My Twin Sister

My Twin Sister

"Care about what people say and you will be their prisoner".
"Life is ten percent what you experience and ninety percent how you respond to it"
Since college people always compared the differences between I and my twin sister. Not having the understanding of quantity difference of personality. We did look alike but she was more of a gorgeous and elegant person than me. My twin sister has always been competitive of me likewise she looks down on me thinking me as weak and fake. She hates my guts and regrets relating to someone like me. It does show a look in her eyes telling me she’s jealous.
In my family a traditional rule which reigns in my family for generations was that whoever who is responsible, marries first -a guy from a trained home and has a good job- gets a property of 6 million dollars and having or dad’s company. In college she was noticed by everyone and the girls in the cheerleading club were famished by her looks. In my opinion her looks were nice but those are fake. The cutest boys have tried asking her out but she rejects them thinking she’s more better than everyone for her looks.  I remember once she did plastic surgery because people were making fun of her being chubby in high school. She wanted to attract her crush but he never noticed her but me. After the surgery he thought she was cute but never had feelings for her but me. In high school I was noticed by everyone because I was very pretty but never really had a style of fashion but I always simple {had lots of friends, very smart, all the boys were attracted to me} . I never wanted to be popular in high school but focus on my studies. My sister Lexi was always jealous of me in high school of everything going well for me and holds a grudge and blames me of stealing her first ever crush. I feel guilty if I ever made her feel unimportant but it also not my fault because  I never knew her crush liked me. I mean me to myself I never consider my self as an important person[VIP]. At home my parents will compare me to my sister saying I’m more encumbered than her .  it changes she’s competing with me and lies to my parent  in what I do to my reasoning :she’s a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR and a PSYCHO.
Everything changes now, I decided to be a nerd to focus more on my books and not attract any more attention. I really hate when all attention is focused on me makes me feel uncomfortable . She thinks I'm perfect in everything to gain attention and praises from people especially the person who she anticipate on always treat me fairly than her .Like she's not their own blood daughter ( In High School I remebered she was very chubby) Which we weren't accepted for who we are but our differences. In our downfall our parent will love one fairly than the other which made it feel like comparing and makes hate falls on us and change who we are .
Who knows what the future holds or turns around for us