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hozier on rn
on August 21, 2023
on August 21, 2023
i can’t wait until classes start again so i have skmwthinh to do other than be on here
on August 21, 2023
can’t tell if they want me, they want to be me, or i’m delusional<\3
on August 22, 2023
this is not about anyone i am currently involved w btw LMAO this is a past “lover” who i have not seen in over a year now
on August 22, 2023
on August 21, 2023
on August 20, 2023
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on August 18, 2023
my ass could not win an argument against julien baker i’d b all “sure thing princess😋 whatever u want”
on August 18, 2023
high society was so dumb but god i love this boys and especially d ray. bro was hilarious. “it’s not gay to give your homies cpr is it?”
rex too omg “yeah my grandma’s a gardener and my grandpa owns a coffee shop…” (his grandparents run a dispensary in amsterdam)
on August 17, 2023
on August 17, 2023
i saw this post once that said that the gay people equivalent of men holding up a fish in pictures is showing people plants and never before have i felt so personally violated
on August 16, 2023
i just watched such a good film omg
its called le passione de jeanne d’arc highly highly recommended (it’s one of those 1920s french silent films)
on August 16, 2023
on August 16, 2023
that period of time:
-living with three of the worst possible people to live with
-spending almost every evening in my friends’ dorms until 3 am
-getting the hell beat out of me in mosh pits (i came home from black midi w bruises on my ribs)
-i think i spent more time under the influence of things than actually sober
-ran my own small business and was widely known as “walter west”. made several hundred dollars doing this. (my apartment was regularly searched for drugs and See More someone tried to turn me in but there was 0 proof i’d actually done anything and i was never punished. however i turned her in for having both loads of drugs and an unregistered cat in the dorm bc she is a horrible person and three days later we got a schoolwide email about the school’s drug policies and she got expelled)
-would eat practically anything without concern. i made pot brownies once and left them on counter and was still eating them unbothered after a month
-was always at a party. was invited to so many parties that id have to turn down invitations because i was already going to another party
-had a literal harem. idek how many people i was maintaining weird non monogamous relationships with (consensually ofc everyone knew it was non committed)
-literally had a ladder to climb in my ceiling
-living with three of the worst possible people to live with
-spending almost every evening in my friends’ dorms until 3 am
-getting the hell beat out of me in mosh pits (i came home from black midi w bruises on my ribs)
-i think i spent more time under the influence of things than actually sober
-ran my own small business and was widely known as “walter west”. made several hundred dollars doing this. (my apartment was regularly searched for drugs and See More someone tried to turn me in but there was 0 proof i’d actually done anything and i was never punished. however i turned her in for having both loads of drugs and an unregistered cat in the dorm bc she is a horrible person and three days later we got a schoolwide email about the school’s drug policies and she got expelled)
-would eat practically anything without concern. i made pot brownies once and left them on counter and was still eating them unbothered after a month
-was always at a party. was invited to so many parties that id have to turn down invitations because i was already going to another party
-had a literal harem. idek how many people i was maintaining weird non monogamous relationships with (consensually ofc everyone knew it was non committed)
-literally had a ladder to climb in my ceiling
now i live alone, go to bed at 11, still go to concerts but not as often bc i’m broke, only do drugs on special occasions, still like baking and plan on reopening (i will probably not be making edibles though), have horrible contamination anxiety with food, actually focus on school instead of partying, and have dissolved the harem. no more ceiling room unfortunately.
on August 15, 2023
on August 15, 2023
i may be healthier, better off, safer, happier, and more approachable, but i will NEVER be as strong as i was from september-early december 2022.
on August 15, 2023
in 2 weeks im moving back into my old apartment woooo
gonna b close 2 where the person i’m going out with lives too so we can do that more often (they live an hour away rn)
on August 15, 2023
on August 15, 2023
dee lee ting later idk here’s the link 2 The Page Where I Post Things
https://www.qfeast.com/page/khcWtI/shankrambles?ref=sl
https://www.qfeast.com/page/khcWtI/shankrambles?ref=sl
Shankrambles
I will be rambling here and it’s gonna be really dumb i wish you could make qfeast pages private
on August 12, 2023
theres something so special ab queer relationships that i j don’t get w men idk
(ok to be fair i have had one real serious straight situationship in the past few years LMFAO. the person who i formerly addressed as catboy uses they/them now i think???? not positive i have to ask them)
on August 12, 2023
on August 12, 2023
my mind just processed that 9/11 is in a month what the hell
august is such a weird month why is it almost SEPTEMBER it was just february i am still 18 i am not going to be 20 in 7 months what
on August 11, 2023
on August 11, 2023
we as a society do not talk enough about how fuckking annoying garbage trucks are.
this is not in any way against the workers or anything but we’ve been using these for like 50 years and nobody has figured out any way to make them less loud and obnoxious. there’s an alley right outside my window. it wakes me up every morning (which is like super early i wake up at 7-8 AM maybe 9 on a bad day)
on August 11, 2023
on August 11, 2023
wait omg i think my new docs r finally broken in
on August 11, 2023
to be completely honest i was so ready to come back 15 minutes later and b like “jk lawlz they are most definitely not” but i walked about a mile this morning and i feel great
on August 11, 2023
on August 11, 2023