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Hypocrite

I and Michiko became friends in such a short time. It was just 5 minutes before I arrived the school. "At this rate I'll become so popular" I thought
Michiko and we're heading towards library . My heart started to pound on seeing somebody
It was Him...
Makoto
I smiled and tried to wave my hand to him but stopped in half way as I was too shy & wasn't sure if he remembers me
Michiko rushed to the library and she bumped into Makoto
"Hey mister..watch where you're going" she shouted
"Um..Excuse me but wasn't it you who was running" Makoto glared at her
"Oh yeah??" She screamed she flipped her hair again and walked towards me
"He is so annoying " she muttered
I didn't know what to say. I didn't want her to know that he's my crush because I wanted to keep it as a secret & she is anyway a person I just met.

We spent the whole day laughing, chatting & talking
She sits next to me in the class
I actually wanted to get closer to Makoto but somehow ended up being with her the whole day.

But I was feeling so happy to make a new friend
Things started to change a little bit.
It seemed like I was too happy to have her as a friend that I actually did all her chores
I returned her books to the library, I carried her bag.
"It's common to help a friend " I said to inner self which was predicting something bad

Days started to change even more. She was asking me how she looked , how she sings, how pretty she is
It was obvious that she wanted a positive answer

I began to praise her as I didn't want to loose her
I said "Nooo you look gorgeous!"
"Your song is awesome"
"Aw you are so beautiful"
I had to say something good to her at least once a day
Inside I felt really very wrong but pretended to enjoy the whole thing
She messing with other guys. Looking at her laughing with other guys. I felt a bit bad because in the group of guys she always chat has Makoto & she was kind of happy talking to her which naturally made me a bit jealous but i acted like I was happy .
I even said unexpected things like
.... "You and Makoto make a good pair"
Everyone says that but why did I say that? I didn't know why I was doing that even feeling bad saying that
She always blushes when I say that and says "oh don't be silly" she was enjoying it. It looked like I was enjoying too
But deep down I felt horrible
Saying things you never wanted to... Felt really bad
I  was so  disgusted of myself
I thought I was such a..


Hypocrite.