and i probably won’t graduate on time anyway, so i’ll end up waiting longer than most people.
you know something’s wrong when your therapist asks you if there’s other family you can live with.
sadly, i have none.
i genuinely wish my parents would kick me out. then i could live somewhere else and not have to deal with them.
i’m so trapped with them and there’s no hope for me.
i’ll just have to wait. but it’s too long to wait. and i probably won’t graduate on time anyway, so i’ll end up waiting longer than most people.
you know something’s wrong when your therapist asks you if there’s other family you can live with.
sadly, i have none.
i genuinely wish my parents would kick me out. then i could live somewhere else and not have to deal with them.
on December 10, 2018
im so tired of school.
i’m failing almost every class, and im under so much pressure to do better when i literally cannot
the atmosphere of my school is just bad.
it makes me so depressed and anxious all day
i don’t want to transfer, because i love band and my friends, but those are the only redeeming factors.
everything here is grey and gloomy to me, even on sunny, beautiful days where i shouldn’t have any worries.
i’m failing almost every class, and im under so much pressure to do better when i literally cannot
the atmosphere of my school is just bad.
it makes me so depressed and anxious all day
i don’t want to transfer, because i love band and my friends, but those are the only redeeming factors.
everything here is grey and gloomy to me, even on sunny, beautiful days where i shouldn’t have any worries.
on December 10, 2018
i get to see ??? tomorrow
❤️????????
hopefully he doesn’t see this post bc the link to my account is in my insta bio oops
?????❤️??❤️
sorry for being so in love
❤️????????
hopefully he doesn’t see this post bc the link to my account is in my insta bio oops
?????❤️??❤️
sorry for being so in love
on December 10, 2018
wow milo made some bad content on this hellsite
on December 10, 2018
i'm gonna make a music quiz bc i never make content on here anymore i just rant about my feelings
on December 10, 2018
on December 10, 2018
apparently I’m not “trying hard enough” to get better
yeah that’s the thing about mental illness, it’s a fücking illness.
you wouldn’t tell someone with cancer to “try harder”, would you?
yeah that’s the thing about mental illness, it’s a fücking illness.
you wouldn’t tell someone with cancer to “try harder”, would you?
on December 09, 2018
sad boi hours
Which Queen Songs Should You Listen To?Somebody to Love/Love of my Life
SOMEBODY TO LOVE- this ballad was written by freddie mercury, and it is an emotional song about, well, finding somebody to love. it is my personal favorite song to sing.
LOVE OF MY LIFE- also written by freddie mercury, this is a sad song about the love of someones life breaking their heart. however, contrary to popular belief, this song really wasn't inspired by much.
OVERALL- you seem to be a bit lonely, or maybe just romantic. maybe you are hurt. either way, you will get on your feet eventually. keep going.
"can anybody find me somebody to love?"
"love of my life, you've hurt me"
LOVE OF MY LIFE- also written by freddie mercury, this is a sad song about the love of someones life breaking their heart. however, contrary to popular belief, this song really wasn't inspired by much.
OVERALL- you seem to be a bit lonely, or maybe just romantic. maybe you are hurt. either way, you will get on your feet eventually. keep going.
"can anybody find me somebody to love?"
"love of my life, you've hurt me"
on December 09, 2018
STOP. PUNISHING. PEOPLE. FOR. SUICIDAL. THOUGHTS.
Suicidal people are not weak.
Suicidal people are not stupid.
Stop telling suicidal people how much grief they'd cause their families. That's such a burden to live with. Can you imagine legitimately wanting your own death, only for some lowlife to tell you that you can't because it'd cause OTHER PEOPLE'S PAIN?
That's not a valid reason. It's not okay to live for other people. Instead, how about we find suicidal people reasons to See More live for THEMSELVES.
Suicidal people are not weak.
Suicidal people are not stupid.
Stop telling suicidal people how much grief they'd cause their families. That's such a burden to live with. Can you imagine legitimately wanting your own death, only for some lowlife to tell you that you can't because it'd cause OTHER PEOPLE'S PAIN?
That's not a valid reason. It's not okay to live for other people. Instead, how about we find suicidal people reasons to See More live for THEMSELVES.
on December 08, 2018
my parents want me to switch to a school that'll be more accommodating which sounds awesome in theory but that means ill have to
- leave all my friends
- quit guard
- quit band
- go to a school with little/no fine arts programs
- have to go to school with people who are mentally handicapped, whilst i am just mentally ill
they want to withdraw me next semester and i don't think i can survive without guard and my friends ://
- leave all my friends
- quit guard
- quit band
- go to a school with little/no fine arts programs
- have to go to school with people who are mentally handicapped, whilst i am just mentally ill
they want to withdraw me next semester and i don't think i can survive without guard and my friends ://
on December 08, 2018
my therapist also says (after meeting with my parents) that they are extremely emotionally abusive, which is completely legal in my state, so I can do nothing about it. even though I have multiple mental illnesses and trauma from it, CPS can’t help me because only physical and sexual abuse is illegal in Georgia.
Fück CPS. They can’t fücking help me because emotional trauma and non-physical scars aren’t seen as legitimate.
Fück CPS. They can’t fücking help me because emotional trauma and non-physical scars aren’t seen as legitimate.
on December 08, 2018
my therapist says i need to go to my psychiatrist and get assessed for borderline personality disorder because i show extremely severe signs of it
on December 08, 2018
on December 08, 2018