the story of my life...you dont wanna read this

MY LIFE MY LIFE MY LIFE MY LIFE SUCKS ( thank you scotty sire)

kay so um you see its difficult cus i dont know the whole story there are so many different sides...LIKE MY DEAD PERSONALITY!!!!
sorry so moving on. but to sum it up i have no idea who my father is possible murderer or rapist never met him soooo.
my mother abandoned me annnd she keeps promising to come back but never does barely calls. its like oh your turning 5? ill be there to visit you! and its lie in those sad movies where the kid is smiling looking through the window and as the kid grows older still looking the smile shrinks and fades..UNLIKE MY DEPRESSION!! *cough* any way soooo i have no idea who these people are but you know they say " im your grandparents and your mom abandoned you" well mommy says frick you all that she left me there for a visit and you never  gave me back.
uuuuuuhh if thats true IAM 14  And AM hERE ILLEGALLY YOU CAN TAKE ME WHENEVER YOU WANT THATS BULL!!! like seriously but this happened before i was born so really if you didnt abandon me then how come your never there when i need you most? how come you have two kids and a new husband?
adults am i right?
they call us teenagers lyers and ...what do they call it....tryna think of my chemical romannce here...They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do
Because the drugs never work
They're gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keepin' you clean
They gonna rip up your heads
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine
thank you mcr, thank you. so yeah I, I dont even cry anymore or get excited when she says shell visit, im 14 and shes been saying it since i was in diapers. also i had a sister but she ran away and she comes to visit...but shes different. she doesnt look at me anymore ill be like  " FREE SHAVA CA DO!" and shell look straight pass me. like im a ghost and invisible, but its ok. im used to it.