creepypasta the true story of nightmare thrill

the begining of pain day 1

*ring ring* ugggh i rolled out of bed and glared at my alarm  clock with pure hate i think it enjoys its job. i might as well get up  i stood up from my bed and stretched i  
walked over to my closet and grabbed a pair of pants and my favorit black shirt and my black gloves after i was done getting dressed  i looked in the mirror to look at my eyes i was born with  white eyes no i'm not blind its just because   i thought was a birth defect i get bullied and get called  demon child but don't care really  i think it doesn't matter what you look like  but others at my school disagree  i think its bull that they cant get to know me and just judge me for my looks . i  grabbed my shoes and put them  
  on i walked out mey room and went down stairs    i arrived into the kitchen and ate the food i made  last night i grabbed my bag and went outside  and closed the front door and walked to the school . i arrived at the school everyone sneered at me  i felt very bored  so i ignored them and continued too walk only to get grabbed i was about to  pull away only to get twisted around and punched in the face i tasted blood filled  my mouth i felt anger rise but i  continued to walk away only to here  the boy comment oh  are you scared ? good be afraid  i turned around with a smirk and faced him i walked over to him and my smirk widen'd i don't feel fear be i am fear  be careful even in dreams can be deadly  are you threatening me ass hole was all he said hmmm i don't know am i?  i felt  amusme'nt hit me hard i'm actually enjoying this .. i felt pain in my  
  jaw hmm he punched me maybe i will let him have a few hits  after hitting me a few times  i smirked my turn i punched his nose and his eye i then  pulled out a very special knife and stabbed his neck before running away i got to class i finished my homework and walked out the school building as i walked to  my house i heard footsteps following me i turned and saw the boy that bullied me his name is daman  he was following me i decided im going to run so i did i started to run only to hear the footsteps quicken i ran into the woods and continued to run i saw a lake  and ran straight to it  trying to find a way to escape  only to be pushed in  i felt like my head was being held down i cant move that was all i could think is this how it will end i never truly got to live never felt love  or had a girlfriend though then again i'm asexual not interested so i was all ways was hated  so what was the pointin living my lungs are burning oh its cold im going to die i could not think no more i closed my eyes and stopped trying to live i let go of life and every thing went black i'm free finally i might feel  happy or feel emotions im finally free.