Just An Outcast's Diary

Harsh Encounters

Sept.20,
12:38
    I propped down my tray, and nervously sat down in the bright, blue, plastic chairs. I was unprepared for the harsh words that would soon follow. "Uh-em excuuuuuse me"! Kassandra screeched, then slammed my tray on me with a nasty smirk. I stood there for a moment, I was mad, and disappointed. I was mad because she slammed my tray, and thinks she rules over everybody else. I was at the same time disappointed because I really wanted to be popular like her, and hang out with her, and her group. I just wish she would at least TRY to get to know me before acting so rude, so she at least has a reason to hate me. She doesn't know me. I may not  be the most desirable person, and I can be shy, and seem kind of weird I guess, but she can't just tell me where I can, and can't sit. This is why I hate school. Not the hours, not the work, but the people.
2:30
    After lunch   I had earth science, and not much time to write. I was neck deep in homework because I forgot to do Thursday's, and Friday's worth of papers. I was so done with wasting this much time, and I so want to be a ditcher.
4:15
    I looked at myself in the mirror. I saw my straight, pitch black hair. It looked with strands, and strands of black licorice I guess. I saw my dark blue jeans, and dark grey blouse. I guess I was nothing much. Maybe hat's why Kassandra doesn't like me. I wish to be pretty like her. Everything so perfect about her, I couldn't help but let a few tears fall. There's even a guy. A guy I like....Matt....His name is Matt. If I could even talk to him maybe things would be a little better for me. A guy that good looking would surely catch Kassandra's attention though. I wonder if she likes him? Or even worse... What if he likes her? Or, even someone else. I know he'd never like me, but it still hurts to think about it. All I can do is admire him from afar. It's so depressing.
    Saturday, September 26.
    I decided to change my look. I want to make myself more attractive. So today I went to the mall. I stopped into A glitzy makeup store, and bought some makeup. Some red lipstick, pink lip gloss, assorted shades of eye shadow, mascara, black eye liner, and fitting blush. I also stopped by several trendy clothes stores. I got some mini-skirts, shorts, jeans, T-shirts, blouses, and tanktops.I also went to a girly accessory shop. Finally I bought some new shoes, and finished out my wallet there. I found a designer purse on sale for 50$. It was from a few seasons ago. I hope Kassandra will approve, and I hope Matt will like, or at least even look. Which is better, him not noticing me at all, or him noticing me, and not liking what he sees? I'm gonna have to go with that first one. Anyways I'm trying on my new clothes now....
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