The Bliss Description

My Love or my Best Friend?

“Wow! He’s so adorable!” I blurted out like an idiot. “Yeah I just got him a week ago and he’s in better condition than he was in the pound.” “I wish I could have a puppy.” I frowned and stared straight into his dreamy eyes. As we went deep into conversation he said something that made me flutter in side like a little girl. “Hey Emma, do you want to go down by the lake?” I was so excited I felt like I was going to burst into laughter and scream in excitement. “Yeah I would LOVE to go with you!” I said so quickly, almost too quickly. I thought it was a date at first, but as we started to talk some more I wasn’t sure what was going on here…  Whenever I bring up a simple romantic conversation, he always changes the subject. I have no idea what is happening to me right now, I mean what the heck is going on?!?! We walked all over the town and by the lake; he bought me vanilla ice cream but he did not try to be romantic in any other way than that.

So the day went on and on and on until I decided to tell him how I truly felt… Well at least I tried. “So Brad I really… Umm well… I wanted to know… I mean I want YOU to know…” I couldn’t say it! “Is something wrong?” He frowned a little and his white glistening teeth disappeared. Then I lied and changed my thoughts so he wouldn’t know about my feelings for him. “I wanted to know what your favorite ice cream is!” I forced a smile. I’m an idiot, I already know his favorite ice cream, chocolate, and that’s his favorite flavor. “Are you ok?” We always eat ice cream together after school… It’s chocolate…” He told me very slowly. “Well, I knew that, I just wanted to see if you changed your mind!” I made that up, it was a cover story. “Thank goodness, I thought you were forgetting me!” He said as he smiled really big for me so I could see his big white teeth. As we kept talking I really honestly tried to stay at a low level of being romantic but to be honest it totally backfired on me like I was a garbage dump. I had no idea what I was going to do! I was so embarrassed! He kept giving me these looks that totally made me melt! Like when he tilts his head and smiles and laughs, it makes me want to melt into chocolate! When it got late and I was not getting any ware with this “relationship” I wanted to cry and run hope and sit on my cushiony bed! But then he told me something that could have changed EVREYTHING!

“Hey Emma I have always liked you, I mean not as a friend, more than that, I just wanted you to know that. I was shocked but then I said something so stupid I feel like I was an idiot ready to die! “Well I don’t know about that!” And then something even worse happened to me! I threw up right there and his pants… I felt like I was going to die. How could that have happened? “Wow Emma, you ok!” Then I noticed that someone from my school was watching me! She looked so pleased! It made me mad, so than I did something so horrible! I took Brads face in my hands and kissed him. He blushed profoundly and then he kissed me back. Now I was confused, did I really just do that? Then the girl squinted and then glared at me and walked away. “Hey Emma what was that all about?” “Oh just proving something.” Then I felt bad about saying that because right then he started to frown.  Then his phone beeped and just when I thought he was he was going to say something romantic he said to me, “Hey I have to go my dad needs me.” “I will see you at school though right?” Then I forced a big pretty smile. “Yeah of course!” Then he smiled and walked up the hill slowly and then said “I can’t wait to go on our best friend crashing party every week!” Then he smiled and ran the rest of the way up the hill to go to his dad. I was so confused right know. Wait so did he just think of me as his best friend and nothing more? Or like his I’m crushing on you want to be my girlfriend? I for sure had no idea what to do.

So I started to slowly walk towards my house and I kept glancing at him but all he would do in return to my staring is smile and wave, so I kept on walking till I got home. “Emma where have you been?” My mom looked like she just went on a train, fell of, and had a heart attack because she ran over and started to stare all around me like I was injured. “I was with Brad!” I said a little to annoyed. “Oh well, I hope you two had fun!” She said as she walked back into the kitchen. Then I walked to my room and jumped on my bed like I was a little girl again. I took my clothes of and put on my blue moon pajamas. When my mom called me for dinner I said I wasn’t hungry so I could keep thinking about Brad. I didn’t know what to do with him! I mean he is my best friend, so if I was his girlfriend that would wreck a lot of things. But I absolutely can’t decide if I want him to be my best friend or my boyfriend. So what should I do!?! I kept thinking about Brad for at least 2 hours, but then after a half hour of more thinking and debating it hit me like I just got punched in the stomach. How did I not get this before? So if Brad refused to talk about anything romantic and all he did to be romantic was buy me ice cream and kiss me… Is Brad my love, or my Best friend?