Two sides

Dysphoria

Dysphoria is when.. well.. look at the picture. You don't feel comfortable in your body or looks. Whenever I am a boy, or leaning to it, I get Dysphoria. I believe it is body and social dysphoria, or just body. Here is how I feel:
-The urge to put on boy clothes. Wearing girl clothes will only make it much worse
-The urge to hide my chest
-Anxious or nervous, want to rip my hair out
-Feels lonely and like a reject
-The back of my mind is telling me "its wrong, Its all wrong"
-feeling the urge to cut my hair, but I don't
-look in the mirror and try and make myself look like a boy (its actually not too hard)
-Stay away from people cause of how uncomfortable I am/ Feel like they would hate me

Yeah.. Its bad. Like a itch you cant scratch no matter how hard you try. In my case its cause I don't have the necessary things to stop Dysphoria. Here's how to fix/help it:
-wear a binder
-Cut hair to look like a boy/girls
-Wear boy clothes

But until my parents help me, I will always have this curse. But hopefully today (december 9, 2020) Ill fix this!