Hawaii sucks when You're white

we move

so about tow years ago we moved to Hawaii. We thought it was going to be an amazing experience  for all of us and at first it was everything was going well. But then school started. On Hawaii some of the locals dont like white people but most of them live in waianae which is clear across the island from where i live but they all some how found me. So I'm a 6'6 white 16 year old and so that being that i always have a huge target painted on my back for the locals. Dont get me wrong not all of them are total as$holes most of them are nice but the ones who hate me are total as$holes.

             So school started and first quarter went by with out a problem so i thought I was ok until i started playing sports I swam for our school and thats when I started to get bullied I would be called fag and all that generic shlt but one day when I came to school and there were a group of local kids waiting for me. I tried to walk past but one of them grabbed my bag and threw me to the ground and started to ask me why I was invading their Aina and then they started to kick me and hit me. I was sent home that day but the kids were not suspended or punished. SO this happened on a daily for about a semester. so the I started to cut and was sent to psych board (mental hospital) when i got back every thing was fine and i went to school again. The physical bullying stopped but then the cyber bullying started I had to shut down almost all of my social media accounts because it was getting that bad. I ended up cutting again and going back to the loony bin. So when i came back there was nothing to do i have nothing but a few friends on base that I hang out with but other than that nothing else I cant leave off base because I'm to afraid of being bullied again so now I sit in my house contemplating life or death which one will i choose probably death it looks pretty nice right now