(Continued from the post below.)
In English, I had another panic attack for no reason. I think it was because everyone was being really loud, and it was giving me a headache. It was horrible.
And in Music, the whole lesson was absolutely disgusting. Literally everyone in the class was being really loud, and they weren't letting the teacher teach us anything. I was the only person who wasn't screaming and shouting. Then the teacher went and got a camera, and she put it at the See More back of the room. She told us that she was going to film everyone in the class misbehaving. I thought this was kind of weird, because there could have been kids in the class who aren't allowed to be filmed. Everyone else thought of that too, and they started yelling at the teacher that she wasn't allowed to film them. After a while, she called the pastoral mentor and told her to come into the lesson. The pastoral mentor yelled at everyone for the rest of the lesson, and it was really scary. Then when the lesson was nearly over, she left the room. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I were the only people who noticed that the camera was still filming all the way through the pastoral mentor's rant. We were still all being filmed while we had to work in silence for the end of the lesson.
Today was just disgusting and scary. :/
In English, I had another panic attack for no reason. I think it was because everyone was being really loud, and it was giving me a headache. It was horrible.
And in Music, the whole lesson was absolutely disgusting. Literally everyone in the class was being really loud, and they weren't letting the teacher teach us anything. I was the only person who wasn't screaming and shouting. Then the teacher went and got a camera, and she put it at the See More back of the room. She told us that she was going to film everyone in the class misbehaving. I thought this was kind of weird, because there could have been kids in the class who aren't allowed to be filmed. Everyone else thought of that too, and they started yelling at the teacher that she wasn't allowed to film them. After a while, she called the pastoral mentor and told her to come into the lesson. The pastoral mentor yelled at everyone for the rest of the lesson, and it was really scary. Then when the lesson was nearly over, she left the room. SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I were the only people who noticed that the camera was still filming all the way through the pastoral mentor's rant. We were still all being filmed while we had to work in silence for the end of the lesson.
Today was just disgusting and scary. :/
on June 15, 2015
Today was awful.
In assembly this morning, the headteacher told us that the inspectors are coming into school tomorrow and on Wednesday. She said that all of our lessons were going to be different, and then she said that we all had to be on out best behaviour so that the inspectors think the school has improved. I got so angry about that, because they shouldn't make us act differently just for the inspectors. They should see the school as it actually is, so that they can judge See More it properly.
In PE, we were playing rounders and I was just standing in a line with my team, waiting for my turn to bat. Badge Girl came up to me, and she asked me to give her my bat. I said no, and she told me to go and get the only other bat that was left, which was really far away from me. I told her to go and get that one, and she mimicked my voice and glared at me. Then the teacher started talking about how everyone had to wear their PE kit when the inspectors came in, and all of the other girls in the class started shouting that teachers shouldn't make us act differently for them. Because of that, we had to sit down and listen to the teacher talk about how the school is 'always trying to be a good school', which was a lie. I agreed with the other girls' opinions, but I didn't agree with them ruining the lesson.
At lunch, TheDoctorsQueen, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I were sat at our usual table eating, and this girl who doesn't usually sit with us came and sat at our table. She heard me talking, and she said, "Isn't Victoria getting so much louder now? I remember when I used to not be able to hear her voice!" I immediately stopped talking, and she kept talking about how 'confident' I was becoming. I started to feel really self conscious, and I ended up having a panic attack. I had to keep breathing in and out until it stopped.
In assembly this morning, the headteacher told us that the inspectors are coming into school tomorrow and on Wednesday. She said that all of our lessons were going to be different, and then she said that we all had to be on out best behaviour so that the inspectors think the school has improved. I got so angry about that, because they shouldn't make us act differently just for the inspectors. They should see the school as it actually is, so that they can judge See More it properly.
In PE, we were playing rounders and I was just standing in a line with my team, waiting for my turn to bat. Badge Girl came up to me, and she asked me to give her my bat. I said no, and she told me to go and get the only other bat that was left, which was really far away from me. I told her to go and get that one, and she mimicked my voice and glared at me. Then the teacher started talking about how everyone had to wear their PE kit when the inspectors came in, and all of the other girls in the class started shouting that teachers shouldn't make us act differently for them. Because of that, we had to sit down and listen to the teacher talk about how the school is 'always trying to be a good school', which was a lie. I agreed with the other girls' opinions, but I didn't agree with them ruining the lesson.
At lunch, TheDoctorsQueen, SkyDoesMinecraft Girl and I were sat at our usual table eating, and this girl who doesn't usually sit with us came and sat at our table. She heard me talking, and she said, "Isn't Victoria getting so much louder now? I remember when I used to not be able to hear her voice!" I immediately stopped talking, and she kept talking about how 'confident' I was becoming. I started to feel really self conscious, and I ended up having a panic attack. I had to keep breathing in and out until it stopped.
@jenesaispas
Yeah. ^_^ But I only really stood up to her because she's a fake friend, and I knew how she would react.
Yeah. ^_^ But I only really stood up to her because she's a fake friend, and I knew how she would react.
on June 15, 2015
on June 15, 2015
I just realised that I've been doing the countdown to No Place in Heaven slightly wrong. It comes out tomorrow, not today.
Oh, well. :/
Oh, well. :/
on June 14, 2015
The song Beautiful To Me by Olly Murs suits my fanfiction so well. It should be the theme song for it or something.
on June 13, 2015
I just made this grunge Mika edit that I'm really proud of. It's probably the best edit I've ever made. ?❤
on June 12, 2015
on June 12, 2015
But I guess I could still do the reaction post thing, because the versions of the songs that I listened to had the pitch changed.
on June 12, 2015
I've listened to most of the songs on the album on that Youtube account now, and I feel bad about it because I told myself that I would listen to it for the first time on the day that it comes out.
Now when it's released, I probably won't be excited about it, because I've already heard most songs on the album. And I was going to do this thing where I post my reaction to each of the songs, but now I can't do it. :/
Now when it's released, I probably won't be excited about it, because I've already heard most songs on the album. And I was going to do this thing where I post my reaction to each of the songs, but now I can't do it. :/
on June 12, 2015
There's another account on Youtube now with all of the songs on the album, but the pitch is changed. :/
on June 12, 2015
Everyone on Twitter has heard all of No Place in Heaven already, because someone created a fake Youtube account and leaked all the songs. The account and all the songs have been deleted because of copyright now, but I just found out about it, so I'm the only person who hasn't heard it. :/
on June 12, 2015
on June 12, 2015
on June 11, 2015
I just found out that Mika likes Marina and the Diamonds' songs. I love her as well, and I never would have expected him to like her, but they are actually quite similar. ?❤
on June 11, 2015
King by Years and Years is in Mika's Deezer playlist. Maybe he based the Good Guys music video on the video for King because he liked it. :/
on June 11, 2015
I just downloaded Deezer, because Mika made a playlist of his favourite songs on it and I wanted to know what sort of music he liked. ?
on June 11, 2015
I just realised that the music video for Good Guys is almost exactly the same as the music video for King by Years and Years. O_O
on June 11, 2015
Today I found out that I have a French speaking test in two weeks. I'm probably going to fail. :/
Just keep practicing as much as you can, that's one of the main things that will help! ?
on June 11, 2015
@Laetitia03
Yeah, actually. But that's almost all of the class. Almost all of the school, actually. The only people who aren't fake and popular are me and this girl who I'm friends with, who the teacher hates a lot.
Yeah, actually. But that's almost all of the class. Almost all of the school, actually. The only people who aren't fake and popular are me and this girl who I'm friends with, who the teacher hates a lot.
on June 11, 2015
on June 11, 2015
This happened today in Maths:
TheDoctorsQueen: I saw something on Tumblr that said gay people always go to hell when they die.
Me: That's bad. . .
TheDoctorsQueen: I know. If Mika went to hell, you'd probably want to go there too just so you could meet him.
Me: Yeah. I know why he went to hell.
TheDoctorsQueen: Why?
Me: There was no place in heaven. See More
TheDoctorsQueen: *starts laughing*
TheDoctorsQueen: I saw something on Tumblr that said gay people always go to hell when they die.
Me: That's bad. . .
TheDoctorsQueen: I know. If Mika went to hell, you'd probably want to go there too just so you could meet him.
Me: Yeah. I know why he went to hell.
TheDoctorsQueen: Why?
Me: There was no place in heaven. See More
TheDoctorsQueen: *starts laughing*
@jenesaispas
I've already been writing it in lessons all of this week, so I've finished it. It's about holidays, because that's our topic.
I've already been writing it in lessons all of this week, so I've finished it. It's about holidays, because that's our topic.
on June 11, 2015
@jenesaispas
No, it's what you do for French exams over here, because it's an FCSE exam. You write an essay, and you try to memorise as much of it as you can. Then you recite it while the teacher records your voice.
No, it's what you do for French exams over here, because it's an FCSE exam. You write an essay, and you try to memorise as much of it as you can. Then you recite it while the teacher records your voice.
on June 11, 2015
@jenesaispas
The teacher actually sits at the side of me and records my voice to give to professional marking people, though. :/
The teacher actually sits at the side of me and records my voice to give to professional marking people, though. :/
on June 11, 2015
on June 11, 2015
Maybe, but maybe not. :/
*hugs you back*
Yeah, but if I told them about it, they'd make a big deal of treating me specially and being overly nice to me just because of the way that I am. I made the mistake of being open about it when I was in primary school, and I got really horribly bullied for it, even more than I already was. :/
Yeah, at least that's something good. ??