Okay, I'm Back.
Alright, sorry guys....um, so....this pain. I can't seem to feel it at times, but I want someone I can talk to....someone besides God and parents or whatever the case may be. I want.....now please don't laugh of make fun of me....a...oh gosh darn it I'll just say it-a wife. Or at least, I did. I wanted someone here who could take care of me, but at the same time, I can't seem to feel love anymore, remember? If I'm close to someone, I just can't stop, but to push them away.I'm so bitter, but I don't want to be. I cold and heartless, but I can't help it. I feel like a...machine. I'm just there, no purpose, no hope, little love. I'm yesterdays' model. I like old fashoined romance, games, video games, and few modern things. But...I don't fit in. I'm a legend, used to be something great in a veriety of ways, now...
I'm nothing-that's how I feel deep inside. Even the tears I'm crying right now, the heart ripping into two....it feels all like just programming. Now I know I'm not really a machine, but that's how I feel. Now, how can anyone want to be around that!? How can anyone love a hunk of live flash and a dead spirit. Hell, what am I doing here!? I wish I was dead like my brother! I didn;t eveng et to meet him...NOTHING IS....I dunno....;~; Sorry, I'm......going to take a break....
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