All that remains

What goes up must come down

So I had been talking to Tiffany for about 4 months, I figured it was time to make a serious move, so that night I messaged her saying that I thought I had a crush on her, etc... she replied saying that while she saw me as a friend, that was all. I felt devestated, she had become a part of my life, I loved her, and yet she did not feel the same, no matter, it may have just been a matter of time, so I tried to give her some space. There was another guy that I knew she talked to, his name was nick, Nick Harrison. Nick was a big guy, not big as in fat, so much as in big as in just tall and built like a football player. He seemed to enjoy talking to her, I knew in my mind that he wanted her too, I couldn't just let her go, plus Jack was a good friend of Nick's. So I had started talking to Tiffany  at home via messaging:

You: hey,Tiffany :)

Tiffany: Hi

You: so, wazzup?

Tiffany: nm, been talking to Jack Fritz, u?

You:...I gtg, I think I heard the doorbell...

After having messaged her for maybe a minute, I already felt kinda depressed after having learned that she liked Jack, but I was still firm with what I felt, I knew, in my heart, that I loved her more than he ever would. So the next day at school was kinda awkward, but I managed to talk to her a little, but all day I felt as if I was on the verge of having an emotional breakdown. I then wrote her a poem and called it "Sorry Doesn't" :

Sorry doesn't mend my broken heart
sorry doesn't heal my wrist full of marks
sorry doesn't give back the joy I had
sorry doesn't make me any less sad
sorry doesn't give back the friend I lost over you
sorry doesn't take the pain I’m going through
sorry doesn't put back the tears I shed
sorry doesn't rid me of the thoughts in my head

She seemed to like it, but I could tell by her body language that she was kinda worried about me, I lied and told her I was fine to keep from worrying her too much, I knew that the only reason she was worried was that she didn't want to feel the guilt she was feeling for breaking my heart, although now I look back and see that that was just the beginning.