My thoughts (1)

Thoughts

        Giving up is easy, its kind of to easy, so is it really the right option? I have time to think about these things because im always alone with my thoughts. Always thinking about what i could have done to prevent certain situations. My thoughts get me into trouble, but they also keep me safe and entertained. Each friend i lose, i give up on hope for the right friend more and more. When i lose them my thoughts keep me company, but they also make me deppresed. They convince me i'm a mess up, a no good ass hole. They convince me i could have done something, but they also convince me that i couldn't. They convince me to think about lots of things, some i don't want to think about, but its hard not to.

My mind convinces me everything is my fault whether it was or wasn't. I try to stay positive i try to keep hoping, but it's getting hard. Sadly unlike giving up, hope is not easy to hold on to, and that sucks. Because if it were, maybe that would make things better. Maybe i would stop losing so many people. Just maybe.