Pseudo Pleasure

Begging The Questing "Why"?

I walk into Setsuna's room. She jumps in surprise. I, shocked by her sudden, rapid movement say "I, um, just came to bring you dinner". "Oh... You have my gratitude",,,, She says, gently taking the plate from my hands. "I should probably go". I say. She replies. "Okay", with a  look of sadness on her face. "What's wrong"? I ask. "I'm always alone"... She says. "I could stay in here with you". I suggest. "No". She says "I'm lonely, but it's dangerous not to be alone.". We tell each other "Goodbye". and I exit the room.
  Based on what I know about her past, I can see why she feels that way. It saddens me to think, that an innocent little girl's view of... Well, everything has been tainted. I get angry once again, and my fists subconsciously ball up. I see golden blonde hair wave past me. Confused, I look up. "Keith"! Shouts Marika. She didn't seem mad, but usually only someone's who's angry, would  shout like she did. I wait for her to say something else. "If you're that angry, go hit a tree, or something. Don't you dare hurt anyone, here". 
  She wasn't shouting this time. Her voice sounded like a concerned, mother, or older sister. I'm still confused. Do I look angry? I know I was for a minute, after leaving Setsuna's room. I suddenly notice that my fists were balled up, that must be why. "S-sorry". I tell her. "I was just thinking, I wasn't really going to hit anything". She looks at me with worried eyes, before saying "Good! Good"... She still stood there, and I was curious as to why. I look at my phone, it's already 10:20 somehow. 
  "Um, I'm going to bed". I say. An upset look comes across Marika's face. "Good". She says. "Less to worry about". "Don't worry yourself to much". I say, walking to my room. That girl is odd, one minute she seems to hate me, the next minute she seems to be worried about me, or just not hate me, I guess. I open the door. To my surprise it was the wrong room. Blossom, and Marika's  room. I caught Blossom at a really bad time.
 "Aaaah"! She screams. The liud, high pitch hurts my ears. She was getting dressed, probably for bed, and I managed to see her completely naked. "Why are you still looking at me"!? She asks, hiding her  non-existent chest, and "private area". I don't know why... She was right. My eyes were glued to her from the second I walked in. I'm not someone who likes to creep on little girls, though... So, why?
  I guess it's just a man's natural action. I struggle to drop my head, and stare at the floor. "S-sorry". I say. "I walked into the wrong"- Before I can finish Marika walks in.. She walks in at the perfect moment, she gets to see me, embarrassed struggling to control my wandering eyes, and her little sister, scared, shielding her naked body. 
 "Pervert'! Yells Marika. Stefania, and Azula appear from behind her. Azula just stands there, like a robot without any power. Stefania asks "What is going on"? In her thick accent. "This pervert, pedophile is creeping on my sister"! Screams Marika. "Keith"? Stefania exclaims. She looks shocked, I can tell I have a lot to clear up. "I just walked into the wrong room". I yell, getting angry. "I swear"! "Yeah, right". Says Marika in a rude, better-than-you attitude.
  She almost always had that attitude, I can tell, and it's only my second day here. "I see"... Says Stefania. "Marika, you are not  wise person... I can tell Keith is not liar". She walks away looking worried. Her English may be broken, and she may not understand somethings, but I can tell Stefania has a kind heart. She seems like the perfect woman... A kind heart, busty, curvy, body, and a naive personality.  
 Azula steps up, and says, "Keith... I believe you, but I should go now... Please forgive Marika". She then walks away. Leaving my with just the two girls I don't want to talk to right now. "Please forgive Marika". what does she mean? I really want to know, but for know I'm just happy that at least her, and Stefania are on my side. "Well"!? Asks Marika. "I'm telling the truth"! I shout. I calm myself do before saying "Blossom, I'm sorry this incident had to happen, I hope you forgive me, and don't think of me as a pervert. Blossom looks down, looking sad, still covering herself with her hands. "It's alright I believe you"... She says. "It's all my fault for screaming . "No it;s not". I reassure her. "You were just surprised... I should leave now so you can get dressed. Marika I don't really have anything more to say to you, except for I  want Blossom's forgiveness, not yours. Hate me forever I don't care". As I walk out Blossom says "See you tomorrow Keith, it's part m bedtime, but don't worry about tonight". "Thank you". I tell her. I notice Marika looks like she's about to cry., but I leave anyway. If I were to try to see what's wrong, she'd probably just yell at me., so I go to my room.
  I lay in my futon, but I can't sleep. I keep picturing Blossom's naked body, and Marika's face, on the brink of tears, as I left. I try to think of Blossom, Stefania, and Azula's kind, trusting words, but they do nothing for me. I'm concerned, why is my brain obsessed with that little girls naked body? There's nothing sexy about it, or anything. Why did Marika look so sad? I just don't get it. I lie there for a while. "Screw this"! I think, because I can't sleep. I check on Setsuna, she's asleep, and I go to the back porch.
 Azula's out there, leaning against the wall that separates the porch from, the backyard intensely gazing at the night sky. "What are you doing I ask"? I've never seen someone so intrigued by.... The sky. "I was gazing at the moon"... She says. "I do it often... Almost... Every... Night". Her vice was monotone as usual, but in her eyes it looked like she missed something. Like she met aliens from the moon, had a grand ole time with them, and misses them now that they've gone home. That thought makes me chuckle a little.
   "Hmm"...? She says looking at me. "Oh, nothing". I tell her. "I just remembered something funny". I unwillingly smile big. She goes back to staring into the midnight sky. "What's so interesting about the moon"? I ask, growing very curious.
   "I don't know... It just comforts me"... She says. "Er... Alright". I say, still puzzled. "By the way do you want to know something"? She asks. "My middle name is Luna... It seems oddly fitting"... I smile at her, and ask "What's your last name". She looks at me, and replies  "Yamaguchi.... Did you not know that I am Mr.Yamaguchi's.... Adopted daughter"? "Oh yeah"... I say. "Sorry I forgot.... Azula Luna Yamaguchi, that's an odd, but kind of charming name. Azula still looks a up, at the sky silently. We stand in silence for 30 minutes. Azula breaks the silence with "Well... Humans... Need sleep,,, I''m going to bed". She walks inside leaving me alone, and feeling lonely. "Yeah I'd better go to bed, myself". I say, even though I know she's already gone. I return to my room, and am somehow able to sleep. Me, and Azula's talk did seem strangely comforting, but why?

- Why? So many things, just from today alone bring that age old question to life.