jul backstory

as of july 14 2022

i have 2 years of stuff to fill in on.
me and katzy broke up bc he was almost 18 and i was 13, plus didnt support acab and i was like F U!!!! i met some dude on a server names oreo / curtis and we had our own server and i on and off dated him for like 3 months and then we just broke up l o l. once school started, i fell back in love w/ miko (WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE) and then she did the bad shit and left me for some australian discord girl. at this point i was like ughegub. i sorta dated a girl named ozzy but i didnt think we were, and then she thought i was “cheating” bc of the next 2 people im abt to explain but thats why we broke up and she drew a pic of her killing me . so when i got into high school i met a dude named john and we became besties and we dated for like a week and then i  was like “im mentally bad plus this guy is so similar to me it feels like im dating myself” and broke off. then i became obsessed with someone i met on an obscure youtubers discord named eli and that was horrible and i dont think abt tbst but then….. I MET GREY!!!! and i literally instantly fell for them and any remaining attractuon i had for eli disintegrated and i literally broke up w him a few days after i met grey bc i was so in love with grey. so now me and grey r cool dating its been almost 7 months and if they leave me i dont think im gonna recover bc theyve never done anything to wrong me. im not even saying that in a bpd ur so perfect way its literslly like theyre just so nice even tho i be evil sometimes. likr with miko she told me if i was suicidal she would leave me and i tried to fix myself for her and then she just became so sexual wirh me and then left when i didnt wanns be purely sex rps anymore but grey is like patient asf and if i told grey that i never wanted to think abt sex again theyd feel the exact same way abt me, wtf! if i update this again ima be very sad bc that means me and grey broke up tho