Someone worthless

what I AM good at..

Hey,

this is me... Alex. It's been about 3 years since I posted on this story. I've learned so much over the years. I am better at stuff then I use to be.  I am way better at art now. I am finally proud of myself. The things that hurt me the most 3 years ago have finally vanished. I truly know who I am.  I am a friend that would be there for others when they won't be there for me. But who cares about me. I am perfectly fine of feeling sad. it's normal to feel sad now and days. I have way more friends then I said I did. The friends that I lost and gain over the years truly know who I am. A girl that just wants people to know who she is. And that girl is so smart. she knows what she's talking about. She knows what words are. She is going to finish school and feel like she succeeds in life. and in college..... I'm probably not going to college, but if I do. I will definitely finish. Then the bullies, what are bullies? I haven't seen one since I've gotten into High School. I may still be a baby and cry most of the time but that's because I know people love me, and the people that I hurt in 6th grade. I am sorry. I was a jerk and thought being an ass was cool. I'm talking about one person. I was a total jerk to them. when they left I felt so alone and sad. I knew I messed up. I felt like I ruin our friendship. I cried at school once remembering all the freaked up things I did to them. I mean, they hit me sometimes. BUT THAT'S DIFFERENT-
         I am still kinda a jerk now but it's in a way my friends know that I am joking around to them. Then a year later they came back. I knew that I can fix everything I did to them. 8th grade was an amazing year for me. To see an old friend that I was a jerk too and fix my mistakes was awesome. They left again but I wasn't sad anymore. We fixed our mistakes. I knew I did better. We still chat online and that's awesome. I forgot I don't call thing bulling but in 8th grade, this boy called me Spray bottle because the way I sneeze so now that I am in High school the guys just gave me the nickname Spray bottle. I fond that funny- I've learned lots over the 3 years, grammar, art, the MEANING of friendship, and most importantly, myself. I finally learned to love myself. I am no longer worthless.  

Thank you guys for reading this. <33333